Mike Ng is back. YAY!! We had a great time his first night back. Just catching up on stuff and reminiscing about the past, hehe. Good fun good fun. Mike also got to meet John and Kyle, 2 of my roommates. We ended up picking Mike up at his house and then going to Village Inn. Wow..haven't been there in a while either, hehe.

I'm not really going to post anything else. I'm just glad I get to see my good friend Mike Ng again, hehe. It sucks he isn't staying longer than he is. But I'd rather see him for a little while than not see him at all. =) I'm just glad he has the chance to be here with us. =) We are going to be doing quite a bit and hopefully we'll get to see him every day. Yes, that's how much we miss him, hehe.

It's great that we get to see an old friend or a friend that we haven't seen in a long time. Mike just happens to fit both those areas, hehe. Even though it's a great thing and you show your love and friendship towards the person by spending as much time as you can with them. You don't want to forget your responsibilities though. You don't drop everything just to spend time with a friend. For example, even though I want to spend as much time with Mike as possible, I'm not going to call off work just to do so. Or if my family has something they need me for, I'm not going to ditch my family for my friend. You have to be smart about these things. You shouldn't have to "prove" your friendship to an old friend. If they are truly your friend, they will understand that you have other responsibilities. Thank God Mike understands that, hehe.

True friends are hard to find and even harder to acquire as a good friend. Friendships are just like any other relationship, they take time to develop. You aren't always going to like your friend. There will be times you get mad at each other. There will be times when you disagree about certain topics. But through it all, you remain friends. You talk about things, you work things out, and most of all, you keep God number 1 in your life. Just like Michael W. Smith sings, "Friends are friends forever, if the Lord's the Lord of them." How true that is, otherwise, friendships would fall apart so easily. Why? Because we are human and as humans, we are proud. Even people who are depressed can still be proud. Hard to believe, but it's the truth, hehe.

Anyway, that's it for now. I'm going to get ready to go out again....yes, with Mike, haha. God Bless you all.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

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I love Him so much!! I haven't had this much love for God in such a long time. I think I love Him more now than I ever have before. However, it's not because I'm capable of love or that I know what love is. I wouldn't even have known TRUE love if it weren't for God loving me. The Bible doesn't say we love God cause we owe our life to Him or anything like that. We love God because He FIRST loved us. If God wasn't love, we humans would never know true love. Not even just true love, we wouldn't know what love is at all. I John 4:8 says "He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love." God is love HALLELUJAH!! However, this poses an interesting question. What about the non-believers? Do they not love? How can they love and not know God? Here's the truth and I'm sure a lot of people are going to disagree with me, but this is what I've come to learn from the Lord. Non-believers are able to love just like Christians. However, non-believers can only love unconditionally to a certain point. Without God, there's no way we can love someone unconditionally no matter what. Now here's the part where people are going to get mad, yell at me, rebuke me, whatever, lol. The devil twists everything that God has created. God created love for He is love. That means the devil must have twisted love as well. Well, who is the devil? He's the prince of this world. You can't have more than 1 master. Otherwise you'd be conflicting between them for they have different views. So if you don't believe in God, meaning you aren't submitted or following Him as master, you are following or serving the devil. Wow...that sounds so bad but it's so true. And since you are following the devil, you are taking upon the devil's characteristics as any servant would take after his/her master. So that means you would love like the devil loves. Not that Satan loves anything, but rather he's twisted the true love that God has created for this world. Now....not ALL of it is totally wrong. Surprising? Yes. Satan isn't that stupid. He's not going to make it soo different that people can't tell the difference. Some of it is still the unconditional love that God has created. Like helping people, honoring your parents, helping your friends, lending a hand to strangers, giving of your own time and of your money, etc. etc. However, the problem lies further in. Reason for your love. I know that before I knew God, I used to do all those things. Helped people, honored my parents....sometimes, helped my friends, helped a stranger, volunteered and donated money. However, now that I do know God, I look and think back to all those times and what do I see? Selfish intentions right behind each one of those masks.

Is every non-believer that way? Not necessarily. Non-believers are able to love without wanting anything in return. But not always. That's the thing right there. As a non-believer, I didn't always want something when I gave. However, those feelings of want did come up everytime I did something nice for someone else. Waiting for a reward, waiting for at least a word of thanks or something like that. Not that I acted or dwelled on any of it, but it did almost always come to mind. What I'm saying is that we can't truly love someone unconditionally until we accept Jesus as our Lord and Saviour. We hear the word love and everyone has their own definition. I'm not talking about our definition of love ladies and gentlemen. I'm talking about Love the way God created it. The way God loves, not the way we love or the way this world loves. For our love has been twisted by the ways of the devil. Our love has been tainted by the hands of the devil. Only Jesus who has nothing in the prince of darkness has that perfect love and the only real love that we can draw from.

So Jesus is love. mmm....mmmm.....mmmmm......Thank You Lord.

Last Thursday, my left ankle was in horrible horrible pain. I went to work on it. Excruciating pain. I thought I could just walk it off thinking it was a bad sleeping position or something like that. Nope....pain kept getting worse and worse. So I ended up leaving work very early from work. Got home and fell asleep. Friday, same thing, took work off. Both Thursday and Friday, when I wasn't passed out from exhaustion, I prayed, read my Bible, sought after God, listened to sermon after sermon. Come Saturday, my ankle was healed, PRAISE GOD!!! My knee was in horrible pain now. Uh oh...why God? Why heal my ankle if my knee is just going to hurt? I started to get a bit frustrated at Him because of it. How could you Lord? You think this is funny? How can I do anything when I can't even walk? That's how bad the pain was in my knee. Couldn't really move it because of the pain. Definitely couldn't walk. So I laid in bed almost all Saturday too. Praying, reading, listening to more sermons. I finally took some pain killers that night because the pain was just way too great. Sunday I was feeling better, mostly cause of the pain killers but I went to church and people were so loving asking me how I was and what happened. It was awesome to be in the house of God. Adam (Pastor's eldest son) preached an awesome message and Pastor Bagwell tag teamed with him later to finish off with another awesome message. It was great. That afternoon I went and saw my family. I was going to go out to dinner with my family for Father's Day, but Pastor was laying hands on people at church. Mostly for the young men and Father's. I love my family, but I had to get to where the annointing was. Especially since Pastor was laying hands on people. I love my family, but I love God more and I had to get to the presence of the Lord. If nothing else, for healing for my knee.

Monday rolls around and my knee is still hurting. I'm still taking pain killers so my knee was numb almost all of monday. Tuesday I got an appointment with the doctor and he checked me out. Even the doctor didn't know what was going on. Ended up getting a urine sample, 5 vials of blood to test for 5 different things, as well as 6 x-rays. Went back again today, he now knows why my knee is swollen, but can't explain the other pains and what not. Still doesn't know what those are from. It's not an infection, it's not any form of arthritis. So Praise God I'm getting good reports. We are waiting for some more tests to come back so we'll see what happens.

Now you may say, what does all this have to do with God's love? He hasn't healed you, oh but He has. No matter how much my knee hurts, I'm smiling, laughing, full of JOY!! Not happiness, but JOY!! Praise God!! No matter how slow moving I am, I still have a spring in my step. No matter what people call me, my name is still Wayne, not gimp, gimpy or anything else. No matter how bad it gets, I'm still healed in Jesus Name. God promised it to me. By right, I can claim it. You may say, then why aren't you physically and wholly healed right now? Because I'm enjoying myself so much more with this sickness, lol. Sounds weird, but I'm closer to God now through this thing that I have been healthy. Do I want to stay this way forever, of course not, but while I'm here, I'm just going to stick with it a little longer. God hasn't healed my physically, but He's healed me spiritually. Which is way more important than any physical healing we could ever ask for. At the right time, God will heal me physically. I know for a fact, my faith tells me, the Bible tells me and God promises me that I will not live like this forever. I will get better soon, Praise God!!!

That's God's love. No matter what you've done, I love you. No matter how many you've hurt, I love you. No matter who you are, I love you. No matter how many times you've hurt me, you do hurt me, or will hurt me, I love you. No matter how much you hate me, I love you. No matter what you are going through, I love you. No matter how you are behaving, I love you. No matter how rebellious you are, I love you. No matter how bad you are hurting yourself, I love you. No matter how much you hate yourself or others, I love you. No matter how much you've been hurt, I love you. No matter how many times you've sinned, I love you. No matter how times you screw up, I love you. No matter what, I, The Lord Your God, Love YOU. NO MATTER WHAT, I LOVE YOU!!!

The Christian walk isn't hard people. It's IMPOSSIBLE!!! You can't do it without God. I'm so joyful right now, so much peace. So much joy, so much revelation, so much wisdom. So much teaching, so much fun. The Christian life isn't boring. It's exciting and I'm so excited right now. You may say, you're hurting and God hasn't healed you, why trust Him? Because I can't afford not to. Without Him, I'm as good as dead. And that's not just me, that's everyone in this world. You may say, not me, I have this talent and that talent to get by. You wouldn't have that talent had He not created you in His image and given it to you those talents.

You Christian's better Praise God. For He is worthy of your praise. It doesn't take more than a minute to lift your hands and say thank You Lord. My last prayer "session" consisted of nothing but thanksgiving. I fell asleep in the Lord's loving arms while thanking Him for all He's done. And now, Wednesday, I have not taken ANY pain killers and my knee isn't in too much pain, there is a little, but oh well, Praise God!! No pain killers and I'm walking better than before. HALLELUJAH JESUS!!! I'll talk to you all later. I wrote a lot, not everyone is going to agree with what I've said, but it doesn't matter. Truth always seems to offend people. It offended me too before I came to the revelation knowledge of Jesus and what His Word truly says. Praise the Lord. Take care everyone. I hope God reveals His truths to you as He has with me. You just have to be able to receive what He's saying. It's hard sometimes, but if you submit yourselves unto Him, you'll be rewarded with much much more. =) God Bless you all. Love you all in Jesus Name.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

PS. I used Purple for a specific reason.

So yeah, I was reminded about my friendship post, lol. I'll post on that now. Yeah...But first things first.

So today, I was on my way home from work and there was a biker in the middle of the road. He must have thought everyone had to bow down to him or something. He was just riding in the middle of the street. The sidewalk was wide open. He could have easily gotten onto the sidewalk away from traffic. It probably wouldn't have been a big deal, except he was holding up traffic. Cars had to change lanes just to get around him. How selfish is that? I mean, omgosh. The roads were made for cars, not bicycles. He was at a stop light with us and there was a car behind him. He was in the way so the car couldn't turn right. The car had to wait for the light to turn green, there was no traffic hindering him from the right turn, just that guy on a bicycle. It was nuts.

I'm extremely tired and exhausted so I'm just going to post a lil about the friendship thing. People nowadays think friends are the ones that watch out for them. Friends are the ones that always help out when you ask them to. Friends are the ones that just accept you the way you are. Friends don't "make" you do anything you don't want to. Well, the world has really twisted what a true friend is. Jesus said Himself, there is no greater love than this, that one would lay his life down for his friends. Jesus was the ultimate friend to the disciples, to everyone. True friends are the ones that sacrifice time and energy for you. The true friends are the ones that do things for you because they love you, not because they were asked. True friends are the ones that accept you where you are, but love you too much for you to stay the way you are and where you are. True friends are the ones that don't force you to do the right thing, but they are the ones that should be speaking up and encouraging you to do the right thing regardless of how tough it is to do that. True friends are the ones that rebuke you when you make a mistake. They are the ones that exhort you when you are getting into dangerous territory. They are the ones that pray for you when no one else will. They are the ones that do things for you behind your back to help you out and never tell you about it. They are the ones that get to know you for who you are. They are the ones that love you no matter what you are going through. They are the ones that listen to you when you need someone to just vent to. They are the ones that don't judge or look down on you when you tell them of a weak point or a mistake you may have made.

This world doesn't do most of those things. They have some things which are the same, but for the most part, Satan has twisted what friendship truly is. That's all I'm going to say for tonight, I'm way too tired to continue. My eyes hurt, I need sleep, hehe. Good night everyone. Take care and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Camp is over and we have come back to reality again. It was so nice being lost in the Lord all weekend. *sigh* The great thing is, you don't need a retreat or a mountain top to enjoy the presence of God. So far so good, God's been showing me some really cool things lately. Mostly still showing me about myself and His love. So awesome.

I was at the Colorado School of Mines dropping off a customer's job. Well, I went to use the restroom and wash up. It was a hot day, lol. Well, I looked in the mirror after washing my hands. The Lord spoke up and said, who do you see? I said I see me. I don't see much, just a sinner. And some other things and I asked in return, what should I be seeing? And He told me some awesome awesome things. It really gave me a glimpse as to how God sees people. It was soo interesting. Really encouraged me, hehe. Praise God.

I've been thinking a lot lately about people. About the meaning of friendship. Thinking about the things that have happened in my life. The people I've met, the people I've hung out with, the people that have been in my life, etc. etc.

And thinking about this world and it's definitions for things, I truly see how twisted things have become in this world. God created everything in such a magnificent way. Everything God meant for good, really is awesome. The devil has so twisted the way we think and behave and react to things that it's quite disgusting. Since I'm talking about friendship, I'm going to share a few things on how the devil has twisted that. I'll leave it at that for now.

I'll post more later. I'm going to church now, lol. Talk to you all later.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Addition: I said I was going to post more so here I am, posting more, hehe. So I went out with my best friend Bobby Black tonight. Wow...such an awesome time of fellowshipping and encouragement. It was a lot of fun. We ended up eating at Bennigans and that was pretty good food. We talked a lot about a lot of things, hehe. Just like the "old" days, hehe. Some great revelation came to both of us and God really just blessed our night out. I'll have to go out with him more often, hehe. It's fun, Praise God!!

I'm not going to post on the friends thing just yet. I'm having a great night and I don't want to post on that just yet, hehe. Not to mention I'm also really tired now and I need to get some sleep for work tomorrow, hehe. Praise God for work, hehe. G'night all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and God (Trinity)