October 23, 2005

• God works in awesome awesome ways. So my parents have gone out of town for the weekend. So they asked me to come home for the weekend to watch my brothers and the house. Well my youngest brother had a birthday party he wanted to attend on Saturday. Well, since he doesn't drive yet, I took him to the party. They said that the party was ending around 10 pm and my brother said he was going to call me to go get him. I said cool and I waited for his call. Well, I did laundry, played some games and watched some tv till about 10. He didn't call. 11 pm rolls around, still no call. Finally, it's midnight and I decide to just go get him. Both me and my other brother were a bit worried wondering when he was going to call us. So I leave for his friend's house and the whole time, my mind is just racing with a whole bunch of negative thoughts. Things I shouldn't have been considering, but I was. Thank God he was safe at his friend's house still.

  
  

  I had experienced what I've put my parents through so many times. The nights where my mom couldn't sleep cause I was out with friends doing whatever. I experienced just a little bit of that last night with my brother. And that was my brother, I couldn't imagine what it would be like if he were my son or daughter. My mom always says that I'd understand when I have kids of my own. Well, it didn't take for me to have my own kids. It happened with my own brother. I'm just very thankful that he's safe at home now. So for those of you that don't call home to at least check in with your parents or for the ones who's parents always say they can't sleep cause they don't know what's going on with you....believe them when they say that. Cause experiencing something like that is very stressful. I don't know what I would have done had something really happened to my brother. I breathed a huge sigh of relief when I got to his friend's place and saw they were all there still. So call your parents if you're still living at home and you're out with friends or wherever you are. Just to let them you are ok. I know I'm going to instill that into my own kids. They better be calling me and checking in. I don't care if they are calling to say, "we are about to start a movie so I'm going to be a little late". As long as I know what they are doing and where they are....I'm cool with it. Of course, I'll teach them to respect others too so if they aren't the ones driving, they will respect the ones giving them rides in that they need to sleep too as well as have their own schedules.

  
  

  Anyway...another story about how God works. I had heard this story one time at my cell group. A girl shared it with the group about how God spoke to her about a certain situation in her life. These few weeks have been really tough for me. Currently searching for a job with no luck. Just being a bum and sitting in my apartment doing practically nothing. But aside from that...my relationship with God has been horrible. Only because of me though. God's been trying to get my attention through a lot of things and I notice them, but yet, I continue to run from Him....why? Why do we do that? I put it this way, it's like the person that likes the guy/girl that treats them like crap, while the one that truly loves them is right there for them and everything you could want in another, is in that person that has been kicked to the curb. That's how it's been with God. It's like we run to the world thinking that it's the better person for us, when the One that truly loves us is right there saying, hello? Do you not know that I love you more than anyone ever will or could? So anyway, back to my story....

  
  

  There have been 2 occassions where this has happened. The first time I was just laying in bed ready to go to bed. I look over at the clock to see what time it is. It's 2:39 am. Right when I saw the time, the Lord spoke up and said, read Matthew 23:9. I'm like....Matthew 23:9? What's that? So I flip open to the scripture....after being told to 3 times. And it says to call no man on earth your father, but your real father is the one heaven. <---summary. Wow....such conviction. It was amazing. I really needed to read that scripture. It's been difficult to treat God as my Father. Why? Because my earthly father wasn't much of a father. His fault? maybe. I think it was more my fault because I didn't really want to know him. I just saw him as the one providing for our family and the one to punish me when I screwed up or tell me when I'm wrong. I have a typical Asian father. Would I trade him for another? Nope....I love my parents now. I didn't before. I've heard it preached many a time before. Hard for people to see God as their father because they relate Him to their earthly fathers who aren't perfect and make plenty of mistakes. We can't do that. God is the ultimate Father. The perfect Father. He will never let us down, He will provide us with everything we need, and He will correct us properly/perfectly whenever we are out of line. I have more to say on that subject in a bit. But with that story, I knew a girl who God spoke to her situation the exact same way. I can't remember her scripture because that was applied to her situation. But with her, she had been praying about her situation and for 3 days straight, woke up at the exact same time. It was like 5 something in the morning. So finally, she just opened her Bible to whatever book and checked the verse that lined up with the time she had been waking up at. Sure enough, that was the exact scripture she needed that spoke to her situation. Amazing how God works huh?

  
  

  Back to God's correction. I think it's very interesting how God speaks to us. It's so different when God tells you something and when man tells you something. If man were to say "you screwed up and you need to change your ways now" most people would be offended thinking, who are you to say that to me? That's called pride by the way. However, if God were to say, "you screwed up and you need to change your ways now" most people would be like...Yes Sir!! At least that's how it is with me. I've noticed that when God speaks, for whatever reason, His voice is so soothing and it makes you want to obey Him. I just find it so amazing how God's voice is. The voice I had once come to love to hear and love to communicate with. The soothing voice that said everything was going to be ok. The voice of a lover when he/she says "I love you". That's how God's voice is. Even when God is saying, you need to change...you're just like....ok Lord, I want to change for you. Reminds me of the scripture that reads, "if you love me, you will obey my commandments". Well, I definitely used to love the Lord. I'm not so sure of it anymore. I probably still do, just definitely not as much as I used to. The things that God said I would one day be doing...I'm not so sure I can do that anymore. But I know that if He said I'll be doing it...I will be doing it one day. I just gotta get my act together...*sigh*

  
  

  Anyway...it's late and this post took longer than I expected as well as went on longer than I expected, haha. Anyway....take care everyone. God Bless. Goodnight.

  
  

  Wayne Hsu

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