So God is right, yet again. I’m not saying He’s ever wrong or that I doubt His words. But there are times where He does something that just blows our mind and we are like, why would God ever want me to do that? And then something or someone comes along and you find out exactly why He said what He said. In fact, 2 things that I’ve been questioning God about lately were answered today by 2 different people and the situations behind those people. God does things all for you and it’s all what’s best for you. Always, and even when God reveals things to us, we are still irreverant and disobey. Why? Why are we so selfish and why do we behave with such stupidity?

So God is totally taking me in a new direction. Even though I know where He’s taking me and why He’s taking me there, it still hurts a lot to do so and it goes against my feelings and what I want to do. Thank God I’m not God, haha. I’ve never experienced this kind of obedience before. Heard a lot about it and experienced it a little, but this just definitely blows everything else out of the water. But why now God?! Why can’t it be later?! Because it’s in His perfect timing.

Taking me in a new direction with my ministry, my finances, my integrity, my character, everything. It’s like extreme makeover, God style. And no matter how much my emotions fly…because they are all over the place right now, I’m still going to stay true to our Lord and Saviour and do what He is asking of me. For my will needs to line up with His will. It’s even harder because I’m not allowed to get into specifics about what He wants me to do. That’s so hard for me to do because I love sharing about what God is doing and where He’s taking me and such. This is definitely a change and it will be for the better. Like I said, build character and integrity. Help me Lord to continue to obey you and not say anything to even the closest of my brothers. I want to obey you Lord for You are great and worthy. You are magnificent and wonderful. Beautiful and charming. Continue to make me into the man you have called me to do. Continue to develop those skills I need to serve where you’ve called me to in the future. Hallelujah Lord for finding me when you did and for choosing me to fulfill a particular calling. I pray Lord you help all my brothers and sisters find their callings and reveal to them oh Mighty God what Your will for their lives is.

Well, it’s really late and Praise God that He’s in control and that I know Him tonight. If I died in my sleep, I’m going to heaven, I’m so sure of it. Praise You Lord for dying on the cross and saving me from an eternity without You. I pray that all those people that don’t know You will come to know You before they leave this earth. Have a great week at school people. School is such a blessing. We should treat it as such. Take care and God Bless you all.

With Love,
In Him,

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

I’ve really been praying hard once again for some things to change in my life. And well…it all comes around straight back to me. The Lord asking me very tough questions and telling me that if things are going to happen, I have to do certain things. It’s not a if you do this, I’ll do this type of thing. It’s more like, if you really want this in your life, things are going to have to change for your character isn’t where it needs to be in order to handle what you want and what I want to give you.

Quite honestly, and I’ve already told the Lord this, I’m really scared of some things that He wants me to do. Thank God He hasn’t given me the spirit of fear, but of power, love and a SOUND MIND! hehe. I’m not sure if I can do what He wants me to do either. Because my flesh is so weak…especially towards those things that God has called me to do. *sigh* Freaking flesh, lol. I guess this is where discipline and self control will come into play. Although things have been getting better as far as the fear and the committment that God has called me to. Only because I started doing some of it and man, am I enjoying myself once again in just fervent prayer and supplication. In the quiet of my room, with the door closed and just pacing the floor with the presence of God surrounding and enveloping me. As well as just residing in my room. Falling asleep and waking up to the presence of God…wow, such an amazing thing. Praise God!!

There’s something else that God has told me was going to happen and I really don’t want it to, however not my will, but His be done. It’ll take real strength and courage not to say anything for I’ve been commissioned to not tell people specifically what it is. I have it posted here because I just needed to get it out in another way besides praying and almost “whining” about it to God. I am prepared for it to happen and the “funny” thing is….it’s already starting to come to pass starting last night at youth group. I’m like…woah…not this fast God! But if it’s coming now, then I gotta get ready for it to change rapidly. But Praise God He is going to use it to develop something within me and help me to continue to grow. Which is the most important regardless of what I want and how I want things to be.

Anyway, tonight is the Boulder BBQ. I’m really excited to go. Get to see some people once again. Bringing the volleyball net I have in my car…maybe we’ll get to set it up, lol. That would be fun and interesting, lol. Soccer would be awesome too. Last time we played football, haha. Praise God for the wonderful times we get to spend together as family, not having to worry about things in this world and the burdens that we carry. We can just come into the presence of God and enjoy the company of those that we love. Although, fellowship is a very interesting thing. It’s also a place where we can be vulnerable towards one another. It’s a time we can still bring those problems and talk to each other about them. It’s a place where we can be open and safe with one another.

Lord I just pray that those reading this don’t ever take fellowship for granted. That although they may see some people almost everyday or every other day or maybe even once a week, that they don’t take even those few hours or moments together for granted. That they take those moments and really cherish them for they don’t know where you may take them next or where you may take their friends next. Father, I pray that everytime we see each other, we can learn soemthing new from each other. Whether it’s about each other or something that has to do with You or something that You’re doing in someone’s life. Father I Praise You for who You are yesterday, today and forever and Lord I worship You for the wonderful things You have already done in my life and in the lives of those that I love and those that I have grown to love. Lord, You are so wonderful. I thank You for the blessing of friends and loved ones. Regardless of where I stand in their lives and how they may see me or how they may think of me, regardless of all of that, I thank you Lord that I am able to love them and to always be available to them. I thank You Lord that You have made me the way I am today. For if it had not been for You, I would be dead and long gone from this earth and suffering the consequences of not knowing you by spending eternity away from Your glorious presence. Lord help me to continue to teach and to preach and to help those that you’ve called me to. Hallelujah Lord for You are so wonderful. Blessed be your Name Jesus. Thank You for all You endured and took for me on the cross. I thank You Lord that you keep reminding me of the Word You gave to Bobby through a sister. I pray everything in the Name above all names, in the name of Your glorious, wonderful, beautiful, majestic, awesome Son Jesus Christ, amen and AMEN!!

Currently listening to : The Heart of Worship – John Tesh
Previous song : How Great Thou Art – Crystal Lewis

Welp…I have to get started on homework and my reading….NO!!! lol. If you read this before tonight, I’ll see you all there tonight, haha. God Bless!!

With Love,
In Him,

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Well, I just had my
first day of school this past Tuesday. It was definitely different. I’m
a part of an adult program so the classes are held in a very different
way than your traditional schooling. We just go and discuss the book,
but everyone brings their own lives, experiences, etc. into it and we
basically just have a huge discussion about the topics. The teacher is
there as more of a facilitator. Keep the discussion moving along so we
cover everything. It’s definitely a big difference, hehe. I love it
though. However, I really feel intimidated because everyone there seems
smarter than me. They probably are. However, we should never look down
upon someone because of age. You can be much younger, yet filled with
more wisdom. I really feel that I have to prove something. And go
figure, the Lord would deal with me on that. Telling me that I don’t
have to show off or prove anything to my fellow classmates. I don’t
know why I feel I have to perform or “show off” or prove something.
Probably because that’s how I was raised and that’s how I was brought
up by the world. Just being competitive and having to show that I’m
better or something. I don’t know the real reason. It’s just something
God is going to have to take out of me and develop His character within
me.

Work has been really
busy this week. Back to school week…yay!! not really, lol. It’s been
good that business has picked up, but it picked up almost too fast. We
had to adjust in less than a day just to keep up with what’s going
on,hehe. The cool thing though is that we have gotten to dress up a
little these past few days. Tuesday was Hawaiian shirt day (reminds me
of the movie Office Space), Wednesday was hat day, and Thursday is
Sports Apparell day. Monday and Friday we have to be in dress code,
hehe. But these few days were fun. Oh, the company even paid for lunch
for everyone. They bought these huge submarine subs and we had to just
take our lunches at the office. It was nice. I wish they would always
buy us lunch, hehe.

Life has been really
busy as of late. There’s so much to do and now that I’ve started school
again, it’s just another thing. However, the rewards and the blessings
the Lord has been providing are simply amazing. Showing me new things
and just teaching me new lessons through everyday life. I love my
relationship with Him and what He’s called me to do. I wouldn’t trade
my relationship with Him for anything.Nor compromise that relationship
foranything or anyone. It’s sacred and ought to be protected by every
believer. Hallelujah!!!

Welp…it’s getting
late. Wait…it’s already been late, haha. It’s later than when I
wanted to go to sleep, hehe. Take care everyone. God Bless!!! Love you
all.

With Love,
In Him,

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Well, I start school today. Yes…it’s 2:20 am and I’m still awake. I have work in a few hours. If I didn’t have things to do, I would be asleep. That’s why I’m wasting more time in updating. Ann would be so proud. =P Just playing Ann, I love you, haha.

I’m nervous about school though. I haven’t been in so long, I’m not sure what it’s going to be like. Kind of scared too, but Praise God He hasn’t given me a spirit of fear so it’s just my nervousness about going back becoming fear. *sigh* I’ll be alright, hehe. Just gotta make it through the first night. I’m back in school though, Praise God for that. Been putting it off for way too long. Thanks to the people that continued to encourage me and push me to get back into school though. I don’t need to name names, they know who they are. As well as my parents pushing me too, hehe. Parents are always going to be parents, hehe. Gotta love them.

Camp Crossroads has been over for a while now, but it still seems like last weekend that I was there. I miss the campers that were there as well as the fellowship I was able to have with the other leaders. The campers were really blessed this year as they have all learned so much and grown so much since the previous camps. Praise God for all the wonderful things He’s doing in their lives as well as the lives of the leaders. May we all continue to seek His face everyday.

Well, I don’t have much more to post so I’m just going to leave it here for now. I’ll post more later. Just gotta get back into the whole xanga thing. Anyway….take care everyone and God Bless!!

With Love,
In Him,

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit