Dang!! So much going on. haha. I really have to find out what God wants me to do. Everything happens so fast and everything happens at the same time that it's really easy to confuse what God's will is.

I GOT THE INTERNSHIP AT MY CHURCH!!! PRAISE GOD PRAISE GOD!!! The internship is called Empowerment and it's to prepare us to do whatever it is we want to do. It's to empower us with God's anointing to go forth to do what He's called us to do. I can't wait to get that started. It was seriously last second that I got accepted. I'm really surprised. Praise God!! I can't wait. I thought they didn't want me cause I hadn't heard anything about it in the longest time. Goes to show once more that you can't judge based on circumstances, hehe. It starts this Saturday though. The men's golf tournament for our church. I was asked to go and help out. =) I was told to bring a book too, haha. Cause I won't be able to get to actually play in the tournament. Although that would be tons of fun. =) I'm there to serve and they call it the beginning of my initiation, haha. It'll be a lot of fun. All I want to do is serve the church because there's going to be a time where it's my turn to lead the church. Wow. I can't wait. Prepare my heart and prepare my life for that Lord. Thank you!!

My dad also told me that there would be a job opportunity within his company and even on the same project as him. That would be really cool, but I really want to do the internship instead. Tough decision because I really need money to pay off bills and other things. But serving God is more important than paying my bills. God is number one and as long as I esteem Him that way and trust Him, He will pay my bills for me. Someway somehow, they will get paid off. I believe that with all my heart.

Man, so many of my friends are getting married. I mentioned in my last post, my good friend Andy Warner whom I hadn't spoken with in a long time is engaged. A few nights ago at the dinner table, my dad tells me that my friend Charise Chi who I grew up with is engaged now. My dad works with her fiancee's dad. Small world. I come home last night from hanging out with friends and a small discipleship group. I walk into my room to get ready for bed and on my desk was a wedding invitation for my parents. My friend Miriam Cheng is engaged as well. I'm like..HOLY COW everyone's getting married. So jealous, haha. Not really. I'm really happy for all of them. It gets me thinking though. I haven't even had a girlfriend in my entire life and all my friends are getting married just one after another. They aren't much older than me if older at all. It's just like...Father!! when's it going to be my turn? The girl that I liked has another brother pursuing her and she likes him too. Although I've made the decision to grow closer to her as a brother, I don't see the point. I'm just being honest, I don't see the point. The brother is a mature brother in Christ and if they like each other....he's all she needs next to God. That's alright though. Once the internship starts...i doubt I'll be very active in her life. No worries though. I'll give her up for more time with God. =) Very easy to say...a little hard to do, but whatever. I know that I'm just going to seek God and seek God and seek God some more. I may complain and I may be hurt, but just one day in His presence is better than a thousand days elsewhere.

Although I don't know exactly down to the last detail what the call of God is on my life, I really do believe it's going to be in China in the future. Go out to the nations and spread the gospel. I'm definitely going to be here in Colorado for at least another year. After this year is over...I really have no reason to stay in Colorado. If my friend's business is going well and they are still looking for help and they would like my help, I might just go out to China and help them out there. Get moving on with my life. Preach out in China and never look back and never stop preaching for God. Ministry...the only thing that is fulfilling. Even now...with all the heartache, with all the pain and the troubles, when I minister to people, I feel so free. The time where love is truly complete is in the heart of ministry. Which is why Jesus loves spending time with us and when He was on the earth, spending time with people and his disciples. That's when you show true love is when you are ministering to someone. Wow...Praise God. I'm not going to lie...I really want a girlfriend and a dream of mine really is to start a family in the future. We'll see what happens though. Not my will but Yours be done Lord.

Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS to all my friends that are engaged. I'm really very very happy for all of you. May God really bless all your relationships and the holy time of matrimony. None of you better take it lightly, haha. I know you guys won't. Love you all. Take care everyone. Love and God Bless. =)

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Don't know what to say, so much on my mind, lol. Where oh where to start, lol.

Still no job. *sigh* I wonder if God really wants me to work or not, haha. Can't judge God's Will by circumstance. I'm so glad He doesn't use circumstances to tell us what to do. Unless He really has to because you aren't going to listen any other way, haha. Then again, I'm not so sure that's true either. Just because He closes doors and what not, doesn't really mean He uses circumstance to speak. Hmm....something new to think about again. haha. Yay!! haha.

I got a call from Adam Bagwell, my Pastor's eldest son and the head of Empowerment internship at my church. They want to interview me for the internship. I'm like...YAY!! Praise God. I had thought they didn't want me too, haha. See what I mean you can't judge God's will by circumstance, haha. Now that the internship is back in the picture. I think that's what's going to decide what I'm going to do. If I get accepted then that will change everything. I can't wait. I really want to do the program.

I'm not really sure if I'm called to go to Oral Roberts University anymore. Everything I've done so far has that door closed. Everyway I look at it. I can't get into ORU without first going back to Colorado State University for at least another semester to retake some of the classes I failed. Or I could go to a community college for more semesters and boost my gpa up that way. Either way I look at it, I think it'll be a waste of time. ORU won't be a waste of time, just what I have to do to get into ORU will be a waste of time. I don't know. Maybe I am really supposed to go back to CSU or something and then go to ORU. Just gotta seek God more and more on that.

OH MY GOSH!! My good friend Andy Warner is getting married. SO HAPPY FOR HIM!! PRAISE GOD!! I haven't met his fiancee just yet. I better meet her soon. ANDY!! hahaha. Didn't even know he had a girlfriend. Then again, I hadn't seen him in 4 years, haha. Since high school. We kind of kept in touch through AIM but that's about it. He IM's me today out of nowhere. "I'm getting married!!" I'm like..WOW!!! Praise the Lord!! hehe. That's so cool. I'm like the only one from my school without a girlfriend, haha. Actually, that's not really true unless people aren't telling me things, haha.

Just waiting on God's timing. Although I have to admit, it does get a little lonely at times. Then I just seek God and yay!! no more lonliness, haha. I haven't been interested in someone in a long time too. Dang it people, why you all gotta go out and get girlfriends and get engaged, hahaha. I'm just playing, so happy for you all. God Bless your relationships. =) There was one person I was interested in, but dang, another brother likes her and so I'm backing off. I don't know though. I wonder if things would be different if I made a move. I wonder if I've been hearing God correctly in regards to her. Some things I know I heard correctly because things are still going in those directions, haha. Other things I'm not so sure if I heard correctly because they aren't going in that direction, haha. But once again, I can't judge God's will on circumstance. Just have to keep my eyes on His promises. Gotta stay focused on Him and what His Word has to say. Whatever though. I wish her the best and I'm just going to continue with what God has me doing. I know that's going to bring more fulfillment than anything. Doing what God wants. =)

If I read my Bible everyday and stick with my reading schedule. In 2 weeks I will have finally finished reading the Bible all the way through once. Praise God, hehe. So exciting, haha. I can't wait to finish it, hehe. It's a big accomplishment for me, lol. Although I should have finished it a long time ago, hehe. That's alright...I'm going to finish it in Jesus Name, hehe. Praise God for His word. I love it.

I guess that's it for today. Just had to let some things out, hehe. I will talk to you all later. Take care and God Bless you all abundantly. Love you all very much. =)

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Wow, I'm so pumped up. Learning so much about the Lord and His ways. I'm loving it. It's amazing what just a few hours in the presence of the Lord can really do to you. Not that I never knew that before, it was just so real again to me lately.

So much has been going on and although it may seem like everything is going downhill, it's just so amazing to see the amount of joy I have and the amount of peace I have in everything. It all comes through faith, Amen, Hallelujah. No matter what happens, I know that God will be taking care of it. I was praying this morning and I prayed our the verse that says Jesus bore everything for us on the cross. I just stopped and thought about that. He said "IT IS FINISHED" That means every need and everything I will ever need is already finished. It's already taken care of. WOW!!! Praise God Thank You Jesus!! hehe.

Problem : Financial Debt/Answer: It is finished   Problem: Sickness in my body/Answer: It is finished.  Problem: Friends hurt me/Answer: It is finished.  Problem: No happiness and joy/ Answer: It is finished.

Jesus bore it all. Took EVERYTHING. Now you may say, hold on, how can you say Jesus bore our financial burden on the cross or how could He have bore our emotional stress on the cross? My answer...how could He NOT have bore it? If you wanna get scriptural, God did say that the grass and lillies of the field don't worry about it. How much more should we not worry then? Not a sparrow will fall without God knowing. How much more will He take care of us? I've heard that finances are really easy for God to take care of. I mean...Jesus got money from a fishes mouth. haha. Maybe I should go fishing...lol. =P

Something really cool though lately. I know a lot of people don't believe in the name it claim it philosophy. Well, I've tried it and many times it's worked and a few times it hasn't. I know that 2 days ago, I was like...I'm sick of this. Alright Lord, I just thank you for my job that I'm going to get tomorrow. I just claim it and I declare that I'm going to get a job tomorrow. What happens? The next day, I have an interview set up for next tuesday. =P I'm like...woah...hahaha.

I've also found that when I'm walking with God, the relationships that He wants me to have will just flourish and blossom. Praise God. I've grown closer to a good sister of mine. I really hope I'm hearing God right though in regards to her. I know I've gotten in that trap before where I thought I heard God but found out it was just me making stuff up. =( That or it was the devil throwing things into my mind. Whatever the case....I just pray that I'm hearing God correctly this time. I don't want more heartache for my friends. I'm being very cautious though so that's a cool thing. =) Praise God!!

Speaking of friends. I finally got to spend time with Bobby on Sunday. Wow. I hadn't seen him in forever. I was at my friend's apartment on Saturday and almost left there to hang out with Bobby. I had been driving all day though and so I decided against it and just invited him out on Sunday. Well, Saturday night, I was like...Lord, thank you for letting us get to hang out, but I don't have any money Father, I can't pay for anything unless I use my mom's credit card. He says to me, don't worry about it, Bobby will take care of you tomorrow. I'm like....no....I couldn't have heard that right. So I go to church and meet up with Bobby. We end up going out to lunch with his family, his parents paid for my lunch. I'm like...THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! Praise God!!! Then we went to play some pool just Bobby and I. His mom gave him money for the both of us. I was like...WOW!! PRAISE GOD!!! HALLELUJAH!!! I heard right. That's what was so exciting. I heard God correctly. I told Bobby and he got all excited and was like...wow!! Good for you and Praise God!! I'm like...OH YEAH!! hehe

There's so much else I want to post. But I'm going to keep that other stuff to myself for a little longer, haha. It's just cause I don't feel like typing anymore, lol. Seriously though, I'll post it later. =) It can wait. I want to spend more time with God. I'm getting so hungry for Him lately it's like...I don't want a job, I don't want anything but Him. Praise God!! Talk to you all later. Take care and God Bless. Love you all very much.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit!!

Man, this week just hasn't started out well, lol.

So Monday my parents decide to talk to me. It's interesting cause they want more communication between all of us in the family. On one hand, that's really awesome and I can totally use that as a chance to witness and tell them about Jesus. On the other hand, they aren't going to understand anything I talk to them about. So frustrating. So the talk just ended up as usual, mom yelling and saying the same things over and over again. Dad trying his best to get me to open up, but there isn't anything new to say. Mom screaming, dad calming her down, doesn't work too well, lol.

Through that talk, I heard a lot of really encouraging and awesome things too. =) About our family and about my brothers and I. I heard that a lot of our friends really envy us. I'm like...why? We aren't exactly rich, we have struggles and problems. So my dad was like..well, we are 1 of 2 families that have 3 boys as children and the other family just had their 3rd boy so he isn't exactly of age. Also that we all love to help people and that we all get along really well. Family and brother wise. So there were some really cool things said too, hehe.

Today, I managed to hurt a friend. Man...I really should've listened to God and not said anything to her. But hey...decided against it and texted her my question. Well dang...did NOT turn out well. So I repented and apologized to God for not obeying. At first I didn't think I heard Him right, but dang....gotta have more faith in myself that I can hear God's voice. I guess me and my friend are cool now, she vented to some other friends and I guess she's ok now. At least I hope she is. =) Nah, I'm sure she is cause God takes care of her. =) Learned a very valuable lesson with that, hehe. I really should confirm sometimes if I'm not sure instead of blowing off what I had heard. I know now not to do that, lol. Praise God.

So far this week has just been blah. Still out of a job. Which is bad...because I went way over my cell phone minutes. I really need to change plans now. I went over like 440 minutes or something insane like that. So I have like a $282.52 charge. OMGOSH!!! How am I going to pay that off? I'm in so much trouble....=( I need so much financial help. HELP ME GOD!!! No one else can do it and I sure as heck can't do it. It's times like these that I have to trust God sooo much. It's either trust Him or hate Him. Even though there's no reason to hate Him cause it wasn't Him that got me into the situation. Nor did He "allow" me to get into the situation. It was all my fault. *sigh*

Gonna use my cell phone less and not send as many text messages either. Sorry to everyone who I text, lol. I just can't afford it anymore. It's either I hear your voice over the line or there won't be any communication that way, lol. Eh, we'll see. Depends on what my plan will offer in terms of text messages.

I guess that's it for now. I'm going to read and pray now. I don't know what to do...*sigh* So lost and helpless. So happy that God is for me. Love you Lord. Take care everyone. Love and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

AIYA!!! I'm so broke, lol. I have literally, NO MONEY!! Can't even pay tithe. =*(

I went out last night with friends...they are so nice they all covered for me. I felt soo bad cause I'm normally the one to really bless them and to give them a good time. I felt like I was using other people's money. =( It was a lot of fun though. As usual, hehe. But until I get another job and start making money again, I'm not going to go out to do anything that requires money, hehe. I don't like it when other people treat me. Unless it's like a special occassion or something. I just felt bad last night, haha. But THANK YOU ALL who wanted me there even though I couldn't pay for any of it. =( It means a lot to me. =) May God bless you ALL that covered for me. God will bless you all for blessing a child of God. I love you all. =)

It's been really interesting lately. Although I've been asking God and getting answers to my questions, I still don't know how it's all going to come to pass. haha. Like I want to really serve God in full time ministry, but I'm supposed to go to school too. Serving God isn't what I'm concerned about cause that's the easy part, haha. I don't see how I'm going to go back to school. I don't have any money to spend, not even on my bills. It's hard to qualify for financial aid when you are in debt and STILL have no money. So I don't see how that's going to come to pass. Another thing is people always tell me I'm going to do great things for God. Although I really believe that with all my heart, I don't see it at all. Then again, God equips and qualifies those He's called. Not calls though who are qualified. Doesn't mean if you are qualified, you aren't called, lol. Don't get me wrong. It's just I'm so far from perfect, it's scary, haha. We all are...lol. There are other things too. That's just the areas of God, haha.

Then there's the area of relationships. I personally have been single for 22 years. haha. I'm 22 this year. =P Although it's a real blessing to have a time where I can full heartedly seek the Lord, it's so hard when almost everyone else around you are in a relationship. Gets you wondering...when is it my turn? It's like...with all my situations, it really seems like I'm going to be single for life, haha. It seems like every girl I end up liking, something will come up. They don't like me the same way, that's a popular one. =P They just want me in their life as an older brother, a really close older brother and that's awesome too. Then there's the whole, another brother is interested and likes her. So I always back off and let them. Gotta make sacrifices for your brothers, hehe. However, I really should dig up those promises made from God. I just don't know which ones. All in all, I have put everything in the Lord's hands. I know that when His timing is right, that's when I'll get what He already wants me to have. But the right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing. And I know that I can't judge on circumstance. I've seen God move in miraculous ways ALL the time. So I know that He could turn everything around in one day. But then I'd never learn anything. =P

It's interesting. I've found that it's so easy to have faith for someone else. Yet sometimes it's so hard to have faith for yourself. For example, when someone is sick...it's so easy for me to just read scripture after scripture and help them to really believe that God will and WANTS to heal them. Or when someone needs a financial miracle, or just a miracle from God period. It's so easy to be like...I got plenty of faith for you. God wants to do it, He loves you, on and on and on. Then when it comes to me...I'm like....I know God wants to do it for me too cause He loves me so much, but the faith portions starts to falter. I just don't get it, hehe. May God help my unbelief. *sigh*

I've been thinking a lot about holiness once again. To be in this world, but not of it. What does holiness completely include? I'm Chinese and I really enjoy listening to Chinese music. They aren't about God at all though. Is that unholy? I enjoy watching movies, I love it. Is it unholy to watch movies that don't have to deal with the Lord? Unholy to play certain games, etc. It's not about works, I know that much. Regardless of what I do....God isn't going to love me any more or any less than He does right now. However....I want to be completely holy for Him. That would require me letting a lot of things go I think. Like my music and movies. I'd have to cut back so much. Music is a lot easier to get rid of because I love listening to Christian music as well as Praise and Worship music. =) Movie's though, my best friend is really good in that sense. He really won't watch anything that's even a little unclean. I'm not as good at that cause I really enjoy watching movies. I've seen so many, lol. The games I play, and everything else I do. I know that the church allows a lot of things. Of course there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus, but what is true holiness? How did Abraham or Moses or Paul practice holiness? What about Jacob or Elijah? Or Ruth or David? Peter and John? JESUS?! How did He do it? How did they do it?

Time with God I guess. People say that circumstances and things in your life are what teaches you and molds you. I agree only partially with that. I've grown more from prayer and communing with God than I ever have through the circumstances in my life. Doesn't mean I've never learned anything from what's going on in my life, but it doesn't even compare to the times alone with God. I guess I really have to re-evaluate what's really important in my life. Although I love all my friends and family dearly...God is still way more important. Friends and family aren't always going to be there for me even though they are all awesome people, they just might not be there always. Family and friends say they always will and I believe them. Doesn't mean I will always have them around. Hope that makes sense and people don't misinterpret that, haha. Maybe I need to put in more time with God and less time with friends and family. Easy to say...not exactly easy to do.

For my friends that I hang out with and read this. Forgive me ahead of time if I start saying no to invitations. Instead of hanging out with you, I'll be in prayer about and for you. For my family that may read this, don't be surprised if my door is closed more often and I'm not the same person I used to be, hehe. Praise God!!

It's so easy to die for God. It's not exactly easy to live for Him. There's so much in this world that also affects you life. Finances, relationships, emotions, change of times, technology, etc. etc. But hey!! God is good, ALL the time and ALL the time, God is good. So no matter what happens, I know it will be His will. He loves me and I'm not going to give in to the stupid devil. We have more authority in our pinky's than the entire forces of hell. I offer up a Praise offering to You Lord. A Thanksgiving offering. And a "blood" offering. My life in your hands. My life to you. Do what you want with me. My life is no longer my own. I can't do anything with my life. You'll have to do it all. I'm sorry for being so pathetic Father.

I love you all. Don't forget to pray for yourselves. =) Prayer is awesome. Father, I ask in the name of Jesus that you continue to mold me and to shape me into your image. I pray Lord that my friends are blessed because they know You. I pray that You bless the friends that made me go out last night and that blessed me. I pray that you help me in my financial situation. I have no money to do anything Father, but I know that You are my supplier and that You are the One that's my life. I pray Father in the name of Jesus that You bless whoever that woman You have picked for me. I ask Father that You prepare her heart and life for me and prepare my heart and life so I can bless her in the future. Thank You Father for everything in my life. Trials, temptations, blessings, relationships, etc. I'm thankful for it all. And through it all Father, I've had your joy deep down. =) I ask also Lord that you give me your peace. I rebuke all anxiety right now in the Name of Jesus. Peace in Jesus Name. I need that Father, and I thank You even now that Your peace is coming upon me. Thank You for hearing me. I ask all these things in Jesus Name. Amen!! Love you all. Take care and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

YAY!! It's Sunday....wait...hehe. Sunday is a good day, lol. Praise God. So today...I didn't do much. I didn't even make it to church I was so tired. That's no excuse and I know I shoulda gone. I woke up, but was like...eh, just a few more minutes. Yeah...didn't wake up till 2 hours later. Soo bad. Sorry Father.

Last night I went to Ivo and Teddy's apartment with some other friends and we rented a movie. I picked it...and man....with as much as I know about movies..you'd think I could have picked a better one. We watched "A League of Extraordinary Gentlemen" with Sean Connery in it. Holy cow that movie was so horrible. Never watching it again. I apologize to all my friends for picking that horrible movie, hehe. It was fun though. It was me, Teddy, Ivo, Tian, Nancy and Tom. Yay, Tom's back from Europe. What a lucky guy. It was soo funny, everyone was like...Tom, did you bring us anything back? I was like...did you bring anyone back? =P And then Tian was like...so what's the movie called? The Gentleman's Club? She kept saying that ALL night. It was so funny. Sounds like a very inappropriate movie when said that way, lol. So the movie sucked, but the company was great. =)

Later on today, I'm going to go play some volleyball...YAY!! So fun. =) Haven't played in a while. Been too busy lately. It'll be fun though. It's soo hot out!! Aiya!! It should be fun though. Get to sweat some more, hehe.

I don't know...lately it's been kind of unusual or weird. Not sure which word to really use. I've been hanging out with friends for these past few days. Everyday was so less fulfilling than the day before. Don't get me wrong, it was fun and it was great getting to spend time with them. But it didn't complete my day. Until I just spent even a few minutes with God. Once I did that...the day was great. That one minute or whatever with God amounted to be better than the entire day. I think that is just amazing the way God is. It's not that He wasn't with me at all throughout the day, but once I included Him in the schedule, my day was even more blessed. That's so awesome, hehe. I'm really seeing God bring me back to the place I was in before so many things happened. Praise God!! Thank You Jesus. Love you so much Lord.

I'm also a bit confused. My friends say that they trust me so much and yet...I'm like the last one to know about things, haha. I just find that kind of interesting. I'm not saying they have to tell me things, it's just when I finally do hear about something....it's harder to help out then. Wow...that sounds kind of prideful, lol. But whatever as long as they get their problems taken care of, that's all that matters. And as long as they let God take care of it...it's even better then. =) Praise God. I just had to let that out, hehe. I can't really complain though. There are a lot of things that I know about my friends that others don't know. I guess God will choose who He wants to know about certain things. Yeah...that's a good explaination. =P Oh well...Praise God for our trials and tribulations and times of persecution. =) I've found it's kind of fun to go through trials and tribulations, lol. Do I want to live a life of them? Most definitely not, but I've found it to be kind of fun and funny. They really develop your character. At the same time...you have so much fun with God.

Speaking of friends, I haven't seen my best friend in forever. I know it's really wrong, but I don't feel I even really know him anymore. It's really sad. He's my best friend and nothing will ever come between us. Gosh...he's like 10 minutes away and I haven't seen him in forever. But Praise God for my best friend Bobby. There is no one else like him and there will never be anyone like him. No one besides God knows me like he does. =) I pray Father that you continue to bless Bobby. I know you have in soo many ways. I've seen it myself and heard of other ones from him. Thank you so much for Yonah Father. I've never seen Bobby so happy. Can't wait for the future, hehe. Thank you Lord. I ask Father in the Name of Jesus that you continue to bless all my friends. Take away their burdens. Help them in their times of peril. They all need you so much. And I need you too. Thank you for never leaving me. Praise God.

I think that's it for today. Volleyball is going to be so fun. Love you Lord and thank you that we are able to go outside and play volleyball and excercise. =) Thank you Lord. I love you soo much. Take care all of you. Love you all and may God Bless you all abundantly.

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

WHY!?! Why do things always have to happen to the ones I love? Why can't the devil fight me straight on? What a little wussy. COME ON DEVIL!!! FACE ME!!! *sigh*

So many things happening. And nothing happening to me. Just get caught up in everyone else. So this is what love is huh? This is what Love is all about. Self sacrifice to the point where you don't know who to help first....So hard Lord....Thank You for the strength to STILL be standing. Thank You Father that you are the One to solve the problems for us if we just hand them over to You. Teach me to love Father with Your complete Love. The love that I exemplify is still flawed at points. Father, I want it to be perfect just as you are perfect. Perfect Love casts out ALL fear. Help me love everyone regardless of their character. I know sometimes Father that I will begin to dislike someone because of their behavior and then you always remind me that I was once just like that. Father I pray that I'm not disliking the person, but that I despise the actions and I will accept the person, but not condone their behavior. How magnificent is your Love oh Lord. How deep and beautiful is your grace and mercy. Slow to anger.

So many thoughts running through my mind. I pray God and give you all my cares and worries. I just take all thoughts captive right now in the name of Jesus. I choose to think upon the joyful things of the Lord. It's so hard sometimes Father...dwell upon Your Word is what I need to do.

Why can't I always protect the ones I love. Hearing about things and feeling sooo helpless. That's the worst feeling in the world. The feeling that I can't do anything for people....WHY?! Why wasn't I there?! Doesn't matter what I was going on....never too busy for loved ones. NEVER!! Well, things happen....it's all in God's hands now. Praise You Father for the outcome. Thank You Jesus for your Love. I know that it's not always your will for things too happen. But when they do, you will take what the enemy meant for evil and turn it into something good and for your glory. =) Thank You Lord. You deserve all the glory and honor and Praise.

Alright...just had to let some things out. Thank You Lord for ALWAYS listening to me. Even if I don't feel like you are....I know you are. =) Thank you Father for Evenna. Although she doesn't believe in you...she's still a great friend. Although I haven't been able to see her in the longest time....she still listens while I vent. Thank you for placing her in my life. Now it's time to let her really know about You Lord. Her parents are Christian...I pray Father that you use them to bring the rest of the family to You. AMEN!! It WILL be done in Jesus Name, Thank you Lord.

Alright...I think I'm done for today. I really should write a book. =P SCOTT!! hehe. My posts aren't THAT long...hehe. They can be really long sometimes. If I write anything...it would be by the Lord's prompting...not by my own desires. Amen. Take care everyone.

Love and God Bless,

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

Wow....life is so interesting. So many things happen at the same time. It can't be one friend goes through a trial and when their's is over, another one can have theirs. No ho ho ho...it's gotta be EVERYONE at the same time. lol. All I gotta say is...I'm ready Lord. Bring it on. I'll take care of everyone at the same time. I may not know everything, I may not know what to do, I may not even have the physical/emotional/spiritual strength to carry on. But I know that no matter what....God is still God. He's always with me. If it weren't for Him, I'd probably have failed over and over again. Praise God that when these trials come along....He's the one that keeps me going strong for the ones in the trial. It's interesting to see that even in the midst of other's trials....I'm going through one too. Gosh....Praise God Praise God Praise God for the trials. Rejoice in your trials, haha. Cause no matter what happens...God's love still shines through. =) I admit I haven't been hearing His voice as clearly even though I'm in the trial and seeking Him. But hey....He doesn't always speak with words. =) The impressions He's given me are simply amazing. I understand some of the sermons I've heard before. It's just like....wow...Thank You Lord.

There are some other things on my mind...but how to express them. That's the question, hehe. Oh well...I can't really think of how to say it...lol. So I'm just going to say....God is in control. No matter what happens. He's my rock and my shield. =) Things are going to work out according to His will. Which is what I want. So Praise God for whatever happens. I just say THANK YOU Lord for the outcome. I don't know what it is nor do I need to know at this point. But I thank you anyway because no matter what it is...it'll be what's best for me. =) Even if I can't see it or understand it.

Hope everyone had a great July 4th. Independence Day. It's really symbolic spiritually. The day we accepted Jesus was our own personal independence day. Liberation from the forces of darkness and from the grasp of the devil. I never really thought about that till a while back. I could never remember the day I was born again. It wasn't like I was miraculously healed or touched in some way. I was just convicted to the point where I accepted the Lord. So I never really thought about it. But Praise God for the day I accepted Him. I will never forget it now, hehe. Thank you Jesus. Glory and honor to the King above. =)

Anyway. I'm going to get going. I will talk to you all later. Take care you all. And no matter what you are going through, God sees it and wants to help. Don't limit the creator. Sounds weird, but you can limit Him. Be careful not to. As I've been telling my friends lately....CHIN UP!! Hard to see God and Heaven when you're looking in the direction of hell all the time. ^_~

Love and God Bless,

Wayne Hsu and Jesus

Nothing to really post at this point in time. There's so much going on and it's just been really hard. God's in control and with recent events...to be 100% honest, it's hard to see that. But at least I know He is in control because it's grounded in my heart. =)

Really quickly. My friend wanted me to put this in my next post.  http://www.petitionthem.com/?sect=detail&pet=1151 It's a petition to ban a new upcoming movie. It has Marilyn Manson playing as Jesus Christ and from what I've read and heard, he smokes and swears and does a whole bunch of nasty things. Just not a good movie at all. It's called "Diamond Dead" or something like that. It's just nasty. I saw the site for the movie and almost threw up when the window changed. Good thing they don't show anything on this petition.

Alright. That's all for now, haha. Short and sweet. I'll post more later. Now that my great brother in Christ helped me fix my internet. Thanks Ivo, you Rock bro!!! =) Pray for me all of you. Or more like...pray for me if God places me in your heart to pray. Thanks...love you all. God Bless.

Love and God Bless,

Wayne Hsu and Jesus