Well, I haven't posted in a long time. I have people on my back about it. *cough* Mike *cough*.

So life hasn't been too bad. Spiritual life is still lacking a bit, but it's not too horrible, hehe. I'm still doing my best to do the right things, hehe. That should count for something....but then again, it's not about works, but about grace, hehe. I basically have to get my butt out of bed and get to church on Sundays, hehe. That's what's killing me too...not going to church. It's hard though when your passion is just about dead. The only thing really keeping me going is the fact that I can't do anything without God. I don't have the strength nor the power. On top of that...there's no wisdom to know what to do. Doesn't mean I'm not smart or anything, but God's wisdom will allow me to do anything in Christ. =) Praise God. Thank You Lord for your forgiveness. Thank you for your grace and mercy that renews every morning because I need it every morning.

And now for a special announcement. Xiao has begun moving in. HAHAHA. It's about time man, hehe. It's going to be awesome when you move in. We'll have an apartment full of gamers, lol. Add that on to Teddy and Ivo's apartment that's also full of gamers. We could have our own server, hahaha. Kick hackers and own nubs. My definition of nubs = beginners, people who complain about the legit good players, people who think they are all that when they reallysuck, people who just make me mad (not really), and people not as good as me. I love that last one....hahaha.

Speaking of games, I just bought two new ones. *sigh* King Arthur and Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater. I beat King Arthur in a day, but it's still a really fun game. The gameplay is very similiar to the first 3 Lord of the Rings games. King Arthur has a co-op mode too which is really cool. My brothers are going to love that. I love co-op games. It's so fun to woop up on the AI with your friend or brother, hehe. I started playing MGS3 too. Gosh...that game is pretty hard. There is so much detail in the game too. The graphics are amazing. So far, everything about the game is just plain awesome. I just hope the story turns out to be awesome too. So far the story is great, but we'll see what happens. MGS2 started out with a good story too but then turned out to be a horrible story later on. This story is great thus far, hehe. Tomorrow World of Warcraft comes out. I'm so excited. I hope my computer can run it. *sigh* I really have to get a new video card if I'm going to play more games on my computer. Don't have that kind of money right now though, hehe. Bills are coming back around and I have to pay those off first, nooooo!!! My money!! lol. Stupid taxes too. I could use that money to pay off my bills. They take so much money in taxes. It's not fair. They should pay my bills too. My gosh. I've only been working for about 3 months and they've taken over a grand just in taxes. I'm like...AAAH!!! I could have paid off my laptop with that money. Not to mention put a dent in my car payment. Jeez....dang government and taking our money, lol. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the US. I just want to keep the money IIII worked for.

Didn't really do much this weekend. Went to bed too late on Friday to wake up in time for Compa. Got my haircut on Saturday with Teddy and Ivo. We got our hair cuts and now...we're SEXY. (quote taken from Shrek 2) "Shrek and I took a magical potion, and now...WE'RE SEXY!!" Acutally, we already looked good, hehe. It's just nice to have your hair cut, hehe. Feel so good afterwards, hehe. Speaking of movies, I went and saw "The Incredibles" a while back. Such an awesome awesome movie. I wouldn't mind seeing it again. They did such a good job with the movie. It was really funny, but at the same time, it was really cute. It had action, drama, comedy, and it was CLEAN!! Awesome awesome movie. I highly recommend the movie to anyone and everyone. There are some new movies out that I want to see too. Hopefully I'll get to go and see them soon, hehe. It'll be fun. =)

Anyway...I'm done with work for today. YAY!! Yeah...it took me all afternoon to type this up. That's cause I was working at the same time, hehe. Take care everyone. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

People are so hard to deal with. Makes me wonder if I still want to go into ministry. But honestly...it's not my will, but His will be done. I may not want to go into ministry, but that's probably where He wants me to be. In fact, I'm pretty sure that's where He wants me to be. I just have a long way to go before I get there, hehe.

So yeah...this week hasn't been too bad so far. It hasn't been great, but it's not bad. So I've gotten chewed out twice in two days at work. My manager just isn't a happy camper right now and it's showing in how she talks to us. On one hand, we both know that she's just not happy right now, on the other hand, it hurts us. Well...at least me. I hate making mistakes and doing things wrong and it sucks to have to hear that you did something wrong or that your work isn't good enough. As a person, that really hurts. On the other hand, I look at it as correction and a chance to do my job better. Which I want to do a better job, I just don't always get reassurance that I'm doing my work right, hehe. There are still some things that I'm not sure I'm doing right, but no one has said anything is wrong with it so I'm assuming that it's correct. Probably wrong to assume, but I just don't have the time to ask everytime I do something I'm not sure of. Maybe that's an excuse, maybe not. I just really don't have time, hehe.

I'm talking to my best friend Bobby. Wow...what a man of God and what an awesome brother. He was praying with me over the internet. Afterwards I felt so much better and I started crying a bit throughout the prayer. It was awesome. If you read this Bobby, thank you so much for everything man. God couldn't have blessed me with a better brother. Such a loving and caring brother that understands me so well. I couldn't ask for a better brother. I couldn't have asked for a better friend. I couldn't have asked for a better soldier. Thank God for you man. I love you so much and wish we still hung out everyday like in Ft. Collins. However, if those days were so awesome, it's hard to imagine what God has in store for us in the future. Praise God!! Praise Him!! II Corinthians 2:9. I know you love that scripture and I've come to love it too. =)

I was going to post more, but I'm not going to anymore. I'm going to get offline now and go read my Bible. I'm just going to do it. No hesitation, nothing. God Bless you all. Take care. Love you all. G'night.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Something really interesting was brought to my attention yesterday. So I love to have K-love playing at my office. I really enjoy listening to it at work, hehe. Helps my day go back faster and it's postivie and good stuff to listen to.

So a Praise and Worship song comes on. I can't remember which song it was since I love them all. So naturally, I start singing along. Great song, just enjoying myself, singing along, Praising God. Just then...the Lord drops into my mind a thought. He said, "are you really worshipping me just by singing?" I thought about it for a moment. I'm thinking, yes, I am Praising and Worshipping God.

HA HA!! Little did I know, God had something new in store for me, hehe. He told me that my life wasn't even one that worships Him. Which is very true. At this point, my life isn't really a life that displays God. It's not like I've been sinning constantly or anything, I just haven't really been doing what I'm supposed to be doing, that's all. So He was telling then that even though I'm singing praise and worship songs, it's not really praise and worship if your life isn't one that worships Him. The more I dwelled on that revelation, I realized that it is so true. How can you really Praise God with sing and dance if your life isn't even a representation of worship? You really can't. You can fake it easily, but you really can't praise and worship Him. That's just what I learned. Maybe you can, but I don't think it's possible, otherwise it's not really worship.

I got my new PS2!! The small one. It's soo tiny. It's awesome. I love it. It's like a baby PS2. Currently playing games so I'm going to end this post here. I just had to put in that new revelation I received. So awesome, hehe. Praise God. Take care everyone. God Bless you all abundantly. Love you all.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

There's something that's been on my mind lately and the Lord has prompted me to post it. I think it's really cool, yet kind of a touchy subject. A lot of controversy over it I guess, but Praise God I know the truth that comes from Him.

So the topic I'm posting about is being critical about things. When I first became Christian, I was very critical about my walk with God. Although I still am, it's not where it used to be. The first things that changed for me was I stopped swearing, my music tastes changed like overnight, and so did my movie tastes. Basically, speak no evil, hear no evil, see no evil. Not the right order, but I did it in the order I had my things, hehe.

I know that lately, I haven't been as ciritical of myself as I ought to be. And one may say that it's ok. The thing is...it's not ok. We all have to be really critical with ourselves. WWJD isn't just some catchy phrase or slogan or something. It really is something we should always ask ourselves when we are about to do something. If Jesus were physically with me right now...would He be cheering me on or would He want me to be doing something different? Jesus loved to have fun just like the rest of us so it's not like Jesus doesn't know how to have fun. In fact...Jesus was probably partied quite a bit considering the culture, hehe, but He always knew when to quit and He always knew when He needed to set aside time to pray or minister, when to do His duty. There are a lot of things that I do now that I wouldn't have done before? Good thing? Some probably are and some probably aren't. I'm not even going to list those things cause it doesn't really matter what other people think about the list, hehe. It matters how I see it through God's eyes and I know there are some things that I shouldn't have done, but I did anyway. It's no one's fault except mine.

Eh...I can't even think right now. I don't remember what I was going to post about. I'll post it all out when I think of it. See you all later. Take care and God Bless. Love you all.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Man...I've been reading through people's sites. It seems like everyone is down and/or out. "Life sucks, this sucks, that sucks." Man..I thought I was the only one being negative. However, after reading everyone's comments on other people's site, I feel sooo good, haha. Praise God. Not that they are worse off than me, I just don't know why, but I was just so grateful for where I was and what I had. It was just interesting, hehe.

I'm finally living in my own apartment, haha. I kept putting it off and putting it off. But last night I slept here for the first time. Exciting, hehe. It was a good night's rest although the cat kept waking me up. She's so cute though so it's ok, hehe. She actually scared me once, lol. Didn't expect to see or hear anything move, but I did, haha. I just finished getting my table built and computer set up. Yay!! It's all working. Now I just have to get a chair for my desk. I stole my roommates chair for now, hehe. I'll get one soon though, lol. I have my chair at Teddy and Ivo's apartment, but I think it's way too low for my desk, haha. I have to get a computer chair. My room is a room now. Still needs some more cleaning, but I got all the important stuff set up. Desk, computer, laptop, stereo, lighting. LOL. Yeah...priorities are messed up. haha. Just kidding. I'll be getting a tv and a new ps2 soon too, haha. But I will have to wait for the next paycheck probably. This paycheck is going ALL to bills, ewww.

Well..I just forgot everything I was going to post about, haha. Life is actually really good. I had so much energy today at work. I was dancing around the office. Jamming to my music, Praising God with a dance, it was awesome. Resisted temptation and I'm going to do some reading before I go to bed. Oh yeah....go God. Welp...take care everyone. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Well...seems I've been ripping on other people lately. Now it's time to rip on myself. Cause I suck.

I haven't been to church in almost 2 months. Well....I did go to Teddy and Ivo's church once, but that doesn't count cause it's not my home church. I feel really bad cause I leave the usher team out in the dark. Not taking care of my responsibilities to that place. Ugh...all I can really do is go back and ask for forgiveness cause boy do I need it. Something's been on my mind about that though. I'm part of a CARE group where they make sure you are ok. My CARE group leaders are Asian and good friends of mine. They should know they haven't seen me in church for so long, yet they haven't even given me a phone call in the longest time. I don't understand. But everytime I call them, they are like...oh Wayne, we were just thinking about you or we were just about to call you. Are they fake? I would HOPE not. That would just ruin me if they were fake because I trust them A LOT. Please don't hurt me!! =*( I'm sure they aren't fake. It's hard to go to that church and be fake. At least I would imagine so. The power of God is so evident there and if that doesn't work (which would be impossible), the preaching would kick your butt. The preacher is so awesome, why don't I want to go on Sundays to listen to him bust it out behind the pulpit? Ugh....the flesh really sucks and lil ole me here that talks about discipline, doesn't go to church like a disciplined and faithful person ought to. I have plenty of discipline on some things, but not others. Gosh...I really do suck. *sigh*

Life has been good in Golden. I love it here. No parents nagging at me every night. That's the main thing, hehe. I get to do what I want and when I want. Requires more responsibility. It's fun though. So far I really don't have many responsibilities. That is starting to change though. There is so much I want to do while I'm out here. The reason for me to get out was so I live my own life and really seek God while I'm out here. Tsk...like THAT has happened yet. It will though. It HAS to....I can't keep living the way I am. As Switchfoot would say, "we were meant for so much more". And as Stacy Orrico would say, "there's gotta be more to life". In case you don't understand that...Switchfoot is a band and Stacy Orrico is also a singer and those are songs that they sing...respectfully.

Well, that's all I'm going to post for now. I really have to get going to finish some things. Like laundry, finish putting my desk together, and EAT!! I'm so hungry, haha. For more than just physical food. My spirit man is starving. I should read some tonight....yeah, I'm going to...yay...Go God. I love you. Take care everyone. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Few things on my mind lately. Nothing happy either...*sigh* But I'm so glad that my thoughts don't dictate how well I live my life. Although when I do think of those things, just makes me mad and disappointed. The things that are good are the new people I've met. Such great people. I thank God for all of you. ^.^

First things first though, I still stick with what I said before, be quiet about the election. It's not that I'm mad, it's not so much talking about the election, it's more dissing the president, George Bush. He won....and because we live here, we ought to support him now that he's our president. There's controversy on how he won, but regardless none the less, he won. Accept it. That's not what's been on my mind. I woke up this morning thinking about people's words and Bush. People are dissing Bush saying horrible things about him. And even though those things might be true, I don't think we should be saying it. I felt such a heavy burden when I thought about the things people have been saying. They are attacking our president with those words and it felt like I was being personally attacked and offended by those words. I almost started crying this morning. People are joking about moving to Canada and saying how it's going to be a long 4 years. Personally, if you really hate him that much, move to Canada...bye! And 4 years is 4 years, you can't extend it nor shorten it. For those of you that are Christian, pray for the president and our country. If you are afraid that he's going to ruin it, ask for wisdom for him. He's going to need it if he's really as stupid as people say. And this is so cool, I'm listening to K-love right now while typing this and guess what. Pastor's from around the world agree with me....wow, how encouraging. They agree that we need to be praying for our country and our government. That there is a rift between people because of this election. Bush has made mistakes, Kerry would have made mistakes too. God doesn't count our sins against us, why should we count theirs against them? How are they any different from us? How are we any better than them? Stop making fun of the president because you are just making fun of this country everyone claims to be so great. Ha ha ha...so great indeed, we aren't even really United....so much for the great UNITED States. Don't get me wrong, I love living in this country, if I was anywhere else, I'd be so screwed. Like I said before no matter which candidate won....I would still Praise God for him.

That's just one thing. Another thing on my mind is alcohol. No, I haven't been drinking, but the talk and topic of alcohol has been a reoccuring theme in my life lately. There's a friend of mine who just lost her mom due to a drunk driver. The night of the funeral, another family member's car got hit by yet ANOTHER drunk driver. Thank God no one was hurt in the second accident. Another friend is going through a tough time and she had to make a really tough decision that really wasn't tough to make, but rather it's really hard on her now. Before she met us...she was always the designated driver for all the freaking drunk FOOLS. She never drank, but was forced in a sense to be the designated driver to these people. I don't think I'd let her go with those other people again, hehe. As much as I can do about it, not that she really wants to. What the heck is the point of drinking? Honestly, it's just plain FREAKING stupid. What are the "rewards"? Destroying your body, waking up like crap the next day and impairs your judgement. It endangers everyone around you as well as yourself. People say that you shouldn't drink and drive. Well....the Bible says that you shouldn't drink till your drunk. The Bible was never against drinking....heck, Jesus drank wine at dinner. That's all he drank and He never got drunk. I personally say, if you never drink, you won't have to worry about drinking and driving. The only time I will ever drink is on a special occassion like my friend's birthday or New Years or something like that. Even then, I have like 1 glass of wine. I won't drink beer. And I NEVER finish that 1 glass of wine. All my friend's tease me about that, lol. I'm just like...quiet all of you, hehe. That's just my point of view.

I was talking to my co-worker just now about my friend who lost her mom. I had mentioned that to my co-worker to ask her to pray as well. She just asked me about it again just now. So I told her what happened. I had tears swelling up as I told her what had happened. I could just feel how saddened God was by the whole situation. Have you ever felt the heart of God? Have you ever experienced His love for all of us? But just as a great woman of faith once said, "we ask God to leave us alone and then wonder why He doesn't help us." Try telling that to a friend. Kick them out of your life and then expect them to help you out in a moments notice. Unlike us though, God is always ready to help. We just never ask for it. He's always waiting their patiently and we are always too stupid to ask Him for help. Myself included. We just sit there and when things don't go our way...He's the first one we blame. Although He's blessed me, that's totally different than when I ask for help. We tell God to get out of our schools and we wonder why kids nowadays grow up faster and are more messed up. And these kids are going to be the ones running our country one day. The experiences they have now are going to stick with them. I really believe in the vision of my church regarding children. To instill Godly values, principles, and morals into them when they are young. That way we don't have to rescue and save them later. I've never seen a better Sunday school or children's wing or that much emphasis put into our children before. If I didn't go to my church for the messages, I'd at least go because my kids would be in the best church in the world for children.

My heart is so heavy right now. For my friends, for my family, for my own life and for our country and the world. There really is no good in this world. There are good people and good intentions, but that doesn't mean the world is good. Don't get me wrong, there are some VERY nice people in the world. But that's still the person. Confusing maybe, but it's not confusing at all. I'm sitting here and doing my work, typing this post up, eating my breakfast and listening to K-love. Also praying too subconsciously. How do I know that...I just know because my heart is in so much pain right now. Just getting in touch with the creator, my Daddy and I'm feeling His heart. I'm about to start crying, but Praise God cause He's in control. His love is everlasting. I'd be so dead if it wasn't for his love, grace and mercy.

Much better now....things aren't so bad anymore. I told you I was posting this during work, hahaha. Praise God! Take care everyone. Have a great Friday and a great weekend. I love you all. Take care and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

I'm definitely going to post more. Mostly because it's fun, haha. Especially now that I have a lot more to talk about, haha. There's always something I want to post on here, but I get too lazy or something and end up not posting at all. *sigh* I suck, haha. I'm currently at work right now so I'm going to post this throughout the day, haha. Yeah...I'm not a bad employee, hehe. I'm just using all my resources to the fullest.  I'm a good employee, hahaha.....yeah.

So yeah....first off....I think people need to just be quiet about the election. It's passed...it's over. I still hear people complain about it. People need to just accept the fact that Bush won. He may not be smarter than Kerry. His plans may not be as good as Kerry's. However, there's a reason Bush still won. He's needed for such a time as this. What kind of time it is, I don't know, but he is who we need in office. I say Praise God for Bush. And if Kerry won, I would be saying Praise God for Kerry. If you don't like the outcome, you are MORE than welcome to leave the country. If you like living in the country, than hey, support the president we have. We are always going to disagree on views. People are always saying accept this person for their differences. Why don't you all quit being hipocrits and accept our President? People are all way too selfish..this president doesn't help me so I'm going to vote for the other president. Well hey...look at the bigger picture.

I heard some talk about the whole stem cell research. I personally need to read more about it and learn more about it. But from what it sounds like...it could really help with a lot of current diseases and it could really help the people if we did go through with it. That sounds good and all....but why rely on science when you have all the power you need at your fingertips? We rely on science too much. I have nothing against science. I just don't see why we turn to science when all we have to do is tap in to the ultimate source of life and power. Why waste time on research when you can pray for someone to get healed? Why waste time on science when all wisdom comes from God anyway? Why waste time on something we are never going to understand? I'm not saying don't question any of it....question it, by all means seek the truth. But you have to find the truth. Why do we humans always turn to something natural when we have the supernatural working for us? I'm guilty of it too. I will go ask a friend a question instead of asking the ALL knowing creator of the universe. Ugh...Father, may you forgive my ignorance. Personally, I'm not in favor of any particular party. I'm going to vote for the better candidate. On a light note, that way I'm not a traitor in anyone's eyes, lol. I was never affiliated with one group or the other, hehe.

Bush isn't stupid and Kerry isn't stupid. People need to stop saying that about each candidate. If they are stupid....and they are the ones leading our country, that really doesn't say much about the rest of us. If they are stupid....and we are the ones voting for them....than who is stupider? If they are stupid and we rely on them to lead the country, regardless of how much we complain, that's just saying we are a stupid freaking country cause we have idiots leading more idiots who aren't even smart enough to lead other idiots. How stupid is that? Come on, stop and think people. Stop and think. They are human just like the rest of us. If you have NEVER made a bad decision or a mistake...then you have room to talk about how "messed" up our government is. The only reason it's messed up is because of the people. We have that freedom that other countries don't get to enjoy. Our government is what we are going to make of it. We have that choice.

Anyway...now that I'm done ripping people a new one, I can talk about something else. Not that I can really think of anything to talk about now, lol. I finally got my bed moved into my apartment. YAY!! I can actually sleep there now. I have to rearrange my room tonight though, hehe. Oh man...I went out to buy groceries yesterday with Teddy. Holy cow, I've never spent so much money on food at once before.  I'm not going to say how much I spent because that's personal. You all don't need to know. It was a lot of money though. Thank you Teddy though for having a King Soopers card otherwise I'd be paying A LOT more. Yikes...I'm so glad I get paid tomorrow, haha. YAY for money, lol.

Well...I think I've posted enough for today. There's more to talk about, but eh...if I wrote it all down today, there would be no future posts, hahaha. Just kidding, I'll post more tomorrow, lol. Take care everyone. Love you all. Take care and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Well...looks like George Bush won the election again. I really didn't care too much who won. I thought both candidates were good ones. I still leaned more towards Bush mostly because he's been president before for one, but just tossing Kerry into everything that's going on...wow, that's going to be really hard on the guy and he isn't going to be able to perform everything he says he will. He still might, but I don't see how, hehe. But whatever. Here's something to really challenge you guys. I know not everyone wanted Bush and that quite a good number of you wanted Kerry to win. Here's a test for you. Are you going to be that Christian that God's called us to be and pray for the president we do have now? This is directed towards the Christian's. I never cared for politics, but I've still prayed for the president. I don't care if you like the guy, if he's made good decisions, or if he's even helped you in any way. We are called to pray and if you are like me...who's struggling with praying, this is a great place to start. That's really where I'm going to start, not counting my friends cause I'm praying for them, hehe.

It's definitely been a really interesting election though. Both candidates were just really awesome. They aren't perfect and neither are we. Sometimes we think we know it all, but ha ha ha....we suck, lol. Just listening to parts of speeches from both candidates, they are still both here for our country. Praise God for them both. They are both needed for such a time as this. Just because Bush won doesn't mean Kerry won't do all he can to accomplish what he wanted to through the presidency.At least one can hope, hehe.

So I finally moved out, hehe. Got my bed into my apartment last night, and payed rent again for the first time in a long time. All I can say is...OUCH!! I coulda used that money for a lot of other things. *sigh* You gotta pay bills. No such thing as a free lunch. Not even for those that we pay for all the time. The food might be free, but you pay us with your time. You just hang out with us and that's payment, hehe. Call me stupid, whatever, haha.

Well..life has been interesting lately. Very eventful to say the least. It's a good way of putting it...eventful, hehe. Peronsally and for my friends, but my friend's business is their business, I'm not putting any of that up on my site. That's just not cool. But I wouldn't mind talking about myself. I do that quite a bit anyway, hehe. All people have to do is ask me and I'll talk. Depending on the subject. There are a few things that I'm not allowed to talk about. Not allowed meaning that God wants me to keep it to myself. It's a special thing between Him and I. =)

Take care everyone. I'm off work now...YAY!! hehe. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit