Man, I haven't posted in a long time. It's amazing I still get comments, haha. That's cool, thanks for all the comments.

Work is going good. Starting to get busy again. Gotta prepare for the senior rush this summer. All you next year seniors, come to my photography studio. If you are out of state, still come!! haha. J/K. hehe. I pray that our senior pictures goes really well. The owner put so much into it to advertise and everything and they did over 100 last year so hopefully we'll at least double that this year. A lot of people said they really enjoyed our work and want to come to our studio for senior pictures. So that's really cool to hear. On top of everything I do, the owner is giving me more!! I really have to start organizing my time a lot more closely. She's giving me charge of the mall location now too. So on top of everything that's going on in the office, I have to take care of the mall too. I'm just like...WOAH!!! I really need lots of wisdom to really do my job. I can't depend on my own strength and ideas. I have to get it all from God. I'm so tired today and yet, I haven't fallen asleep at work yet. It's seriously God's strength and not mine. Praise God, Thank You Jesus!! So that's been really cool, but I just have to pray and ask for God's help cause I can't do it alone. Praise God I never had to do it alone and I never will have to do it alone.

I've been questioning some things lately. I met someone new a while back. This person is a really cool person. The thing is, this person is like how I used to be. Pretty insulting with jokes. May never mean it, but the words themselves are just harsh and mean. I do my best to love this person and do what the Bible says to do. The problem is, the more I get to know this person, the more I don't want to know this person. We definitely met for a reason. I believe that with all my heart. I just don't know why God had us meet. I've talked to God about it and He's told me what to do. Most of it is written so I'm not surprised that He would have me do that. The thing is...this friend of mine makes it sooo hard for me to do that. I don't even know what to do. I haven't exploded yet, but rather have taken everything into prayer. I just might though one day. I pray that day never happens cause my friend doesn't deserve that. I've just went to God to do everything. The other thing I've been wondering is...what is this exactly? Is it a test? God doesn't test us. It is most definitely as James says that the trying of our faith produces patience. Cause I'm learning more patience as I go through this. However, God doesn't test or tempt us so what is this exactly? I'm a bit confused. I want to know the truth because the truth will set me free. Free from what though? Tests, trials, temptations? I certainly hope so, haha. Nah, I'm just kidding. Free from opression. Free from our stupid adversary. Anyway, still have questions that need answering. I'll just keep seeking God and asking for the answer. He'll reveal it to me when the time is right. Praise God.

My birthday is coming up. Praise God!!!! I am excited for my birthday, but at the same time, I'm not, hehe. I'm excited and VERY thankful cause God chose that specific date to put me on this earth. For that, I'm so thankful for that day. I'm not excited cause I'm not really doing anything. I planned a day, but I'm going to change the plans a bit. I don't know who's actually coming. I do have a few people already on the list that I know are coming and that's really cool. I'm thankful that they wanna hang out on my birthday, hehe. So that should be a lot of fun. We'll see. My birthday is this Friday, May 28. It's cool cause my best friend Bobby's birthday is Sunday, May 30. Except he was born in 1981 and I was born in 1982. So I'm 363 days younger than him, hehe. But this Saturday, we should be hanging out. The coolest thing is, besides me and him hanging out together, I'll get to meet his girlfriend. An awesome sister in Christ who just loves God with all her heart. His parents love her, his family loves her, and her parents and family love him. And of course, they both love each other so much. I'm so happy for them. Now, I'm the last one that has to approve or rather "approve". I've heard so much about her that I know her pretty well already. I think she's awesome. Very beautiful sister and on fire for God. So I'm really happy for him and for her. I know how awesome my best friend is so I know he's going to bless her life...which he already has, haha. And since I talk to him and she's all he talks about, she's really blessed him too. They are just awesome. A couple I'd like to really learn from, hehe. Praise God!!! for bringing them together when He did. The timing was perfect, just like God. hehe.

I can't wait for my church to call me back about the internship. I'm supposed to go in for an interview. It's like a job, hehe. I can't wait, I'm really excited. The thing is, I would really like to stay on staff and work here. So we'll see what the owner thinks and see if it's in God's will for me to stay on staff while I do the internship. Gotta pray about that and see what God wants.

Anyway, that's about it for now. I have to get back to work. You know, working hard....at hardly working, hehe. That's why I'm posting on my xanga while I'm at work. That's alright though. The people here have to do a blog for the magazine we put out. So they have to do it too. I just do it here on xanga, hehe. Alright, take care everyone. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

I put a new picture on my profile, hehe. It was a fun picture I took of myself lying in my bed, hehe. Just playing around with my digital camera. I thought it was a fun one so I put it up, hehe. The thing that sucks is I lost the picture Scott put on the site. It was really cool picture too.  That's alright, I like my picture, hehe. Gotta get another one of my congregation praising the Lord. That would be awesome. I'd love that, hehe.

I finally finished my paperwork for the internship. I've been putting it off and putting it off. The devil really doesn't want me to join this thing, that's all I can say, hehe. I can't wait to start it. God has totally provided for it thus far. I just have to get my application in now, hehe. Praise God. I may just do it today when I run errands for the company. I work right by my church anyway. I'll just drop it off for Eric, hehe. Praise God Praise God!!

Work has been going good. The thing that sucks the most though is that all the people that were here before me are leaving. Some got fired, others left because of other opportunities. Others are spending their final days here. It sucks, all the veterans are leaving. There are two more photographers that are staying that were here before me, but that's about it. Everyone else is gone. Sad, but what can you expect? People gotta move on with their lives. I dont' plan on being here my whole life either so that's totally understandable. They are all hard workers and great people to work with. I'm going to miss them, but I'm also going to have more work too now that I have people working under me. So it's exciting, but sucky at the same time. So it's all how you see it I guess. I wish them all the best of luck and much success in the future. I met them when I did and who knows what God has planned for us in the future, hehe. Who knows, I may meet them again in the future. You never know, hehe. I know what I'm going to be doing, but I don't know their futures and how it's going to play into my future or how I'm going to play into their future. So that's kind of interesting to think about, hehe.

My good friend Crystal is starting work tomorrow. That's really exciting. She's such an awesome girl. Very smart, very beautiful, very nice and sweet. She's simply amazing, hehe. That's the best word I guess. I'm sure there are better words, but that's the only one I can think of right now, haha. She starts work with us tomorrow and she'll be working under me, haha. I have so much authority, haha. I have power over people.  Anyway, that's raelly exciting and I'm excited for her. She was very excited when she got the job. Cause she's got inner connections, she walked in, introduced herself, and the manager asked when she could start. hahaha. That was her interview. I told her to trust me and that I would take care of everything. I did.  Actually, it was more God than anything. I'm just a vessel and God has given me favor. So I'm very thankful to God for that, hehe. Just one of many things. And many isn't even the right word for it. It's a lot!! haha. It reminds me a lot of God our Father. He just says trust Me and gets things done for us and we are like....how'd you do that? She was the exact same way. I just told her that I have my ways. hahaha. To tell you the truth, I didn't do anything. I just said, I have a friend that's interested in working for us and the owner said ok.

I got to spend time with Bobby on Monday night. That was a lot of fun. We went out to Chili's, our restaurant.and just ate and talked. It was a lot of fun. Even though it was fun, it wasn't like how it usually is where we have awesome intense fellowship. Probably because when we used to fellowship, it was more in our apartment, haha. We get to be more open without having the problem of other people hearing. Not that we don't want them to hear it, but I'm sure they just don't want to hear it, hehe. So whatever. It hasn't been like before, but that's totally cool. I'm just glad to spend time with him. The rest of it will come back and be better than before, Praise God!! hehe. We just sat and talked, it was a good meal and fun fellowship. All I can say is, I can't wait to go to ORU, hahaha. That will be soo much fun. Praise God!!

Well, I guess that's it for now. Not much else to say at this time. Praise God. Keep seeking God everyone. He loves you and I love you all very much.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

This weekend was really cool. Church was awesome. Finally got my DVD and CD's from the Resurrection IV conference. Man, I only made it to one night. I have to watch the rest of it on DVD. Blah. I wish I had more time to attend it. It was partly my fault too. Always way too tired. Just had to go home and sleep. Well, I have the DVD's though, hehe.

Man, last Thursday was a day that I thought would never happen to me.  I went to bed alright, took some pain killers for my foot. I wake up around 1:30 AM and my foot is just killing me. It took me. I took some more pain killers, but they didn't work till like an hour later. So I wrestled and fought with the pain for so long. Could not get comfortable and the pain was excruciating. It hurt bad.  Meanwhile, something I thought that I would never do, I did. I got angry with God. Something that has never happened to me regardless of my situations. I blew up at God. I screamed and yelled at Him. I didn't blame Him for the pain, but I kept twisting what His Word had to say and what He would say to me. I apologized to Him so much on Friday morning. I turned into someone that I wasn't at all. Through it all, He still loved me and dealt with me in a loving and Fatherly way. And in the end, He still healed me and is currently healing me.

It was funny on Sunday. I was talking to God about my situation. And I told Him that I don't care anymore if I get healed or not, but that I just wanted Him in my life and that He is more important than my healing. Which is totally true. When I turned my focus from me to God, things began to happen. My foot started feeling better. Another thing is that I just never really received His healing touch. It's like saying I wanted to get healed, but not receiving it when it was given. So I missed like the most basic of basic things. Not to mention God reminded me of....oh my gosh, I just forgot his name. The guy in the Bible that wrestled with God all night. Holy cow, I just blanked and totally forgot his name. NO!! hahaha. Anyway, he came out of the wrestling match with a limp and a new walk. That's exactly how I feel right now. I really wrestled with God that night and well, I still have a small limp, hehe. Walking differently, thinking differently, etc. Praise God!! hehe.

So anyway, life is just getting better for me. Maybe more trials, temptations, but I know that my life is just going to rock, hehe. It already does. Take care everyone. Not sure what else to put on here today. Love you all, take care and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

I finally had time to call my CARE group leaders. Oh, that was awesome. Had a great conversation on the phone with them. I get to see them again this Sunday and talk with them. They are such an awesome couple. Right when I talk to them, it's nothing but encouragement. They rock. Love them so much.

I'll also get to see my best friend Bobby again. Missed him SO much. So I can't wait to see and hang out with him again. That will be fun. As long as he doesn't talk about his gf anymore.  Just kidding man. She's awesome. Want to hear and know more. I still have to meet her in person. DANG!! Tell her to hurry up and come see you here in Colorado, haha. Or I'll just have to hurry up and get into ORU to meet her, haha. Whatever comes first, lol.

ORU!!! I almost forgot about that place, hehe. For those of you that don't know what that is. ORU is Oral Roberts University. It's a Bible college in Tulsa, Oklahoma. God has told me to go there and I can't wait to actually do it.  I have a friend Stephanie in the church who is going to go there next fall. So I'm really happy for her cause I know how awesome the school is. I get to hear stories from the students there, hehe. Namely, my best friend, haha.

As for now, work. And then, church internship which I'm also really excited to go into. I can't wait to attend that. That's going to rock. The people in it now are really awesome and they can't stop talking about it, hehe. So I'm saving up money for that. Praise God. He's the supplier. Jehovah Jireh. Amen and AMEN!!

Thank you Lord for such a wonderful day. Even though it was raining and snowing today. It was snowing in the morning and it turned to rain in the afternoon, hehe. Even still, it was a wonderful day. Praise God. God bless you all. Love you all very much.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

This sucks, my foot hurts more than yesterday. It's not so much that the gout hurts. That pain is still minimal. The thing is when I walk, I don't want to put pressure on where the gout is cause it hurts. So I would walk like on the side of my foot. Well, now the bones and the muscles are very very sore and it hurts really bad when I walk now. It's a total miracle that my boss isn't here in the office right now. She'd probably tell me no sandals. I can't even put my shoe on without it hurting my foot. It would be so hard to walk with shoes on too. I had my shoes on yesterday and that wasn't so bad. It still hurt a bit, but overall, it was totally alright.

I'm just totally trusting God for my healing. There's nothing else to really do. I'm still young and my parents said that I shouldn't even be experiencing any of this. On one hand I'm grateful that I am while I'm young. On the other hand...it HURTS!!! haha. Even though I know that God didn't give this to me and God did NOT "allow" it to happen to me. Saying God allowed it would be the same as saying God wants this. If He wanted this, then He wouldn't heal me. It just wouldn't make sense if He allowed it, but it isn't His will. That just doesn't make sense, spiritually or carnally. I've learned to be joyful and rejoice through my times of trouble. This is a time of trouble, hehe. I'm still laughing and joking around. Smiling still. I don't let this thing affect my praise and worship for God. I know that He will heal me because it's His will for me to be healed. "By His stripes, I am healed!!" Amen!! hehe. "If thou wilt, thou canst make me clean." "I will, be thou clean." It is His will that I be made clean, thank you Lord.

I know that the church has a lot of different doctrine and that every church believes different things. At least we are all of one faith Praise God for that, hehe. One thing that I've learned, and this is going to stir up all the religious teachings we've all been taught. I've learned that God DOES NOT test, tempt, or try us. Every test, every temptation, every trial, comes through the devil. The thing I question now is does God allow it then? Cause I know the Bible, I know about the scriptures that talk about trials and tests. So I've been really questioning God and finding out the truth. I really strive for truth. That has always been my thing, hehe. So I think that is really cool that God has given me that desire within me.

Anyway, that's it for today. I have to get back to work. God Bless you all abundantly. For those of you that are praying for me, may God honor and bless you for that.  Love you all.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

Man, I haven't posted anything for the longest time, haha. Sorry to everyone who reads my posts and enjoys reading them. If you don't enjoy them, I'm not sorry to you.  Just kidding, it's not your fault that I haven't posted, haha.

I've been so busy at work lately. It's amazing I have time today to type something, hehe. It's been really exciting though. Our company just finished our first issue of our magazine. It's called J.O.E. and that stands for Just Over the Edge. I was driving around for 2 days distributing the magazine. It was hot on Thursday and Friday, haha. We got a huge response with the magazine. Not all positive, haha. But that's totally ok. They were putting this magazine out for teenagers and the teenage crowd thus far loves the magazine. The adults are the ones that don't really care for it. So I just have to say that they accomplished what they were shooting for, haha. It's a pretty good magazine. I don't read magazines, but I've read this one cover to cover. Only because it's my company though, haha. The stories are pretty good. Really geared towards teenagers. I'm getting a little old for the stories, hehe. Don't really apply to me as much anymore, hehe.

I haven't been to church in 2 weeks.  Last Sunday I spent with my family, couldn't get out of the house. And yesterday, I couldn't even walk. It's horrible, about a year ago, I was at a youth retreat and in the middle of the retreat, I got gout. For those of you that don't know what it is, it's when your urinal acidic levels get too high within your bloodstream. I couldn't walk at all. I got it in my foot. Well, that problem came back again. Which makes me mad cause when God heals, it's not supposed to come back. Don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming God for this at all. I had taken medicine when I first got it. After a week or so of taking the medicine, God said to not take it anymore. That made my parents and the doctors kinda mad, haha. But I had to listen to God. This time, I didn't even see the doctor and I'm just trusting that God do the healing. He's honored that so far. Sunday morning, I could barely move cause it hurt so bad. My foot was also swollen and the pain was horrible. It hurt soo bad. By the end of the night, I was able to drive to church. Didn't have church cause of Mother's Day. I totally forgot that they might not have church because of the holiday, hehe. I just had one thing on my mind, go to church and worship God. By the time I went to bed, the pain was very minimal and my foot wasn't swollen anymore. And today, I was able to drive with no pain at all. The swollen is totally gone, and my foot has returned to it's normal color. It was purple and other colors for a while. It was nasty, haha. And you can't even tell that there was anything there. The pain is still there, but it's only really when I walk around or if I hit it on something. Otherwise, it's virtually gone.

This experience has been really interesting. It really showed me God's goodness. God is good, all the time. He really proved that to me this time. I can sit here and live like the devil and He will still do good to me. Why? Because my behavior doesn't dictate how He acts or who He is. Not under the new covenant we have with Him. God didn't test me with this thing either. I haven't been doing what I should be doing. My eating schedule has been kind of whacked out cause I've been busy. I haven't been eating as healthy as I should because it's been thrown out of whack. But God didn't give me this sickness to test to see if I'll just trust Him for a healing. All good and perfect gifts are from above. That eliminates all the negatives and things that really aren't gifts. Sickness really isn't a gift is it? haha. Not to mention God is our Father. No dad if he has control over it, would give his son or daughter a sickness. God doesn't give us sickness so if He doesn't give it, AND He has control over it, that means He will be the One who can take it away. And Praise God does He do it, hehe. He has totally taken this thing away from me. Prayer works. AMEN!! hehe.

I hope that encourages people. Just to know that no matter how you act, no matter what your behavior is like, whether you are living for God or not, Jesus took everything and under this new covenant we have with Him, we can still get what we want. I haven't been the best son I can be for God. I haven't been living my life the way I should. Putting other things before my Lord and Savior, My God. He still healed me. Cause God is good, all the time. When I'm at my worst, He is still good. When I'm sinning like no tomorrow, He is still good. When I'm doing everything for Him, He is still good. When I'm rocking the world for Jesus, He is still good. When I'm glorifying the devil, He is still good. It doesn't matter how you act, God is good, all the time. Don't get me wrong, I don't agree with living like the devil and I dont' agree with glorifying the devil instead of God. It's just when we sin, that's what we are doing. I don't encourage doing that just to test God to see if His Word is true. God doesn't change and it worked for me. It's just don't feel condemned and don't feel like you can't get anything anymore from Him if you aren't living the way God wants you to.

God is awesome. While listening to K-love, I don't know how many of you do, there are so many awesome and encouraging stories on the station. It's just awesome to hear God working in my brother's and sister's lives. Just to know that there are other Godly men and women out there that even though they have their own struggles, God still blesses them and just rocks their world. Just like He rocks my world all the time even when I'm not following Him as closely as I should. God Bless you all abundantly. He loves you all and no matter how we are, He already loves us and He already knew and He will never stop being good and doing good to you. I love you all too.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

DANG IT!! I had a HUGE post going and all of a sudden Explorer dies on me. That just stinks. Oh well, I'll paraphrase, haha.

First off, everyone that posts about God and posts scriptures, keep it up. It's so encouraging to read. =) (That was my first paragraph)

Secondly, even though I haven't been the son that God has called me to be, He's still blessing me and showing me His love. (That was my second paragraph)

Third, Romans 8:1 "There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit" (That was my third paragraph)

Fourth, I haven't been condemned at all nor have I had the feeling of condemnation even though I've been screwing up and not living the way I should be. (That was my fourth paragraph)

Fifth, I've had some troubles at my work, but God totally bailed me out and rescued me from some bad things, haha. (That was my fifth paragraph)

Sixth, I'm never going to rely on my own strength and my own strengths that God blessed me with to do anything anymore. And I'm definitely not going to start something in the spirit and then end up doing that exact same thing in the flesh. Can't afford to do that anymore (That was my sixth paragraph.

Seventh, The closer I get to people, the further I get from God. The closer I get to God, the more I love people. The closer I get to God, the further I get from the unGodly. The closer I get to God, the further I get from everything in general. (That was my seventh paragraph)

I think I'm all caught up now, haha. I think. I had a lot written down. Oh well, that was the gist of my post, haha. That's the summary of it, haha. Anyway, thank you all that have been encouraging me without even knowing it. And thank you all that are encouraging and know it, hehe. Love you all very much.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus