Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!

I got this ecard from someone wishing people a happy thanksgiving and I thought I’d share it with everyone. It’s pretty awesome. =) Enjoy. Make sure your sound is on. =)

http://www.msn.americangreetings.com/view.pd?i=382219626&m=1652&rr=y&sou

God Bless and be safe this holiday.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

I had another dream last night. Still remember it so I have to write it down somewhere or else I’ll forget, hehe. So here’s the dream I had.

It started out with me being at a huge hockey rink. My old DU team was playing a game and they were up 2 – 1 late in the 3rd period. All of a sudden, they asked me to join the game and miraculously, I was already in full gear so I just grabbed my stick and jumped on the ice to play. No matter what I did, it just wasn’t the right thing. I couldn’t even skate well. Nothing was working out for me. The puck was missed by my players and it came to me, well, I tried to get it, but completely missed, why? because I had no more stick. My stick had disappeared and instead of a stick, I had a jacket in my hand. So I swatted at the puck with my jacket. Strangely enough the refs never stopped the game because I was using a jacket as a stick. It seemed ok to everyone cause not even my teammates went to retrieve my stick for me. Finally, the puck was pushed into the corner and I went after it. I ended up slipping when I got there and when I looked down, it seemed like there were 3 pucks. Except the other 2 pucks were fake, they were some kind of candy that looked like a hockey puck and had plastic wrapping over it. When I stood up, there was a pile of them there where I was. The refs blew play dead and they picked them up. I heard the opposing coach yell, “He did that on purpose, those things fell out of his jacket.” I just skated away and played it off like nothing happened. I don’t know where those things came from. After play resumed, the other team finally scored with a few seconds left on the clock. The strange thing was, our goalie was no where to be found. They had a wide open net and just tapped it in with no effort at all.

So we skated to the bench. I had been playing for about 5 minutes straight without getting tired. The whole line played like that. It was the strangest thing because you normally have like 30 – 45 second shifts so 5 minutes is insane. When I got back to the benc, I noticed that the team was made up of like, 2 forward lines and 2 defensive lines, including my line. So we didn’t even have a full team. Finally, someone was nice enough to bring me back my hockey stick, they were asking who’s it was and it was mine. Strangely though, my stick was comletely wrapped in plastic, like a brand new stick that stil had the packaging on it.. So I just removed the plastic. When I got to the bench, I asked if the game was over, I wasn’t sure. So I look back onto the ice and 2 other teams were shaking hands, it looked like they just finished up their game. So I .look out again and it seems there are just random people on the ice now, getting ready to ice skate. It’s like right after the games, they had free skate going on. So I’m sitting there with my team and I notice that skating over to our bench was a girl I know. I’m not going to reveal her name, cause that’s not important, hehe. So she came over and said hi. The rest of the guys were like…..go for it go for it….I’m like….excuse me? lol. She’s too young for me first of all and she’s just a friend, hehe. Not to mention I don’t know her that well and she’s not what I’m looking for in a girl anyway. Meaning she’s a good looking girl cause the guys were like, she’s hot, go for it. So I jumped the bench and gave her a hug…sorta, cause my pads were still on, hehe. Then a song came on and the people doing free skate started skating around the circles in a huge group. It looked kinda cool, hehe. She invited me to go out and skate. I’m like no thanks. Of course the guys were like…yeah yeah yeah. haha. “Cheering” me on. Not that they were going to, hehe. So she’s like alright, well, I’m going to go and so she did. So I just watched her skate off. As I was sitting there with the team, I overheard the goalie complaining about that final goal. He was blaming the whole thing on me and saying how I was skating around too much. And saying how it would have been best if I just sat in front the net, not literally sitting, but just staying in front of the net to protect it. I couldn’t take it anymore so I joined my friend on the ice, haha. I went up to her and tapped her from behind and she turned and gave me a hug. So I started skating with her and tried to get in on the huge line that the skaters have now formed. I reached out and grabbed her hand and we started skating with the line. Finally, she let go of my hand like she was ashamed of me or something. I asked her what was wrong and she was like…we are just friends, we shouldn’t be holding hands. I was like, that’s baloney, I know we are just friends, but we are just skating and it’s not like we mean anything else by this gesture. She understood and was happy again so I grabbed her hand with a smile that she understood and continued to skate and have a good time.

The dream then shifts to a bunch of military personnel. I was now in the military. Part of an elite group of soldiers. We were ordered to go into a certain place for a special assignment. So we began our training, but the next thing I knew, we were already on the plane on the way over to the assignment area. All of a sudden, part of the platoon just ran up to where we were and started shooting part of the team. They later said that they were traitors and sent to sabotage the mission. Not seconds later, were we hit with a missle. It didn’t explode though, but rather, went straight through the cargo area. Luckily, none of us were killed or hit by that. So we all grabbed parachutes and proceeded to jump out of the plane which had already started going down. So everyone jumped except me and 2 other people. The last 2 were afraid or waiting or something. I finally grabbed one and was like, we are jumping. Just then another low flying plane was going right by us. So we couldn’t jump or else we would have jumped right into that plane. So a few seconds later, it passed and I grabbed the person and basically just threw him out of the plane. And I just jumped right after him, telling the person to follow now. So I jumped, but the plane had gotten so low that before I could even pull my parachute, I landed in a tree and fell all the way to the ground and landed in the grass. The tree totally broke my fall as I was perfectly fine, with no injuries.. The person behind me, had also jumped right afterwards but had time to open the parachute for the person went all the way to the ground and I turned just in time to see the person land in a huge pile of rocks and basically slid through the rocks. I ran over to the person to help them out. I asked if they could walk and was answered with a no., my leg is injured, I can’t move it. They proceeded to remove their mask to take a look at their leg. To my surprise, it was a girl, not that I’m being sexist about the army or anything, just in the dream, I was surprised. Not only was she a girl, she was a very beautiful blonde young lady. About my age and she was a part of this team just like everyone else. She couldn’t walk and there were search lights “patrolling” the area we were in. So I grabbed her and picked her up and started running towards our commander who was behind a building. For whatever reason, I just knew where everyone was hiding out. They way I grabbed her was over my shoulder. If you were looking at the person, you would take their right arm and put your body underneath theirs from under their right arm. The other hand would go between the legs and hook behind the right leg. So they are basically laying stomach down on your shoulders. We had to hurry, cause the search light was upon us and had skimmed over us, but they saw us. So I ran away from the search light and we eventually got away and to safety with the rest of the team. We were all kind of panicked as we were not expecting an ambush like this so we were almost yelling at the general asking what we should do next. The first thing we did was find a place to hide and get patched up to plan our next move. It seemd like we were in a huge city, and we were hiding out within the neighborhood. Apparently we had a contact there that we could be with and trust that they were on our side. What side we were a part of, I’m not exactly sure. The last thing I remember, I was helping the girl patch up her leg and the dream ends.

At least I think it ends. I can’t remember if there was another part to it, I think there was, but I just can’t remember it now. Either it kept going, or my alarm went off, hah.a. Anyway. I had to write the dream down somewhere and well, xanga was the fastest cause I can type faster than I can write, lol. Anyway, hope you enjoyed my dream, LOL. I’ll have to ask God for the interpretation. I have gotten some of the interpretation already, but I have to get the rest of it, hehe. Take care everyone and God Bless. ^_^

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

I’ve said it once and I’ll say it many more times in the future, but God NEVER ceases to amaze me. He just pulls out surprise after surprise, hehe. So for those of you that don’t know…because I didn’t say anything, hehe….my gout in my right foot came back on Monday. On Sunday it was already kind of hurting, but I thought maybe it was just overworked. But no…the gout came back. For those of you that don’t know what that is, it’s when the uric acid in your bloodstream crystalizes and settles normally in your big toe. Making it extremely painful because that’s the direction your blood flows in first of all, hehe, but it also makes it very very difficult to walk. So you have to keep your foot elevated so the blood flow isn’t so intense. This is the worst case that I’ve gotten it because it swelled up my whole foot this time. Previously it was just the toe area that was swollen. So anyway, I’ve been in pain this whole week. =P

Thursday night, which would’ve been last night, but I was lazy and I’m not posting till Saturday morning…pay no attention to the time. =P I really stretched my faith and did something completely ridiculous that I would never have thought to do. It was just plain silly. In the Bible, the book of Acts 19, the anointing of God was so strong in those times, that even the clothing of the disciples could be cut off and placed on people to completely heal them. Well, I totally believe that healing power is evident even today, just at this moment in time, God’s anointing on the Earth isn’t as strong as it was back then. Why? Because of us humans, we limit His power and reduce it from what it’s truly capable of, but that’s a whole other teaching. Anyway, my church, “Word of Life” has a conference very year called “Resurrection”. Well, at the end of each conference, there’s another service for prayer and prayer clothes. The prayer clothes are to be brought home or given to family members, relatives, friends, kids, whomever for healing. We’ve had some awesome awesome testimonies from people who were completely healed. I’ve heard of 2 that really stuck out. Before I get into those, lemme explain, hehe. These pieces of cloth are taken from the concept in Acts 19. When Paul had pieces of cloth and clothing that were taken to heal people. Each night of the conference, they have the guest preacher lay hands on them and pray and anoint them. So their are some powerful men of God that lay hands on these things that help bring God’s healing anointing to the world. At the end of the conference, they are given out to people who need a healing miracle in their lives and like I said, there have been numerous testimonies in return to a prayer cloth. So the 2 miracles that really stick out were one, a dead man was raised from the dead and another person had their blind eyes totally opened. The dead man had died in the hospital and they just took a cloth, about the size of a bandana, and just layed it over his face and he just popped up from the stretcher. That must have been scary, lol. The other one, the person laid the cloth underneath their pillow at night as they slept and when they woke up the next morning, they weren’t blind anymore. It’s like WOW!!! Praise God!!! I haven’t seen any creative miracles, but I’ve witnessed some awesome miracles myself. Healing miracles I mean, hehe.

So anyway, the real point I was saying was I did something completely out of the blue. Up till last night, I was just taking pain killers for the pain and that’s about it. Of course I prayed too, probably not as much as I should have, lol. Regardless of that, I took a prayer cloth…from 2 years ago that I still had. And I tied it around my foot. Don’t know why, I figured it wouldn’t hurt to try, stretch my faith a little bit. Took some pain killers right before I crawled into bed. I ended up going to bed late cause our cat got out and I was the one that “let” it out on accident. She ran out when I opened the door for the dog…stupid cat, lol. But she came back at around 5 am and my roommate and I waited for her to let her in cause our pets just know to come home, lol. So I didn’t get to bed till late. I had to make a phone call so I set my alarm for 11 am. I woke up at 1 pm by my phone ringing cause my mom was calling me. You may say, so what? Big deal. I woke up with no pain whatsoever and I hadn’t slept that well all week. I was able to walk decently well now instead of limping around. God had partially healed me of my sickness. The nights before I would wake up in the middle of the night because of the pain regardless of the pain killers. I wasn’t able to sleep well at all. I ended up taking 3 or 4 naps a day and my sleep schedule is all messed up now. Which is why I’m still up typing this out, haha. The pain had been really intense, hard to move, I literally sat around all day. Sounds nice, but I was in pain, lol. I was doing things to keep my mind off the pain. And gout isn’t something that just gets better overnight. But there’s a significant difference from Thursday night when I went to bed and Friday morning…well afternoon, hehe, when I woke up. I hadn’t been taking any medication or anything. Nothing to really combat it, just to relieve the pain a bit and wait it out.

So I have yet ANOTHER thing to be thankful for…that I’m healed and well. Maybe not completely 100% healed, but enough to where I can do something about it now, haha. Praise God!! Hallelujah!!! AMEN!! haha. Oh…and last night, I had an unusual dream. I was living in a prety big house with a couple. They weren’t married, but they were dating and we all lived together. The guy wasn’t the greatest guy, but he wasn’t a jerk either. The girlfriend was really nice to me and I guess we’ve been friends for a while now. The guy I don’t think liked me very much. But I remember me and the guy being outside in the front yard and there were kids playing in the neighborhood. One of our neighbors, an older gentleman was outside getting his newspaper and there were kids playing in front of our house. Well, next to the street, we have rocks there and kids were knocking the rocks out onto the sidewalk. So we went and pushed the rocks back into the piles. We lived in a nice neighborhood with friendly people and all. After going back inside, he went upstairs to get changed cause he was going out with the girl that night to the opera. And so I’m looking in my closet for my nice suit and I was like…wait, did you get 2 tickets or 3? And the guy was like…I only got 2, I’m just going with her. So I was like…oh, and really bummed cause I wanted to go too.So he leaves the room and the girl comes in and was like…Wayne, you should totally come with us. You can just come home afterwards. I said no thank you and gave her a reason why…don’t remember what that was. And then night falls and I wake up from the dream. I remember in the dream that I really loved this girl and I just knew, in the dream, that we’ve been friends for a really long time and that we’ve both been through a lot and helped each other out a lot. But now she was with this guy all the while me secretly liking her. I guess I just never said anything to her or whatever, haha. I don’t know what the dream means, but that’s what happened, hehe. The girl was mix between Chinese and white, almost a perfect 50/50 split and the guy was white, kinda scruffy, hehe. The guy was a little taller than me and had dark brown curly hair. The girl was about my height and had long brown/blonde hair that went down to her lower back. The night they went out to the opera, he was in a black tux and she wearing a beautiful red dress. The guy and I shared a room and the girl had her own room. It was kind of layed out like a hotel. You walk in the door and there’s a wall on the right that when you get passed it, you see it’s a closet. As you continue to walk in, there are 2 beds with a small dresser in between the 2 beds. There’s another bigger dresser at the foot of the beds, but against the wall so it doesn’t block walking, with a 14 or 15 in. tv on it. And as you walk passed the beds, there’s the big window. Like the full ones that go from the ceiling to the floor, but these were just a little smaller. Didn’t quite reach the ceiling and didn’t quite hit the ground. A few feet from the ground and ceiling. The closet was shared 50/50 and so were the dressers. I don’t believe I ever really saw the face of the guy or the girl. Just features. Unusual dream, hehehe. I should probably ask God what it means, haha. Although I’m a little scared to ask, haha. Cause of the coloring that was in the dream, but anyway, hehe. The cool thing is I haven’t had such a vivid dream in a long time. So when I do, it’s always a real blessing.

I’m just going to close with God is awesome. God is great, all the time and all the time, God is great. He never ceases to amaze and we all ust have to keep our senses sharp enough to notice everything He does. Alright, hope you guys enjoyed this post, lol. It was fun to write it, hehe. Take care everyone and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

So I watched “The Truman Show” today all the way through for the first time. I’ve seen parts of the movie before, but never all of it. It was good, I actually saw the ending this time, hehe. For those of you that don’t know what movie that is, it stars Jim Carrey and basically, his whole life, from the time he was in his mother’s womb till he’s an adult, is caught on film and shown to the whole world. The whold world witnessed his birth, his first steps, everything. It was a 24/7 showing of this guys life. There was a director and they recreated a HUGE world for Truman. Everything was remade into 1 huge movie set for him. Basically a “perfect” world. Anyone at anytime could turn on the TV and watch this show……basically, his life. All the people in his world are actors. Including his wife and his best friend. Whenever Truman tries to leave the place….there would be just something that keeps him from leaving. Some sort of event or something that forces him in a sense to stay at that city.

It just got me thinking that’s exactly how God is too. Just watching our lives. All day, 24/7 just watching us. Just like in the movie, everything has been set before us. Things that happen in our lives, the people that’s a part of our lives, were orchestrated and planned by God. Although God lets us live our own lives, He will place certain things in our lives to prevent us from leaving His perfect plan for our lives. Of course we always have that choice to follow it, unlike Truman had. The friends we have are placed in our lives for a reason. The best friend or few best friends we take, are put into our lives for a reason. Now I’m not saying we always choose wisely who to make our friends or best friends, but they are still there for a reason, hehe. I’m saying that from experience. I know I haven’t chosen the best of friends in the past, but I’m so thankful that I did choose them before. Strange yes, but I’ve learned from them and those experiences to know to not go back to that, hehe.

At the end of the movie, Jim Carrey obviously finds out the truth, that’s definitely predictable. But he got to talk with the guy that created it all. And the director of it all was talking to him like he was God. Metaphorically, not literally, hehe. I’m not saying he was boasting about his “creation” or anything. But I could imagine God saying the same things that he did. Basically he was explaining to Jim Carrey a few things about what was going on. And I can just hear God saying the same things. I created you. I created this world for you to enjoy, I was there for your birth, I was there to see your first steps. When you lost your first tooth, I was there. When you met your best friend, I saw. That first test you aced, I rejoiced with you. That first test you failed, I suffered with you. That girlfriend/boyfriend that broke your heart, mine broke along with yours. That girlfriend/boyfriend that eventually became your wife/husband, I celebrated along with you. When you landed that perfect job, I cheered with you. God wants to be so involved with our lives and we never let Him be as involved as He really wants to be. I know that because I don’t even let Him take everything like I should. Sometimes I think I’ve given something up to Him, but I was far from it, still holding onto it myself deceiving myself into thinking that I have surrendered it to God.

I’ve been so out of touch with God lately, yet I still hear Him calling. I still feel that tug on my heart everyday. I still feel the conviction when I’m messing up. I still feel His love and grace upon me. Yet I still continue in my sinful ways. Why is that? I don’t understand us humans sometimes. Other times I wish I didn’t understand, hehe. I’ve gotten phone calls from people at church wondering where I’ve been and I haven’t returned their calls. I’ve just been afraid to call them. I don’t know why. Afraid to allow myself to be a little more vulnerable. We’ve all been hurt and it’s hard for me now to just open up. I used to be very open about myself, but let’s just say this world sucks and people aren’t as they show themselves to be. One part of I me wants to pour out to these people because I know they won’t judge and just love me for who I am,, but on the other hand, I really am afraid of what that might do to me. It’s just amazing what God will do to bring you back to Himself. Even if we don’t go back for the right reasons, we ought to go back to Him just because of how much effort He puts in to get to us. He should be “rewarded” for what He does although that’s completely the wrong way to think.

Anyway…I’m done for tonight, hehe. Take care everyone. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu

Found these tests on a friends site. I’m bored…why not? hehe.

Yeah, I would consider myself a Guardian….

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant – and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You’re very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career – but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Admiral Wave Your Superpower is Genetic engineering Your Weakness is Bacteria Your Weapon is Your Magic Pistol Your Mode of Transportation is Cable

You Should Learn Japanese

You’re cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture. From Engrish to eating contests, you’re born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You’re laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren’t attainable.

Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy. Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems. You would make an excellent: Counselor – Dental Hygienist – Librarian Nurse – Parole Officer – Personal Trainer Physical Therapist – Social Worker – Teacher The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you’re told that you’re loved. You’d like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful… that you’ll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future… one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You’ll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You’ll do anything for love, but you won’t fall for it easily.

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle – a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don’t actively fight them. You’re just you. You don’t try to be what people expect you to be.

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It’d really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

Your Inner Child Is Sad

You’re a very sensitive soul. You haven’t grown that thick skin that most adults have. Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone. You don’t let many people in – unless you’ve trusted them for a long time.

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You’re not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

Mariah Carey Shares Your Taste in Music

See her whole playlist here (iTunes required)

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind – a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

God works in awesome awesome ways. So my parents have gone out of town for the weekend. So they asked me to come home for the weekend to watch my brothers and the house. Well my youngest brother had a birthday party he wanted to attend on Saturday. Well, since he doesn’t drive yet, I took him to the party. They said that the party was ending around 10 pm and my brother said he was going to call me to go get him. I said cool and I waited for his call. Well, I did laundry, played some games and watched some tv till about 10. He didn’t call. 11 pm rolls around, still no call. Finally, it’s midnight and I decide to just go get him. Both me and my other brother were a bit worried wondering when he was going to call us. So I leave for his friend’s house and the whole time, my mind is just racing with a whole bunch of negative thoughts. Things I shouldn’t have been considering, but I was. Thank God he was safe at his friend’s house still.

I had experienced what I’ve put my parents through so many times. The nights where my mom couldn’t sleep cause I was out with friends doing whatever. I experienced just a little bit of that last night with my brother. And that was my brother, I couldn’t imagine what it would be like if he were my son or daughter. My mom always says that I’d understand when I have kids of my own. Well, it didn’t take for me to have my own kids. It happened with my own brother. I’m just very thankful that he’s safe at home now. So for those of you that don’t call home to at least check in with your parents or for the ones who’s parents always say they can’t sleep cause they don’t know what’s going on with you….believe them when they say that. Cause experiencing something like that is very stressful. I don’t know what I would have done had something really happened to my brother. I breathed a huge sigh of relief when I got to his friend’s place and saw they were all there still. So call your parents if you’re still living at home and you’re out with friends or wherever you are. Just to let them you are ok. I know I’m going to instill that into my own kids. They better be calling me and checking in. I don’t care if they are calling to say, “we are about to start a movie so I’m going to be a little late”. As long as I know what they are doing and where they are….I’m cool with it. Of course, I’ll teach them to respect others too so if they aren’t the ones driving, they will respect the ones giving them rides in that they need to sleep too as well as have their own schedules.

Anyway…another story about how God works. I had heard this story one time at my cell group. A girl shared it with the group about how God spoke to her about a certain situation in her life. These few weeks have been really tough for me. Currently searching for a job with no luck. Just being a bum and sitting in my apartment doing practically nothing. But aside from that…my relationship with God has been horrible. Only because of me though. God’s been trying to get my attention through a lot of things and I notice them, but yet, I continue to run from Him….why? Why do we do that? I put it this way, it’s like the person that likes the guy/girl that treats them like crap, while the one that truly loves them is right there for them and everything you could want in another, is in that person that has been kicked to the curb. That’s how it’s been with God. It’s like we run to the world thinking that it’s the better person for us, when the One that truly loves us is right there saying, hello? Do you not know that I love you more than anyone ever will or could? So anyway, back to my story….

There have been 2 occassions where this has happened. The first time I was just laying in bed ready to go to bed. I look over at the clock to see what time it is. It’s 2:39 am. Right when I saw the time, the Lord spoke up and said, read Matthew 23:9. I’m like….Matthew 23:9? What’s that? So I flip open to the scripture….after being told to 3 times. And it says to call no man on earth your father, but your real father is the one heaven. <—summary. Wow….such conviction. It was amazing. I really needed to read that scripture. It’s been difficult to treat God as my Father. Why? Because my earthly father wasn’t much of a father. His fault? maybe. I think it was more my fault because I didn’t really want to know him. I just saw him as the one providing for our family and the one to punish me when I screwed up or tell me when I’m wrong. I have a typical Asian father. Would I trade him for another? Nope….I love my parents now. I didn’t before. I’ve heard it preached many a time before. Hard for people to see God as their father because they relate Him to their earthly fathers who aren’t perfect and make plenty of mistakes. We can’t do that. God is the ultimate Father. The perfect Father. He will never let us down, He will provide us with everything we need, and He will correct us properly/perfectly whenever we are out of line. I have more to say on that subject in a bit. But with that story, I knew a girl who God spoke to her situation the exact same way. I can’t remember her scripture because that was applied to her situation. But with her, she had been praying about her situation and for 3 days straight, woke up at the exact same time. It was like 5 something in the morning. So finally, she just opened her Bible to whatever book and checked the verse that lined up with the time she had been waking up at. Sure enough, that was the exact scripture she needed that spoke to her situation. Amazing how God works huh?

Back to God’s correction. I think it’s very interesting how God speaks to us. It’s so different when God tells you something and when man tells you something. If man were to say “you screwed up and you need to change your ways now” most people would be offended thinking, who are you to say that to me? That’s called pride by the way. However, if God were to say, “you screwed up and you need to change your ways now” most people would be like…Yes Sir!! At least that’s how it is with me. I’ve noticed that when God speaks, for whatever reason, His voice is so soothing and it makes you want to obey Him. I just find it so amazing how God’s voice is. The voice I had once come to love to hear and love to communicate with. The soothing voice that said everything was going to be ok. The voice of a lover when he/she says “I love you”. That’s how God’s voice is. Even when God is saying, you need to change…you’re just like….ok Lord, I want to change for you. Reminds me of the scripture that reads, “if you love me, you will obey my commandments”. Well, I definitely used to love the Lord. I’m not so sure of it anymore. I probably still do, just definitely not as much as I used to. The things that God said I would one day be doing…I’m not so sure I can do that anymore. But I know that if He said I’ll be doing it…I will be doing it one day. I just gotta get my act together…*sigh*

Anyway…it’s late and this post took longer than I expected as well as went on longer than I expected, haha. Anyway….take care everyone. God Bless. Goodnight.

Wayne Hsu

I’ve seen this on a few people’s sites and other places. I just had to say something. Sorry if I hurt your feelings.

“Words of wisdom (more like “wisdom”):
“Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don’t want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren’t as good, but easy… So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they’re amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who’s brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

And… Men?

Men are like a fine wine. They start out as grapes, and it’s up to women to stomp the crap out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with”

First off, I think it’s the other way around. I think it’s Men are like apples on trees. Not necessarily at the top though. They are all over the tree. You just have to look for them. Women either don’t look hard enough or they don’t recognize what a good apple is. Most of them pick the rotten apples (jerks). While the good apples remain on the tree. OR!! Women already have the good apple with them, but they still choose the rotten apple and the good apple gets thrown to the side or on the ground and ends up getting stomped on.

And let’s say women are the apples. When men go to reach for the good ones, they STILL get pushed aside. Why? because the apple has seen a different guy. The good apples up top are still looking down at the rotten men going after the apples on the bottom. So either way…the good guy still ends up losing. Am I bitter? Of course not, I just hate seeing stupid things happen.

And men are definitely a fine wine. Not the grape part, but the part where you have to know what kind of wine to get. If you don’t know or understand wine, you aren’t going to be able to enjoy the wine. The way it looks, smells, tastes, etc. If you really wanted a man to be acceptable to have dinner with, why not try to understand him?

I’m not just targeting women. I’m talking about both sexes. If you want a successful relationship, you better learn to understand the other person. You better know the person VERY WELL before even starting a relationship. I’m not talking about, “oh, we’ve been friends for 8 years.” Yeah, well there are people who don’t even know their own family whom they’ve lived with for 21 years. Time means nothing. You can know someone you’ve met 2 years ago better than a roommate you’ve lived with for 4 years.

FOR EXAMPLE!! My best friends: Teddy, Ivo, Bobby, Xiao. I’ve known Bobby the longest (since 6th grade). Teddy and Ivo know me just as well as Bobby does and they’ve known me for much less time than that. Xiao knows me fairly well, but not as well as the other 3. Anyway.

I just don’t understand humans. I do, but I don’t. I used to see people as God sees us. The way I see people now, it’s just ugh. Am i perfect? HECK NO!! Far from it. Do I do things that piss people off? Occassionally, but that’s cause of different reasons. Not the general things that just frustrate me. That probably makes no sense to people, but whatever. It makes sense to me, lol. I see people now and I’m just like….how could God love us so much? WHY does He love us so much? If I were God, I wouldn’t even love myself. The stupid guy that picks from the bottom of the tree. When God is at the top of the tree crying out saying, I’M HERE!! The best fruit of them all. The sweetest. The best looking. The best tasting. The one that will satisfy ALL your needs. And yet, I still pick from the bottom of the tree. It’s easier. It’s closer. It may not be as good, but I’ll never really know so it doesn’t matter.

Why is the truth so hard for us to see? Why can’t we just accept the truth? Why is it so hard for us to pursue the truth? What’s the point of a relationship anyway? What is truth? What’s the point? Questions questions questions. A sea of questions…that 99% of people probably couldn’t answer. Or even if they could, they’d be way off. Do I know the answers? Maybe yes maybe no. Doesn’t matter if I know them. Do you? Have you ever thought about it? *sigh* I’ve said too much already and who knows how many people I’ve offended.

This is probably why I don’t have many friends, hahaha. Oh well. Having a large phone list or 8 million people on my buddy list are the last things I’m worried about. Am I grateful for the ones I do have? Of course, I wouldn’t trade my friends for anyone else. I’ve lost a lot and gained a lot. A lot of what? Well, that’s for me to know and only for me to know, lol. And God knows as well, hehe. He was the one that probably took away, but I’m not going to assume nor jump to that conclusion. What I’ve lost, I’m probably better off without. What I’ve gained, is priceless. Only because every good gift comes from above. Thank you Jesus.

Well, now that I’ve pissed everyone off, I’m going to go to sleep, lol. G’night everyone. Have a long day ahead of me. I just pray God will help me get everything done and done correctly. *sigh* Why do I suck so much Lord? So pathetic. G’night all.

Wayne Hsu

Eh, I saw this on a few other people’s sites and thought to do it myself, hehe.

These are supposedly 26 questions that no one would ever think to ask. Answer them, then REPOST the bulletin:

 
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what’s the first thing you look at?
    My face, just to see how bad I look in the mornings, lol.

2. How much cash do you have on you?
    well, cash as in bills, none <–spent it all on karaoke. But literal cash i have $500 on me.

 3. What’s a word that rhymes with “TEST”: 
     best and/or guest

4. Favorite planet?
     earth, although life may suck sometimes, i’m glad i was placed here.

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
    my awesome mommy!!

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?    
    waltz of the flowers <–from the nutcracker suite. so it should probably say waltz of the fluers or something like that, haha.

7. What shirt are you wearing? 
    just a plain white t

8. Do you “label” yourself? 
    definitely not. Then again, i wouldn’t know what to “label” myself as.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you’re currently wearing?  
    none? I’m in my room at my apt.

10. Bright or Dark Room?  
      in between. but it also depends on what’s going on. but just normally, about the middle, not too dark, but not too bright either.

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
      which person? there were like 4 people that took it before me, haha. that i know of i should say.

12. Ever “spilled the beans”?     
      just a few times, but it never hurt anyone.

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?:  
       chatting online

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? 
       “o okie. well ttyl den” <– from my brother

15. Do you ever click on “Pop Ups” or Banners?:  
       definitely not…so annoying, that’s why i have pop-up blocker. :-p

16. What’s a saying that you say a lot?: 
       “ugh” “sigh” “people are retarded”

17. Who told you they loved you last:
       charn tieng. a friend whom i haven’t seen since july of 1999.

18. Last furry thing you touched? 
      our dog. just a few minutes ago, haha.

19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days? 
      does gaming count as a drug? lol.

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?:     
      None. it’s all digital now, hehe.

21. Favorite age you have been so far?:
     i have to say 18, when i learned about the Lord jesus christ and accepted him as my lord and saviour.

22. Your worst enemy?:
      satan as well as myself.

23. What is your current desktop picture?: 
      Tifa lockheart from ffvii advent children

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?  
      “sure”. when i let xiao borrow my mouse to my laptop, hehe.

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret what would u choose? 
      a major regret. because once i change that regret, i could be making a million bucks right now, hehe. <–that regret was my failure during my few years in college.

26. Do you love/ like someone?
      i don’t know anymore. the people i love aren’t around anymore. the ones i’ve liked, are all….somewhere. but God’s called me to love everyone so i’m working on that right now. i used to love everyone, but now…if i’m being totally honest, i can’t say that i do.

have fun to whomever does this thing next, hehe. God bless!!

the post beneath this one is also for monday. for anyone who wants to read everything, hehe. no pressure. lol. i started it sunday, but was busy helping out a friend so it drifted to monday morning, lol.

Wow, I haven’t posted in about a month. Well, it’s definitely not because I haven’t had time, that’s definitely not the case. It’s just this past month has been like hell. I guess the only person to blame is myself though. I haven’t been the way I should be. Definitely not the first time. The flesh is so weak all the time it’s disgusting.

A lot has happened this past month. Most of which I’m going to keep behind me, lol.

So this past Friday, some of us went to sing karaoke. It was pretty fun. Teddy and I didn’t hog the microphone as much, hehe. Teddy did a good job of doing that, I…well, I just suck at singing anyway and I was in the presence of artists, haha. *cough* Anna, Jennis, Lawrence, Dorothy, Teddy, Tom *cough cough* It was really nice seeing Anna, Jennis and Tom again. Haven’t seen them in forever. The coolest thing that happened that night was I got to see Steve Che again. I haven’t seen him since we all graduated high school, haha. He still looks the same. Same in the respect that it’s how I remember him, hehe. It was cool getting to talk with him and seeing how he’s been these past 5 – 6 years. Fun stuff, hehe.

So this past month like I said has not been the best. Been struggling in my walk again…grr….that’s the one thing I wish I was constant. I used to be. =( I just really needed some encouragement and I’ve been getting some from my friends, which is awesome, I thank them for that. But tonight was especially awesome. I got some awesome encouragement from my parents. It was almost like God was speaking through them. They aren’t saved, but that doesn’t mean God can’t use them as well, hehe. Just the things they were talking to me about was just awesome, hehe.

So many times we think that if something bad happens to us, that it really is a bad thing. Like an injustice has been done to us. I’ve definitely felt that way before. Like my last job, I was kind of bitter that I was let go. My boss just wouldn’t listen to reason. Tonight I hear from my dad that he’s not an easy person to work with and that it was probably worse for me being under him. I was like wow…I never thought of it that way. My parents were also telling me how people may see me as a threat. I’m sitting there like…what? Me? Threat? yeah right. Then they proceeded to tell me how I might seen that way. I was like…woah…I never thought of it that way either.

And talk about encouragement…there are times where it seems like I’ve just been used just so someone else will look good. I’m all about helping people out and what not, but I hate being used. Big difference from being used by someone and someone sincerely asking for help with something even if it the outcome does make them look good. Up till recently, my family has always been asked to help out with the big Chinese events that go on. And when I became older, I was asked to MC many of the events and being pushed by my parents, I did well as an MC. Well, today is the Chinese Double Tenth celebration. They had the event for this past Friday, it’s when they always have it. This year, they didn’t ask me to MC, but they got someone else to do it. I heard that the MC wasn’t very good this time. I didn’t go so this is just what I’ve heard from people. I do know who the MC was cause my mom told me about the event, but I’m not going to say who it was cause that’d be gossip. =P Anyway, afterwards, there’s a gentleman by the name of George. He’s a very successful Japanese business man. He’s always at these big events for the Chinese community and lots of people know who he is. I’m not sure if he’s full Japanese or not, but that’s not important. But my dad told me when I was talking to my parents, that George approached him and told him, “I miss your son”. Talking about me. It took me a few minutes to remember who he was. But when I did finally remember, I was like…wow. It was not only amazing that he misses me as an MC, but that he remembers who I am. I met him at one of the very first events that I MC’d for and had seen him about 2 or 3 times after that at other events that I was at, not necessarily as MC. But that was such an encouragement to know that the work I had put in was really apprecciated by at least him. That was so cool to hear from my parents.

Speaking of parents…I wouldn’t trade mine for anything. Growing up, we “hate” our parents because we “have” to do things. When in fact, the reason our parents have us do things is because it’s for our own good. It’s for our future. But ever since I became Christian and my parents had gone through life with me and learning more about the culture of Americans, our relationship has gotten a lot better. They actually listen to my brothers and I now instead of always telling us what’s right and wrong. They will listen to reason and things are just fun now. Of course we still have serious talks and stuff like tonight, but for the most part, it’s fun. My mom said something about my brother that has stuck with her from the point he said it up till now. It was when he was back in like 6th grade or something. He said, “I’m the smallest guy in my class, but I’m the smartest”. When my mom said that to me, I started laughing. Not because it was funny, but because I remember him saying that and the thing is…it was the truth at that point. There was a reason my mom told me that, but that’s for me to know. =) It was a good night and it was fun. I watched “House of Fury” with my parents and one of my brothers. They liked the movie, it’s a good one.

Anyway, that’s it for now. Please pray for me those of you who are Christian. I really need to find a job soon. Even though I dislike working in corporate America, I really do need a job. I dislike working for certain reasons that I’ll post on some other time. I’d rather spend my time working on the Lord’s work in full time ministry. Sad that I want to do that, but my experience isn’t enough. <–the church didn’t say that. God did. But more importantly, my relationship with God isn’t the greatest. How am I supposed to communicate what God wants me to if my relationship, my foundation with Him isn’t even planted firmly. *sigh* Anyway, pray for me all of you that do pray. Pray about what God wants you to pray about. Alright, good night all of you. Take care and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Everyone is using the word yoink now….first time I heard it was with Teddy and Ivo….wow we know a lot of people guys. :-p

MY TURN!! I’m bored, waiting for my game to install. No, it’s not a new game, hehe.

10 Years Ago
1. I was unpopular (wait…still am)
2. Actually did well in school and cared about my grades
3. Been best friends with my best friend for 3 years

5 Years Ago
1. GRADUATING!! sorta…over the summer, never went through ceremony. (kinda regret it)
2. Went off to college…and did horrible.
3. Was part of a multi-cultural dance troupe. Go PhantAsia!! ^_^

2 Years Ago
1. Started hanging out with Teddy and Ivo…what was I thinking? love you guys, hehe.
2. Still thinking about a certain person.
3. Still doing college…just community now, haha.

1 Year Ago
1. Grew extremely close with some awesome brothers.
2. SHOULD’VE graduated college if I did well *sigh*
3. Learning more about God.

Yesterday
1. Went out to dinner with my family to a new restaurant. Good food, horrible service. Grandpa is going back to Taiwan…maybe for good. I hope my mom is ok.
2. Went to work…oh wait, that’s everyday, lol. 
3. Had a great night with God.

Today
1. Woke up at 5 am and had an AWESOME time with God in the shower. <–strange maybe, but the revelation He showed me was amazing. 
2. Took a loooong shower, haha. about 45 minutes…yikes!! hehe
3. Started watching a movie with Teddy and Ivo, but they had to go to do hw or study or something so we turned it off for now. YES!! go responsibility, hehe.

Tomorrow
1. IS FRIDAY!!
2. Going karaoke at night
3. Hopefully I can get a haircut, hehe. Teddy/Ivo. “Tao: so you’re ditching him?!” YES YOU DID!! Bastards. :-p

1 Year From Now
1. I wanna be in China, studying or working. or both, hehe. Or maybe even more God willing.
2. Still working and hopefully back in school somewhere.
3. Making Chinese Heritage Camp a better place.

2 Years From Now
1. China…definitely China.
2. Hopefully have found my future wife. *prays hard*
3. In some kind of leadership position within ministry

5 Years From Now
1. Having an awesome relationship with my future wife.
2. Planning on getting married as well as starting a ministry.
3. Have my whole family saved.

10 Years From Now
1. Be in full time ministry.
2. Have at least 1 child
3. Be so close to God that nothing else phases me or matters.

I didn’t “yoink” it. I just used it. lol. Hope you enjoyed it and feel free to use it on your own xangas. HA!! like I have any control over that, lol. Take care everyone. I’m going to go game, then read my Bible, pray and go to bed. Have a great night everyone. God Bless. ^_^ Thinking of you Charn Tieng and still praying for you sweetheart. Hope things are better now. Take care.