August 26, 2006
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New Season?
I’ve really been praying hard once again for some things to change in my life. And well…it all comes around straight back to me. The Lord asking me very tough questions and telling me that if things are going to happen, I have to do certain things. It’s not a if you do this, I’ll do this type of thing. It’s more like, if you really want this in your life, things are going to have to change for your character isn’t where it needs to be in order to handle what you want and what I want to give you.
Quite honestly, and I’ve already told the Lord this, I’m really scared of some things that He wants me to do. Thank God He hasn’t given me the spirit of fear, but of power, love and a SOUND MIND! hehe. I’m not sure if I can do what He wants me to do either. Because my flesh is so weak…especially towards those things that God has called me to do. *sigh* Freaking flesh, lol. I guess this is where discipline and self control will come into play. Although things have been getting better as far as the fear and the committment that God has called me to. Only because I started doing some of it and man, am I enjoying myself once again in just fervent prayer and supplication. In the quiet of my room, with the door closed and just pacing the floor with the presence of God surrounding and enveloping me. As well as just residing in my room. Falling asleep and waking up to the presence of God…wow, such an amazing thing. Praise God!!
There’s something else that God has told me was going to happen and I really don’t want it to, however not my will, but His be done. It’ll take real strength and courage not to say anything for I’ve been commissioned to not tell people specifically what it is. I have it posted here because I just needed to get it out in another way besides praying and almost “whining” about it to God. I am prepared for it to happen and the “funny” thing is….it’s already starting to come to pass starting last night at youth group. I’m like…woah…not this fast God! But if it’s coming now, then I gotta get ready for it to change rapidly. But Praise God He is going to use it to develop something within me and help me to continue to grow. Which is the most important regardless of what I want and how I want things to be.
Anyway, tonight is the Boulder BBQ. I’m really excited to go. Get to see some people once again. Bringing the volleyball net I have in my car…maybe we’ll get to set it up, lol. That would be fun and interesting, lol. Soccer would be awesome too. Last time we played football, haha. Praise God for the wonderful times we get to spend together as family, not having to worry about things in this world and the burdens that we carry. We can just come into the presence of God and enjoy the company of those that we love. Although, fellowship is a very interesting thing. It’s also a place where we can be vulnerable towards one another. It’s a time we can still bring those problems and talk to each other about them. It’s a place where we can be open and safe with one another.
Lord I just pray that those reading this don’t ever take fellowship for granted. That although they may see some people almost everyday or every other day or maybe even once a week, that they don’t take even those few hours or moments together for granted. That they take those moments and really cherish them for they don’t know where you may take them next or where you may take their friends next. Father, I pray that everytime we see each other, we can learn soemthing new from each other. Whether it’s about each other or something that has to do with You or something that You’re doing in someone’s life. Father I Praise You for who You are yesterday, today and forever and Lord I worship You for the wonderful things You have already done in my life and in the lives of those that I love and those that I have grown to love. Lord, You are so wonderful. I thank You for the blessing of friends and loved ones. Regardless of where I stand in their lives and how they may see me or how they may think of me, regardless of all of that, I thank you Lord that I am able to love them and to always be available to them. I thank You Lord that You have made me the way I am today. For if it had not been for You, I would be dead and long gone from this earth and suffering the consequences of not knowing you by spending eternity away from Your glorious presence. Lord help me to continue to teach and to preach and to help those that you’ve called me to. Hallelujah Lord for You are so wonderful. Blessed be your Name Jesus. Thank You for all You endured and took for me on the cross. I thank You Lord that you keep reminding me of the Word You gave to Bobby through a sister. I pray everything in the Name above all names, in the name of Your glorious, wonderful, beautiful, majestic, awesome Son Jesus Christ, amen and AMEN!!
Currently listening to : The Heart of Worship – John Tesh
Previous song : How Great Thou Art – Crystal Lewis
Welp…I have to get started on homework and my reading….NO!!! lol. If you read this before tonight, I’ll see you all there tonight, haha. God Bless!!
With Love,
In Him,
Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit
