Eh...I made a mistake in my last entry, hehe. I said that I would come back to God because I love Him and not because of something He does for me. I couldn't have been more wrong. First John tells us that we love because He first loved us. So I can't go back to Him just because I love Him. I couldn't love Him had He not loved me first. Wow....was I ever dumb for saying something like that, lol. Oh well...I'm human and I'm always going to be human, but Praise God and thank God that's just how He wants me. To be humna, but be just like Him. How awesome. What love!! and what selflessness!! Well duh Wayne, He's God, He's perfect. I know, but still!! haha.

Man....I was blown away yesterday as well as today. Right now, I have a big boss lady and another lady I work with that could be considered my manager. That's how I see her anyway. I look at her as my manager even though I'm not sure what her position is in relation to mine, hehe. But anyway, I was talking to my manager and since I started working with her, I found it would such an opportunity to witness to her. Just by what I knew about her and her behaviour, how she spoke, and how she dressed. Did I judge her? Most defniitely NOT!! I have nothing but love for all the people I work with. But anyway, the coolest thing happened, we were talking about music and what not. I was telling her how I have to borrow some of her CD's because she has a lot of oldie songs that are great. And she's like...oh, you have to hear this one lady, I forget what the lady's name is. She's my favorite gospel singer. I was stunned by that comment. How can someone be like they are and listen to gospel? I was a bit confused. So she goes on and was like...OH!! you know which gospel singer I love the most? Jackie Velasquez. I'm like WOAH!! It blew me away. Then I find out she goes to church every Wednesday night and every Sunday night. She doesn't have a car so she goes with one of her girlfriends. I'm like that is so awesome. Well, the fact that she goes to church so often was really awesome and actually really encouraging for me to hear. Yeah...that's more than I've been going lately, hehe. *sigh* haha.

So today, we started talking some more about relationships. And although I'm not at the level that Teddy and Ivo are at relationship wise, I do know quite a bit that I'm actually quite amazed at myself that I know so much for never being in a relationship, lol. So we started talking and I was able to shed some light on relationships for her. She's older than I am so it's kinda weird that someone younger is "lecturing" and "teaching" someone older about relationships, haha. BUT!! age is NEVER an indication of how much wisdom one has. Praise God for that, hehe. So we start talking about relationships and love and Christianity and stuff like that. Right in the middle of work. It was so awesome. I really encouraged her and it was neat to see her gain some new revelation. It was awesome, her eyes were like wide open. It was so awesome to see. Praise God.

I have to admit, even though God used me today...I'm still not 100% back to Him. That just goes to show that your life can be totally not where it ought to be and God is STILL there and STILL wanting to use you because He loves you so much. But slowly God is pulling me back and I'm really enjoying work. I have A LOT of work to do, haha. It's crazy, it keeps piling up too, lol. But anyway. I have to leave work now. I'll post more later...probably, haha. Praise God. Take care everyone. Love you all lots!!

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

YAY!! I beat Star Ocean....disc 1 of 2, lol. Fun game. Story is getting really interesting. I hope it doesn't turn out for the worst. Otherwise it'd suck if it did, lol. Yeah, just posting my thoughts on the game, it probably makes no sense to everyone else, lol. That's ok. It's just a game. =)

Soooo....yeah.....My life has been alright. Not satisfied with anything and I'm not so sure I'm content either. I'm not doing what I should be doing and I'm doing what I shouldn't be doing. *sigh* Haven't been to church in 2 weeks, haven't been tithing and giving God His money back. I'll go to church this week only cause I have to usher. Eh....where has all my passion gone? Where is that fire that used to burn so brightly within me? Where has my first love gone? My love hasn't gone anywhere....why am I running from my love? Does that make any sense to run away from the One you love? Or hurt the One you love? They say that love involves hurts and pains. I don't believe that. We hurt the One we love because we don't know how to properly love Him. At least I'm not so sure I personally know how to properly love Him which is why I hurt Him. GAH!!

Even though I haven't been faithful to God in about a month or so now....yeah...it's been a while folks, He's still been soo faithful to me. The favor I have at work is still awesome even though there are days where it seems like I have done absolutely nothing to help the company. Almost everyday at work, I'll get a blessing from someone that I know is totally from the Lord. Here's some examples. Last Friday I come into work, someone has left a huge lunch on my desk. I think that someone just put it down to come get later. Nope, it was for me from my co-worker. I ate it yesterday for lunch and man, it was delicious. Monday morning, I come into work. Another co-worker stops by my cubicle and is like, "Egg McMuffin from McDonald's, it's for you". I'm like....woah...thanks. I didn't have a big breakfast that morning. Just little things like that where God just blesses me. Although I'm so thankful for that....it doesn't seem to be enough to draw me back. I know I NEED to seek God, it's what I preach. I feel so worthless and I feel like a hipocrit. It's a struggle for me right now. Maybe there are way too many distractions in my life. Namely video games and work.

Although I haven't been living the Godly/holy life I should be living, I've still been learning a lot. That a life without God is a totally worthless life. If I didn't have God, I'd be so depressed right now. My life would have no meaning. My life feels like God's left me, but I know He hasn't which I'm so thankful for. This time, it'll be me that really comes back because I love Him and I need Him. Not because He has drawn me back by something He's done for me. I'll be "back in His arms again", that's a song by Mark Schultz haha, but I'll be back because of Love and not because of something He's done. He's already done all He needs by sending Jesus for me. A life without God is so unfulfilling, so pointless, no direction, no passion for things that matter. No new flowing revelations and no new wisdom to pass on. Nothing but troubles instead of blessing after blessing. The Bible says we are to live from glory to glory. Most people life from problem to problem, drama to drama, troubles to troubles. Glory to glory...wow...what a phrase. I used to live from glory to glory. Christian's ought to ALWAYS live from glory to glory. *sigh* Don't feel real Christian right now, lol. My parents are better Buddhists than I am Christian. Now that's sad because Jehovah is real and alive. At least when I worship, I worship a real God. (yeah, that line'll piss people off, haha) But it doesn't really matter anymore.

I'm just sick and tired of all that the devil has done. All the tricks and schemes and lies he's placed on this corrupting earth. Gotta learn more about authority and start walking in it. hehe, that's AFTER I start walking with the Lord again. *sigh* I'M COMING LORD!! Be patient with me, you always have and you always will. Thank You Lord for all You're still doing in my life. Thank you for all the scriptures you drop into my mind daily even though I've been ignoring you. I hear them all Father and I love you. As you know Daddy, it's going to take some time for me because I want to do things because I love you and not only because you love me. I could not love you had you not loved me first. I could not love period had you not loved me first. Please continue to lead and guide as you have been. This stage will pass Father and I'm yours for "far longer than forever". Father, this life I'm living is already kicking my butt and killing me. I know that you are the answer to all my questions and that you are the answer to all my problems. I will turn to you when I finally come around. Father, a life without you is such a pointless life. Not one worth living. Help me Daddy as I continue through this life. It's coming around and in the end, I will "come home running".

Well...I don't know what else to post right now, hehe. For all the people praying for me. Thank you so much. I covet every one of those prayers. I need them as you probably have read, hehe. Anyway, take care everyone. I'm doing alright and I'll continue to be alright until I get back in sync with the Lord in which case I'll be awesome again, hehe. Bye for now. Wow...I haven't posted in a long time and suddenly I post something like this, haha. Sorry peoples, lol. It's just like you said Teddy, we are all motards, lol. We don't have to be though and I don't plan on being one for the rest of my life here on earth. =) By the way, for all the words inside quotes, they are song titles, lol. Yeah...I'm listening to music right now too while at work, haha. Speaking of which, lunch time is over and it's time to get back to work. =) Take care and I love you all. God Bless you all.

Wayne Hsu

I got this in an email from Eve. It was hilarious, hehe. Enjoy everyone. =)

The very first ever Blonde GUY Joke...and well worth the wait!

An Irishman, a Mexican and a blonde guy were doing construction work on scaffolding on the 20th floor of a building. They were eating lunch and the Irishman said, "Corned  beef and cabbage! If I get corned beef and cabbage one more time for lunch I'm going to jump off this building." The Mexican guy opened his lunch box and exclaimed, "Burritos again! If I get burritos one more time I'm going to jump off, too." The blond guy opened his lunch and said, "Bologna again! If I get a bologna sandwich one more time, I'm jumping too."

The next day the Irishman opened his lunch box, saw corned beef and cabbage and jumped to his death. The Mexican guy opened his lunch, saw a burrito and jumped too. The blonde guy opened his lunch, saw the bologna and jumped to his death as well.

At the funeral, the Irishman's wife was weeping. She said, "If I'd known how really tired he was of corned beef and cabbage, I never would have given it to him again!" The Mexican's wife also wept and said, "I could have given him tacos or enchiladas! I didn't realize he hated burritos so much." Everyone turned and stared at the blonde's wife. "Hey, don't look at
me," she said, "He makes his own lunch!"

I took this from Annie Guo's site...yay!! I miss her. =*( No yay to that...*sigh*

1 MINUTE AGO: Writing checks to pay my cell phone bill and credit card bill...stupid bills
1 HOUR AGO: I was showering, hehe. Aaaah, so refreshing
1 DAY AGO: I was playing games all day, haha. What a great Saturday, lol
1 YEAR AGO: I met some new people and are still great friends with them today. =)
I HURT: Because I don't do what I want to do
I LOVE: People
I HATE: My flesh
I FEAR: Nothing really, but if I had to say something, I fear my own future.
I HOPE: I turn out ok.
I FEEL: Tired, wait...I am tired.
I HIDE: Myself from many things
I DRIVE: A Silver Toyota Echo. ECHOOOOO!!!
I MISS: God
I LEARNED: Many many things
I NEED: God
I THINK: I need to change

Yeah, lots of things going on in my life....I'll post more later. G'night everyone. Love you all. Take care and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu

Man...today was sooo productive, lol. Hmm....I hope this color shows up ok, hehe.

ANYWAY!! So today, I went to bed at 6 am in the morning. I stayed up playing Star Ocean ALL night. It was so fun. I'm so addicted to that game, it's crazy. I'm just having fun with it, hehe. Taking my sweet little time through each little area, haha. It's great. =) My guys are so strong when I get to the next area, I love it, hehe. Such a long game and there's so much in it. I wonder what's going to happen later on though. Interesting storyline in the beginning and right now I see nothing of how it started except a few mentions of what happened. It'll be neat to see where the game goes, hehe. It's definitely a fun one. I really recommend it to any RPG gamers. =)

So we did a lot of cleaning today. Since I went to bed at 6 in the morning, lol, I got up around noon. Actually, like 11 AM. I started playing Star Ocean a bit again, haha. But shortly after it was time for lunch so I went downstairs to eat lunch with the fam, hehe. Afterwards, we had some ice cream and we all went to clean our own rooms. Well, more like I went to clean my room cause my brothers cleaned theirs in the morning, hehe. My room still isn't completely clean. There's a very good reason why it's not. It's cause I was doing MANY things at once, haha. So I cleaned about half my room, lol. Mostly the clothes and what not, hehe. The front area of my room, lol. So what was I doing the whole time? Cleaning my room, listening to music, chatting online, and playing games all at the same time. As well as eating ice cream at one point in time. =) I shouldn't have done so much at once, but oh well. After doing all that, I washed the dishes from lunch, and then went back to cleaning, lol. After more of that, I went outside and washed all 4 of our cars with my brothers. PHEW!! That was tiring and fun. =) I finally washed my precious little car, hehe. It's all sparkling now. =) My car is the smallest, yet it took the longest to wash, hahaha. Mostly cause of Heritage Camp. Got my car all dirty, hehe. Heritage Camp was fun though. =)

Hmm...what other random things can I talk about to kill space and time? lol. Eh, I can't think of anything. Oh well. Have a great night everybody. =) Take care and God Bless you all. =)

STAR OCEAN: Till the End of Time IS SO FUN!!!

I go home and play that every night after work, hahaha. My parents don't like me playing games during the weekdays cause my brothers have homework and have to study and what not. But the thing is, I let my brothers play over the weekend. That's why I play during the week, to let them have the weekend. Otherwise, I'm never going to get to play and if I do play on the weekend, they will never get a chance to play, lol. That's my philosophy anyway, lol. My parents have already lightened up on that, hehe. Only cause they see that my brothers are doing their homework and studying still even though I'm playing. And it's not like my brothers don't play. They play when my dad and I aren't home. Cause my mom is always downstairs and the PS2 is upstairs in my room.  But they still get their work done so I don't say anything. If they start watching me play though I'll be like..."Hey, I thought you had hw." And they will do it then. =)

But Star Ocean is getting sooo fun. I'm "addicted" to it, haha. Such a great game. So far. It better be worth all the time and effort. If I get a crappy ending I'm throwing the game out the window. Not really. lol. It's a really fun game. I'm really taking my time on it though. Getting everything. I have a little help. *wink wink*. *SNEEZE* Strategy guide*sneeze* huh? what? Yeah, I'm cheating on this game, lol. Normally I won't buy the strategy guide till after I've at least beaten the game one time through. But eh, I'm still going really slow through this game, hehe. It's fun. =)

Ooooh, Bible study tonight at the church. They resumed those. I'm so excited to go. =) I don't know which class I'm going to attend though. Deciding between a leadership class or the class on the book of Romans, hehe. I think I'm going to do the book of Romans. I know what the books about and I really need some of that right now. *sigh* Go book of Romans, hehe. I took the Bible quiz thingy and the results said that I was most like the book of Romans. HA!! I wish. I'll get there. *starts praying* God is so good. Without Him I am really nothing. Why do I do the things I don't want to do and not do what I really do want to do? I know the answer, but why can't I change?! Now THAT is the frustrating part, hehe. Not getting the answer, that's easy. It's doing it that's the hard part, hehe.

Wow, I drove to work for the first time in a long time, lol. Normally my dad drives, but since I needed the car tonight for church, I drove myself, hehe. That was cool, lol. It was fun. =) So YAY, I have my car today, lol.

Well, that's it for now. I'm done with lunch and my lunch time is almost over too. Take care everyone and God Bless you all. =) OH!! I have to put that blonde joke up on my site that I got from Eve. It's SOO HILARIOUS!! My coworker laughed soo loud after reading it. That was really funny too. =P I Love you all. And Annie Guo. If you read this. I MISS YOU!!! Take care out there, I wish I was able to be there for you. For all the other people I haven't seen in a while. I don't miss you, hahaha. Just kidding. I love you all and I miss you all very much. Take care and God Bless you all.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit 

I saw this list of movies on a friend's site. She put an "x" by all the movie's she has seen. It's my turn. Let's see how many movies I've seen, lol.

001. X-Men - x
002. The Craft
003. X2 - x
004. Swim fan
005. Fellowship of the Ring - x
006. Finding Nemo -x
007. Peter Pan (the old one) - x
008. Home Alone -x
009. Aladdin -x
010. The Ring
011. 10 Things I Hate About You - x
012. Not Another Teen Movie
013. Spiceworld
014. 8 Mile - x (unfortunately, such a stupid movie)
015. Bambi - x
016. Pirates of the Caribbean - x
017. Edward Scissorhands - x
018. Stepmom
019. My Best Friends Wedding - x
020. 101 Dalmations -x
021. Scream -x
022. Scream 2 - x
023. Scream 3 - x (had a "Scream" week, lol)
024. Big Daddy -x
025. Billy Madison - x
026. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
027. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
028. Heartbreakers
029. Dumb and Dumber - x
030. Two Weeks Notice - x
031. Scary Movie - x
032. Look Who's Talking - x
033. Blade - x
034. Blade II - x
035. Ocean's Eleven - x
036. Titanic - x
037. Carrie
038. Carrie 2: The Rage
039. Daddy Day Care
040. Legally Blonde - x
041. Austin Powers - x
042. Storm of the Century
043. Oliver and Company - x 
044. The Two Towers - x
045. Return of the King - x
046. Mighty Ducks - x
047. Fast and the Furious - x
048. 2 Fast, 2 Furious
049. A Walk To Remember - x
050. XXX 
051. Beauty and the Beast - x
052. I Know What You Did Last Summer
053. I Still Know What You Did Last Summer
054. Sound of Music - x
055. Mary Poppins - x
056. Tuck Everlasting
057. The Patriot - x
058. The Wizard of Oz - x
059. Teaching Mrs. Tingle
060. Crossroads
061. Now and Then
062. Pearl Harbor - x
063. Just Married
064. Castaway
065. Radio Flyer
066. Final Destination
067. Lady and the Tramp - x
068. Shallow Hal
069. 40 Days and 40 Nights
070. Bring It On - x
071. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory - x
072. The Outsiders
073. The Matrix - x
074. Perfect Storm
075. Cruel Intentions
076. Never Been Kissed - x
077. Clueless - x
078. Bruce Almighty
079. Remember the Titans - x
081. Girl, Interrupted
082. SWAT - x
083. Sixth Sense - x
084. PhoneBooth
085. The Lion King - x
086. Urban Legends
087. Nightflier
088. Lion King 1 and a 1/2
089. Little Mermaid - x
090. American Pie - x
091. Center Stage
092. Scooby Doo
093. Bedazzled
094. Mrs. Doubtfire - x
095. Save the Last Dance - x
096. My Girl
097. American Beauty - x
098. Romeo and Juliet - x
099. Lost World - x
100. Casper
101. Miss Congeniality - x
102. The Rock - x
103. Face Off
104. Moulin Rouge
105. Sleeping Beauty - x
106. Alien - x
107. Tombstone
108. Lake Placid - x
109. The Recruit
110. The Shining
111. Pocahontas - x
112. French Kiss
113. Pretty Woman - x
114. Dirty Dancing
115. Italian Job - x
116. Love, Actually
117. Identity
118. The Mummy - x
119. Drumline - x
120. Finding Forrester
121. Monster's Inc - x
122. Freddie got Fingered
123. Spawn
124. Dazed and Confused 
125. Mallrats - x
126. Dogma - x
127. Rat Race - x
128. Stigmata - x
129. Eye Of The Beholder
130. SLC Punk
131. Gangs Of New York
132. A Clockwork Orange
133. Chicago
134. Big Fish
135. Donnie Darko
136. Animal House - x
137. There's Something About Mary - x
138. National Security - x
139. What Dreams May Come
140. Lilo and Stitch - x
141. Selena
142. Requiem for a Dream
143. Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat - x
144. Oliver
145. The Haunted
146. Jane Eyre
147. Monty Python and The Quest for the Holy Grail - x
148. Annie
149. Pleasantville
150. The Goodbye Girl
151. Evita
152. How to Deal
153. The Frighteners
154. Grease
155. The Breakfast Club - x
156. Best In Show
157. Benny & Joon
158. Chasing Amy
159. Clerks
160. Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
161. Kids
162. Elephant
163. Rocky Horror Picture Show
164. The Lost Boys
165. Fight Club
166. American History
167. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
168. Stand By Me
169. Trainspotting
170. Dream a Little Dream

Wow...I've seen quite a bit. Some older movies too that I haven't seen, haha. That was fun. Back to eating my lunch now, lol.

I haven't posted in FOREVER!! I guess I should have a lot to say huh? lol.

Well, Hertiage Camp was a blast. =) I had a lot of fun. Even though I didn't have a group of kids to call my own, hehe. Not like years past, I can't say I had the best group anymore, haha. But I really did have the best group. I had them ALL, hahaha. I was the head counselor this year. It was such a blessing to be able to do what they wanted me to do this year. I was a floating counselor. I kind of went around to all the groups to let them know what was going on and what not. As well as help them out if they needed any help. So that was really fun. This Heritage Camp was very interesting. I know that A LOT of things happened and I was really stuck between a rock and a hard place. It really sucked. Such hard decisions. But in the end...I basically kept my mouth shut on everything that was going on. And I'm not going to post what I saw. I'm just thankful I was able to see some of the things that went on. Gave me a really new perspective on things. Praise God for that.

Work has been going good. I got a "promotion" as my dad puts it, haha. Instead of sitting in an open space, I get to sit in a cubicle, haha. I should totally go out and buy the movie "Office Space" hahaha. That totally reminds me of that movie, lol. But anyway, work is going good. I don't hate my job, but I'm not thrilled that I have to do the same thing over and over again everyday. Same thing meaning, wake up, go to work for 9 hours, come home, eat and sleep, just to wake up the next day and do it again. How do people do that? I'd rather be at church doing something for God. Not that I won't be able to glorify God at the work place. I work with a few believers which is really nice. =) Praise God for that, hehe.

What else...hmm....My friend just got married today. I wasn't invited to the wedding, haha. Some friend huh? lol. I'm just playing. We were never that close anyway. More acquaintances than friends, hehe. But congratulations to her and her new husband now. =) My parents went to the wedding. It seems like they had fun. =) I heard that the bride and her husband didn't want a really big wedding. Just a few friends, hehe. I always say the bride first cause she's the one I know, lol. But Congratulations to her and to the rest of my friends are either engaged or were recently married. Got a few, hehe. Lucky people.

Life's been interesting lately, hehe. Been so cold and feel so far away from God. What am I doing? *sigh* Why can't I just keep that flame burning constantly? Why can't I do the things I want to? Just like Paul wrote, I do not what I want and do what I don't want. Why does our flesh have to be so weak? The flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing. *sigh* God is sooo faithful though. Everytime I slip away...He ALWAYS "finds" some way to pull me back. I'm so thankful He does. I remember praying a prayer when I first came to Christ. "Never let me go" was the prayer. He never has. I'm always drawn back into His glory. Back into His greatness. His love, His forgiveness. Everyone at church always say that there's something special about me. That I have a high calling in the kingdom. Although that's so encouraging to hear, I'm not always sure I do. But Praise God for faith and the Word of God. Although it doesn't clearly say, "Wayne's going to preach overseas and to millions upon millions of people" or something super spectacular like that, haha. It gives me promises that I can stand on. =) Praise God, hehe.

Man, I just watched one of the Chinese movies I bought. OMGOSH!!! It was pretty good up until the ending...*sigh* I hated the ending, lol. Not how I thought it'd end. Surprised me, I was like...WHAT?!?! Aww...how could it end like THAT?! It's called "Long Feng Restaurant". Stephen Chou movie, hehe. Also watched a Jet Li movie I got. I've seen that one before, hehe. Not too bad, lol. Gotta get some better movies, lol. There are still a few I haven't seen. I hope those are good, lol.

I'm kind of reminded of the movie "Extreme Days". The movie talks a little bit about how life will throw you curve balls and stuff like that. Pretty good Christian movie. =) Life has definitely thrown me MORE than a few curve balls, hehe. My life is soo interesting right now. I'm kinda blown away by it, lol. Overwhelming to say the least, lol. But I'm so thankful to always have God right there. He's been so patient with me, makes me wanna just cry because of how much love He has for me. Even though He saved me from going to hell, I still never really saw His love in it's fullness. Even though I still haven't because I know there's much more love for Him to give me, I see more and more of it each week. All I can say is Hallelujah, Praise Jehovah.

I bought a new Praise and Worship CD today. OMGOSH I LOVE IT!!! A lot of great Christian artists singing the really popular Praise and Worship songs. Wow...soo awesome. Also bought another book. This one is by Bishop TD Jakes. Such an awesome Pastor, hehe.

On a side note...my cell phone has been REALLY screwy lately. I'm really confused and I haven't had time to call up AT&T and yell at them. =P So I'm sorry to everyone who's been trying to get a hold of me. It should be cleared up soon. =) That's all for now, I really have to get going to sleep. Take care everyone...*sigh* another week of work, lol. I got paid last Friday though, that was nice. =) I Love you all, God Bless.

Didn't feel like Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit last week, but now....it's definitely...

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

The only time I'd "steal" something. Got this from another person's site, hehe.

FOUR things...

~FOUR things you're called~
[+] Wayne
[+] Lao Da
[+] Da Geh
[+] The Great Hsu

~FOUR people who make you laugh~
[+] Teddy/Ivo (They have to count as one) =P
[+] Brothers Steven and Alan (They count as one too) =P
[+] Mike Ng
[+] Bobby Black

~FOUR things you <3~
[+] The Trinity (Godhead)
[+] Singing Praises
[+] Ministry
[+] The Bible

~FOUR things you DON'T like~
[+] the World and it's ways. =(
[+] The Devil aka Satan
[+] false truth
[+] Unbelief

~FOUR things in your room~
[+] Computer
[+] My MANY Bibles
[+] Posters
[+] Clothes