August 9, 2004

• Dang....life is so hard. I'm so glad I have God in my life.

  
  

  So today is Monday. Instead of going to the church internship like I was planning on doing...I'm here at work. My parents wake me up at 6:30 this morning and proceed to yell at me for 30 minutes on why I shouldn't have given up the job. I finally left my house at 7 for my job instead of my church internship. I couldn't stand it any longer. I'm just disappointed with my parents. They say they'll support me and that they love me. I know they love me, but they don't show it very well. They say they support me....don't show that either. I get yelled at for doing things for God. Talk about persecution. As long as I serve God that fits their schedule, it's ok. Otherwise...my God decisions are always wrong. How is a Christian supposed to live like this? I don't know...but I'm holding on and God is going to help me. He has to because if He doesn't, there's no point to my life.

  
  

  God set everything up perfectly for my internship too. It was amazing to see what He did for me. I'm so thankful and so blessed to have a God that loves me. Not to mention a God that's real and alive today. The people at my church are so supportive and I thank God He brought me to a real house of God. However, I do need a lot of prayer for my situation. I'm just so hurt right now because of my parents and what they have made me do. They made me come to work instead of letting me do whatever it is that I want. I don't know...I can't blame them. They don't know any better. "Father forgive them for they know not what they do."

  
  

  To make matters worse in my life, my relationships aren't getting any better, lol. They are getting worse if anything. My attitude may not have been the best, but I can't help it. There's so much that I want people to know and realize that I probably come off as a jerk. Maybe I am, oh well. I can't compromise like people want. I'm not going to compromise truth for anything. God's Word is final. What's wrong is wrong and what's right is right. I'm not the best person in the world and that's ok. I may not be the perfect friend that people have thought, but that's ok. I have my best friend in the Holy Spirit and just like I preach all the time, He's the only one I need. I have Him forever and I know I have Bobby forever. There are others too, but those two are the main people in my life.

  
  

  I'm not going to change either. I'm still going to love God with everything and love my neighbor as myself. First 2 commandments and most important too. Once I have those, it doesn't matter if people hurt me. Doesn't matter if people care what I have to say and it doesn't matter if they want to hear what I have to say. I'll say what I have to say and that's all that matters. Of course I'm not going to say bad things, lol. I will say what needs to be said. I want to be a man of few words, but the words that I do speak will impact nations. Amen.

  
  

  Wow....just more babbling and rambling from me. So much for being a man of few words, haha. Anyway. People may get mad at me for this post, but I honestly don't care what people think. If I'm wrong...God will show me and convict me. That or He'll use one of my great brothers or sisters to do that job. *sigh* Life, haha. Although everything seems to be going bad and downhill....life is still good. I'm not happy, but I'm very joyful. I'm glad Hebrews 13:5 says what it says. So comforting. Gotta live the rest of the Bible out, hehe. Not just parts, but all of it. Praise God for His Word. Praise God for who He is. I worship you Lord Jesus, thank You for dying for me on the cross that I may have your grace and mercy. Do I ever need it now. Praise God.

  
  

  Well, have a great Monday everyone, haha. My life has gotten just a little more interesting. For those believers, if God places me in your hearts to pray, I thank you for that now. I do need a lot of prayer right now. For my church internship members and for myself. That I will be able to do my job with joy and that I will continue to have favor within my work place. I already have God's favor otherwise I wouldn't have gotten the job, hehe. Praise God. Now it's time for more favor, hehe. Thank You Jesus. Take care and God Bless you all. I love you all very much.

  
  

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