Found this on another’s site.

The Lord is so wonderful. Everytime I screw up….which can be quite often sometimes, He always manages to pull me back in. The think Bible says that God pursues us with His love. I can’t remember the exact verse so I’m not 100% sure it’s in there, hehe. But it ought to be because for the past week or so…God has really pursued me with His love. Like He does everytime I start to slip away. I hit a real rough patch in my life. I did something that I really should have waited on God to do. But me…being stupid and impatient, acted recklessly because I wanted something at that precise moment. Well, I got what I wanted…but it cost me a lot. Money, time, my relationship with God, my joy among other things.

What am I talking about you may ask? Or you may not, hehe. This very thing I’m using to type this entry. That’s right…my new computer. Hard to believe? maybe, it’s just a machine, something we use. Yes, but this machine costs money…quite a bit of money, that I didn’t have enough of at that point in time, but I wanted it so bad…it just caught my attention and my desire to want the computer surpassed the wisdom I should’ve used in buying it. Does that mean this computer isn’t given to me by God? No…God wanted me to have the computer…how do I know? I talked to Him about it. He revealed to me what I did wrong and what He wanted to do for me. It was so convicting, lol.

So here’s the story. So I see this awesome computer at Best Buy down in Aurora because I’m killing time before something, I forget what. So I talk to the guy to see if the Golden store carried it because I really wanted to get it. I had gotten my new job by then so I had the income to support it. He said yes so I’m like sweet, I’ll go and check it out sometime. So the next week, I talked to my friend to see if he could let me borrow some money for the machine cause I didn’t have enough that day, but I really wanted it. He said that I’d probably have to wait for it because of school  materials he had to spend money on. So I was a little bummed. So I stayed on my laptop and was thinking as I was chatting. Thinking through my funds. And when I put the math together, if I wrote a check, it normally takes a few days to process and my next paycheck will have gone in and I would have enough for the computer. So I decided to go ahead and buy the computer.

Alright…so here’s the stupid thing. Here’s what I did wrong. I didn’t double check to make sure my bank account was where I thought it was. I didn’t trust and ask the Lord if it was ok to even go ahead and purchase the computer. I should’ve been in prayer for such a huge purchase. We often forget that our money is not our own. Just because God only wants us to tithe 10% of it, doesn’t mean that’s all that belongs to Him. It’s ALL His why? Because He gave us the abilities to do our jobs. The talents, the skills needed, the determination, the drive to do well, all comes from Him. So without Him, we wouldn’t have the job in the first place. Anyway, back to me and my stupid self. So I go to Best Buy and purchase the computer. I think I tricked myself or justified myself with my thoughts. Whatever the case, I should NOT have purchased the computer at that time.

So what happened as a result of my irresponsible actions? Well, my bank account is very low. To the point where on my rent check, it came back as NSF. If you don’t know what that means, I hope you never find out the hard way, but it’s Insufficient Funds. Don’t ask me how they got NSF, hehe. On one hand, I was surprised when I heard, on the other, it was almost like God was telling me that it was going to be there when I came back. So right now, I have no money, I haven’t eaten lunch in 2 weeks. I don’t really eat dinner except whatever I can scrounge from our kitchen, hehe. It’s really sad. I really know what it feels like to be homeless and hungry now. <—see, God always will do things in all situations. My bank account is negative. Number isn’t important…it’s just got a minus sign in front of it.

So lots have happened because of this computer. My funds dropped super low. Staying up late to play games with friends or by myself so my sleep habits have been thrown off. Been late to work a few times as a result of being up late. So naturally, tired at work and not performing like I should be. Falling away from God because I just want to play my games. No money because I spent it all on my computer. Hit a rough spot because I started stressing about money situations. And I refuse to ask my parents for help. They don’t need that extra stress on them. And they’ve supported me all this time, if I can help it, I won’t ask them. Teddy and Ivo understand that, hehe. You don’t think so much can happen from one small thing huh? It’s funny how tests and trials come your way when you start to “complain” or even “boast” about certain things. Interesting enough I just talked about being irresponsible not too long ago and what happens? Thrown into a situation to be responsible and I screw it up…oh God…thank You for your forgiveness again.

But Thank GOD again!! for the people He’s put into my life. They really helped me out with my financial situation. On one hand, I hate asking people for money, which is why asking my friend for money for the computer was so stupid. On the other hand, it was a very humbling experience. And if everything goes right now….my bank account should be back up in the positives by this Thursday and my debt to my apartment will be paid off thanks to my friends. So Thank God again for provision.

Thank You ALL for your encouraging comments. I try to do what I can for God, but without His grace, I can do nothing. And I’d like to think I’m strong in the Lord, and I might be…but even the best of us screw up. That’s like a million messages right there, haha. Messages = preaching. I love to preach, hehe. Gotta start living more like the Lord though. He’s been encouraging me through many messages today. A lot of things I’ve heard a million times over and yet it was fresh and new today. Praise God!!

Take care all of you and I apologize for screwing up, but I’m not perfect. I’m sorry for anyone if I’ve gotten on your case about something and turned around and started being hippocritical. That’s what happens when your relationship with God starts to dwindle. *sigh* Anyway…thank you for your prayers if you are praying for me. Some people are just placed on your hearts and you pray for them without them ever knowing. I don’t know who is praying for me, and I know some people who are, but I thank you from the bottom of my heart if you are and I don’t know you are. If I never thank you personally, God will reward you for your faithfulness to Him, not to me, hehe.

God Bless you all!!!

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

I may never understand the fullness of God’s love, but He shows it to me everyday and all the time. Thank You Lord and help me to understand those deep mysteries of Your being. Amen.

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I know you all are great and encourage me. Please don’t feel bad for me though. It was something brought on by myself and this isn’t something that should be felt sorry for. I screwed up and God has been working, hehe. Things will work out because God is on the job. =) I know you all mean well, but don’t apologize, hehe. It’s not me being mean, but it’s me being harsh on myself. And it’s God’s correction in my life in this particular area. Hallelujah God loves me, hehe. God Bless you all. ^_^

God is such a wonderful God. So amazing. When I think He’s not there anymore…He’s closer than I can ever imagine. Just this morning….another amazing, beautiful, and glorious sunrise. I was hearing some things being said about hurricane Katrina. To be totally honest…I was getting sick of hearing about it. I mean…everywhere you look, everything anyone talks about is hurricane Katrina. I started getting a really bad attitude about the situation. Just like…get over it people, it happened, big deal. Stupid stupid me not even knowing the real extent of what has happened nor being even near to the incident. I can’t say anything negative about something I don’t know. You can’t talk to people about something you know nothing about. This hurricane seems to have been the biggest ever. So much damage. Both physically and emotionally. That hurricane has really taken it’s toll.

I really didn’t want to hear about the hurricane anymore, like I said, I was just getting a really bad attitude. Not having a heart of compassion like God wants me to have. So what happens? God works. The next song that came on K-love was a new one I had never heard. I think it might have been sung by Third Day or Mercy Me. I don’t know, I could be way off, but that’s not the point. The song was a song for the victims of Hurricane Katrina, kind of an ode to them. That’s the right word right? hehe. But the song was very uplifting and encouraging, but at the same time…it had parts of President Bush’s speeches as well as some interviews with the first hand victims. I couldn’t hold back, the conviction was way too strong and I just burst into tears. Repenting of my poor attitude as well as for the sin in my life. When God works…He doesn’t do things halfway, He really does it all.

There’s a xanga site that I found a while back that has some awesome stories and fun little things on it about God. How “ironic” and “coincidental” that the person’s post was the exact same thing that God dealt with me about this morning. Amazing huh? Here’s the link: http://www.xanga.com/GTR4eternity13mom . You all should check back at the xanga periodically. There’s some awesome stuff on there. I don’t know where the author gets it all, hehe. Actually, I probably do know, yes…from the Lord Himself. ^_^

So Chinese Heritage Camp was awesome-o. I wish my friends that didn’t get in were able to go. They didn’t get in because of an excess of counselors. What made me mad was about a dozen or more counselors called out saying they couldn’t make it. Holy crap people…if you can’t commit to 3 days…DON’T!! There are others who really wanted to do it and who would be GREAT counselors that didn’t get in cause you had a spot. People need to be more responsible. I think that’s even a question on the application. Can you commit to these 3 days? Ugh…makes me mad. I was told that I should’ve just brought them because some groups ended up being shorthanded. That sucked, but most everyone did a great job. Before camp had started…I had a really bad feeling about camp. I didn’t know why or what about. Well…I found out on Sunday night what that bad feeling was. A prank that was taken way too far. I’m not going to go into detail because that’s not the point. The prank should never have been done…at least that prank, if it was just something funny and harmless, that’s fine with me. But this was horrible, damage to people’s cars as well as camp property. Have you counselors no respect? And these are the SAME counselors that are leading the children. What kind of example is that for the kids?

A lot of people say that we humans are good by nature. I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again…we are all children of wrath and rebellion. We aren’t inherently good. If we are all that way by nature…how are we going to teach kids to grow up correctly when we can’t even do it right? A lot of people say that they are good counselors, they are good counselors. Well…I tend to disagree with a lot of that. Just to be negative? Of course not. A lot of people just look at how you are with the kids. And yes…when these counselors are around the kids, they are well behaved. Around the parents, they have fun with the kids, they play with the kids, they teach and help the teachers. But then you look at these same “good” counselors on their free time and you see a whole different person. I don’t believe a good person is someone you see doing good things. A good person is one that has been conditioned to be one. Whether it be by God, parents, friends, etc. The way they are when they aren’t around someone they have to “impress” is how you can tell if a person is good or not. Although I said God…that doesn’t mean you have to be Christian to be good. I have plenty of non-Christian friends who are better people than a  lot of the Christian’s I know. Sad huh? VERY!! Surprised? Not really. (which is sad in itself). A person who acts one way with kids and another way normally isn’t teaching the kids the right way. It shows the kids that being 2-faced is ok. Yes you treat kids and adults differently. You wouldn’t talk to kids the same way as you do adults. They wouldn’t understand. But that’s just the way YOU TREAT them. Your actions, behaviour, habits shouldn’t change because you are around a child. Am I saying expose the child to the bad things? Of course not…you shouldn’t be leading a child if you have that in your life in the first place. Why? cause you are passing that down to the child.

These children are so fragile. They tell us every year the same things. That the kids talk about us counselors throughout the year. Camp is on their lips all the time. The kids look up to us soo much and we mean so much to them. On the flip side, I am the same way. The kids mean so much to me, which is why I go back year after year. Sacrificing my own time, money, energy, strength, sleep, etc. for these kids. I treat each child like my own. But because they aren’t mine, I can only do so much. Gotta be careful to not step into the parenting zone, hehe. I’m just a big brother/counselor and not their dad. There’s a fine line there, hehe. There’s a verse in the Bible that says whatever is in a man’s heart, that’s what he’s going to be talking about. That’s how it is with these kids. Camp is really in their hearts, their counselors are in their hearts year round. What’s going to happen when they grow up and find out their counselor was really this way, but acted a different way with them? These kids aren’t stupid, hehe. They are all very smart. Of course, they are Chinese, hehehe. Seriously though…these kids are our future. A lot of kids don’t know things because we, the “older” generation isn’t teaching them right. I don’t even know where I’m going with this anymore. I wasn’t going to post much, but then I got started…and I never stop…*sigh* I just know that I don’t act differently when I’m around children. The activities I do with them are the same ones I enjoy myself. They don’t see 2 Wayne’s. They see me and who I really am.That’s all they will see because there is nothing else. I’m not the only counselor that way…many others are the same way, just not all…and that’s what I don’t like. I would really love to go to the other camps, but I don’t have that kind of time. I might right now…but I’m thinking about going back to school so I’ll do what I can I suppose, hehe. It’s also really cool too cause they are going to bring me and Cici into one of their meetings throughout the year and we get to really talk about some things. So interesting cause during the summer because CHC, I was talking about how I wanted to get even more involved than I already am, hehe. I think that’s just awesome how the Lord knows what’s in our hearts…assuming He didn’t put those there Himself, hehe.

Well…after a great weekend with the kids, I come back to a horrible week at work. Been here at work 3 days and been late all 3 days. What is going on? Tuesday, got a flat tire on the way to work….15 minutes late. Wednesday, slept through 5 ALARMS!! Got in 1.5 hours late. Today…fell back asleep on accident after turning off alarm and was 30 minutes late. I can’t keep doing this. So irresponsible…irks me. The more I think about it though, I don’t think my cell phone alarms are going off at all. Last night I had it right next to my head and I have 3 alarms on my cell that go off within 5 minutes of each other. I didn’t hear any of them this morning. How does that work? They are loud and annoying sounds too…stuff you normally wouldn’t sleep through…which is why they are alarms, hehe. So I don’t know.

I guess that’s it for now. I can’t think of anything else to put down, haha. Anyway, God Bless you all. Thanks for reading my venting. Only a little venting, hehe. Take care everyone and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu

I am sooo tired. Not that I have an excuse for it. It’s my own fault. My new computer was bought and meant for gaming. Well, it’s definitely serving it’s purpose. That’s for sure. I have to get up anywhere between 5:30 – 6 am depending on if I want to shower in the morning or not. Meaning if I want 7 or 8 hours of sleep, that’s about a 10 – 11 pm bedtime. Well…for the past 3 days, my bed time has been around 2:30 am. Yeah…so for the past 3 days, I’ve been running on 3 – 4 hours of sleep a night. I really can’t function at 100% with that little sleep. I know myself, hehe.

That first night, I wasn’t planning on sleeping that late. I didn’t eat dinner till about 10:30 pm. I was starving and Teddy/Ivo hadn’t eaten either. So we got some food. Well, I didn’t wanna sleep on a full stomach, that’s not very healthy. So I figured I’d game a bit to relax and go to bed in about 30 minutes. Well, that 30 minutes turned out to be like 2 hours, hehe. Not good. Surprisingly, I had tons of energy the next morning so I really thank God for giving me that strength. But then the next night..my carnal mind kicked in. I’m like…aww…I did it last night, I’ll stay up just a little longer, but won’t go to bed THAT late. Well…I ended up playing Counter Strike: Condition Zero with my roommates till about 2 am again. *sigh* so bad. A few days ago, my roommate Xiao let me borrow Unreal Tournament 2004 that his friend got him because his computer can’t run it. So he let me use it for a while since my computer is so sexy, hehe. So I installed it yesterday to just check it out. I looked at the clock around 10 pm. I’m like…I’ll just play for a little bit and head to bed. Not thinking I’d get totally addicted to it. Well…it didn’t seem like that long, but the next time I looked at the clock, it was already 2:30 am. I’m like…what?!?! Dang it. So today, I’m extremely tired.

You may ask…well, why didn’t God give me the strength today like He did on day one? God didn’t force me to stay up. God didn’t MAKE me stay up. I didn’t have to stay up. I was only playing games. I should’ve been responsible enough to just quit the game and go to bed. Although every time I didn’t intend to stay up that late, I should’ve learned from my mistake that first night. God helped me out that first night. I didn’t ask Him to, but He did anyway. Why? Because He loves me. =) Why didn’t He do it again today? Because I should’ve “learned” from my mistake those first 2 nights. I know I need to sleep early because I know how I am. I can’t function very well when I don’t have an adequate amount of sleep and rest. I really hope I’m responsible tonight and sleep early. Not just for work, but because I have to drive up to the mountains tomorrow too. Don’t wanna fall asleep while driving up the side of the mountain, hehe. I think I will be “responsible” though. Because I’m so tired, I think I’m just going to naturally pass out around 9 or something, hehe.

So yeah…I heard a friend when he was in college, used to do exercises when he was feeling tired or drained from studying to wake himself up. Well…I crawled under my cubicle desk and there’s a wire underneath so if anyone asked, I was just going to say I’m getting the wire, hehe. I’m not lying…I got the wire. But I just did a quick set of 10 pushups. Wow…I’m so awake now, lol. Then I thought…that makes perfect sense, hehe. When you are just sitting there in front of the computer….you kind of just shut down cause you really aren’t doing anything so your body doesn’t really have to work at all. But once you start doing exercises or warm ups…your body kicks into gear and has to support that stress. So those 10 pushups got my blood pumping and heart beating, hehe. Sounds like I was dead, lol…definitely felt like it, hehe.

So this mornings drive was awesome…regardless of the fact I was so tired. So I’m driving down 6th Ave. It was kind of cold this morning so the sun was a little “late” in rising. Compared to normal…it should’ve been up already, that’s why it was so cold this morning, hehe. But the clouds were different yet again today and the sun was hitting them so beautifully. It just reminds me and amazes me how awesome and creative our God really is. I swear, every morning has been a different sunrise, yet it’s still a sunrise. That really ties in with God too. He will do things differently, but He’s still a God that never changes. That makes no sense to the carnal mind, but it makes PERFECT sense to the spiritual mind. The mind of Christ is an amazing thing. But that’s not the coolest thing that happened on the drive, although it was a big part of it. So I’m driving down 6th ave. and the sun hadn’t completely risen yet. So I look out to see yet another magnificent painting done by the Lord on this fine morning. And right when I make eye contact with the sunrise, the Lord speaks up and says “I love you”. I was about to cry when I heard those words from Him. It was so comforting and calm yet powerful and moving.

God’s love is so amazing. Just like the song says in “You Are My King”. ‘Amazing Love, how can it be? That you my King should die for me.’ It really is an amazing love. We would not know what love is nor know how to love if it wasn’t for God. Most people don’t think about that. People think that love is something people do. That’s not something we as humans just do or learn how to do. Why? Because we are created after HIS image. HALLELUJAH!! Wow….that revelation just hit me. The Bible says that God is love. Those who know not love know not God. (I John 4:8) Those who know not love know not God. What an incredible scripture. I use it all the time…but right now…it’s really coming to life for me. When I say right now…I mean the immediate now as I’m typing this. Wow…that scripture is just mind blowing. Those who know not love know not God, for God is love. Meditate on that scripture for a little bit. I’m just sitting here working and thinking upon that scripture and it just keeps going and going. Wow..those who know not love know not God. Know not love. Know not God. God is love. Song that just came on: Call on Jesus by Nicole C Mullen. Coincidence? I think not. =) I’m so excited right now, haha. PRAISE GOD!!!

Alright…let me explain this now, haha. Bless God this is so awesome. Make sure you aren’t using your carnal mind. *CAUTION* “Those not using the mind of Christ will not be able to really receive this word. Please use the mind of Christ” *end caution* Those who know not love. I’m going to start with that. So we all think we know love. We know love in a humanly sense. We know how to love someone, we’ve all been hurt by someone we love or hurt a loved one. This scripture isn’t talking about love as we know it. This is talking about God’s great love for all humans. “For God so LOVED the world that He sent His only begotten Son that whomever believes in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) Next song: “The Promise” by Plus One. haha, Thank You Lord. This love is the agape love that God displays for us every single day since before we were ever created and it will never change nor die out. That unconditional love that God has for us. Well, you may say, we all know what agape love means. It’s just a love that is very unconditional. The kind of love talked about in I Corinthians 13:3-5. This word know isn’t just a basic knowledge of what love is. Yeah, you can define it, you act upon it towards the ones you love. Your family, you honor your parents, that’s love. You help your younger siblings, that’s love. You care for your pets, that’s love. You play with you neighbors and help them, that’s love. You go to school and help your friends out in whatever way, that’s love. You honor your teachers and are attentive to their teachings, that’s love. You are “good” kid in school and never have to go to the dean, principle, counselors, that’s a form of love as well. You treat waiter/waitresses with respect and tip them well, that’s love. So we can act upon it, but we may never really know it. Why? Because that can all be taught and instilled upon someone. This word know isn’t just a knowledge of something. It’s not, “oh yeah, I know George Bush.” Who doesn’t? He’s our president, but if you asked me…do I really know him? I would have to say of course not, I’ve never met the guy in person. I haven’t spent time with him, talked with him, learned about him. His likes, dislikes, etc. So I know of him, but I don’t know him. Same way with this word “know”. We may know how to love, but that doesn’t mean we KNOW love. This makes no sense to the carnal mind, it’s all in the mind of Christ. So those who know, have a deep understanding of, not love, unconditional agape love, know not God.

This knowledge doesn’t come from studying. This love isn’t something taught. It can’t be. If this knowledge and love were able to be attained on our own…we wouldn’t need God. If someone truly loves unconditionally, they would never get mad at their kids. They wouldn’t yell at their siblings. They wouldn’t be annoyed by their parents. There’s be no misunderstanding between people because that unconditional love is VERY forgiving. There wouldn’t be as much hurt. They wouldn’t complain about hw. They wouldn’t get mad at their kids. *side note* you can punish your kids without being angry at them. *end note* All that seems impossible right? Well…bad news…IT IS impossible….for us humans. But what we can’t do, God can do. That’s not impossible for Him. When we are walking closely with Him and walking in HIS agape love, all those things can be and will be attained. Praise God!! GLORY!!! Does any human walk in that perfect love? I don’t believe so…is it attainable…I DO believe so. I’m sure there have been a few people on this earth that have walked in perfect love. Hard? yes and no. Yes because you have to make a decision towards God. There may be a lot of things you have to sacrifice. Things you may have to give up. But at the same time not hard because God can do anything and everything. =) I know my best friends and I give a lot of unconditional love, but do we walk in that always? Most definitely not. There’s a lot of things we talk about that wouldn’t bother us as much if we walked in perfect love. There are things some of us haven’t forgiven people of because it really hurts a lot and as humans, we want to hold onto that, but that just suggests our love has to be made even more perfect. Song that just came on: “Shine Jesus Shine” <—Praise and Worship song. Fun time, hehe.

I used to struggle a bit with this scripture because I have friends who love their family a lot, who love their friends a lot. I read on other’s xangas that they give up things for their friends. They would help a homeless person if they could. They give to charity, they want to help people. That’s all great and all, but even in all that….they may not know love. How can I say that? Because even Jesus said, not everyone that calls me Lord will enter into Heaven. On that day of judgement, God will say I never knew you, ye worker of iniquity, depart from Me. Harsh words from a JUST God. Same thing applies here…showing that you care doesn’t mean you know love. Please don’t be interpretting this with a carnal mind. Even as I’m typing this out…my spiritual mind is warring hardcore with my carnal mind. My carnal mind is just like…stop, what are you saying? My spiritual mind is saying…keep going, you’re doing great. Thank You Lord for helping me not stop your Word. Wow…that’s another great message. THANK YOU GOD!! lol. So yeah…those people who do nice things for others, that’s great and all, but they know not love, therefore they know not God. That’s all conditional love. Sad, but true. And by God’s definition, that’s a worker of iniquity…ouch…that hurts. It really does, but that’s what truth does. It hurts and offends people sometime. That’s also another message….LOL. God, you are so awesome. I just want to say I love you Lord. But yeah…this scripture makes a lot more sense now. Cause I used to wonder on how to talk to people about that. They say, I have love, I love my parents, I love my friends, brothers, sisters, etc. and they show it. But they know not love. It’s conditional love. Amazing how God works. Current song playing: “Blessed Be Your Name” <–Praise and Worship song.

Let’s not forget the second half of that scripture. God is love. HALLELUJAH, God IS Love!! No matter what you have done wrong, you can be forgiven. No matter how bad you’ve sinned, you can be forgiven. No matter how much you reject God…He still loves you unconditionally. I’m not saying it’s ok to, don’t get me wrong. God is ALWAYS willing and wanting to help you out. In HIS way though…not ours. His ways are perfect and just. His ways are always the best for us. For there is a method to His ways and He does things a certain way for certain reasons. So as we continue with our lives..may we never forget that God is love. And He wants to have a relationship with YOU!! A personal relationship unlike any other. No matter how close I am to my best friends…their relationship with God will NEVER be the same as mine with God. There will be similiarities because we all love God and our personalities are alike and what not, but as far as the same…never, hehe. Praise God…now that’s something to shout and get excited about, hehe.

Wow…that was a long post, but Praise God that was a lot of fun. I love and enjoy preaching, lol. Mostly because it’s from the throne room of the Lord most High that I get these kind of messages. Lord, I just want to say that I’m just truly amazed at how you poured out into the message above. I know Father I haven’t been seeking You or reading your Word as I should be. Too distracted with other things. Lord, Father, Daddy….may those distractions just disappear and I dive deeper into your grace and mercy. Lord, I ask for wisdom. I need it to survive. Without your wisdom, the knowledge you’ve blessed me with does no good. Father, may I really seek you with all my heart from this day on. May I put time away specifically for you, but at the same time, may I be seeking you throughout the day. I thank you again Father for the messages you’ve given me and placed in my spirit. May you cultivate them and continue to make them better. Also may you place fresh and new messages within my spirit so that I may be able to learn more and grow deeper unto You. May I get to know you more Father through your messages and your precious Word.I want to say once again, I love you and I thank you. In Jesus’ Precious Name I pray. Amen. God Bless you all. Take care and have a great rest of the week and school year.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

PS. Song that just came on: “Witness” by Nicole C. Mullen. <—awesome song, hehe.

Wow…so much has happened this past week. Don’t even know where to start, hehe. I guess the beginning is always a good place to start, hehe.

So I survived my second week of work…hehe. Not really survived cause my workload isn’t too big right now. Just a lot of converting files, saving them, printing them, scanning drawings, putting them into the system. Basic work thus far. However…it is getting busier, hehe. I don’t know how much longer I’ll be able to even just check my email. Then again…my computer isn’t exactly that fast so I might be able to still when things are processing, hehe. Which is what I’m doing now…moving drawings around that’s taking a while, hehe. So far I’m really enjoying this work. I do have to go to bed a little earlier now, but it’s all worth it because I get out of work pretty early. So there’s a small tradeoff. It’s healthy to sleep early anyways so I really thank God for that. It’s also really awesome because I’m gaining experience. Nothing too big yet, but experience is experience. The coolest thing so far is the drive in the morning. Now most peopel would think that’s weird…it’s early in the morning, traffic sucks, it’s cold…and it’s early.  Yes, I realize I put early twice, I meant to do it, hehe. But it’s just amazing. I get to get up and whilst I sit in traffic…I got my own worship service in the mornings. And what’s also cool? See the sunrise every morning. The skies are just beautiful. And everyday it’s different. Today there weren’t any clouds in the sky, but it was lit up beautifully as usual. It’s like God has painted me a picture every morning. And that’s how I view it…God painting me a picture each morning. Thank You Lord. Work is going well and I thank God for it once again.

On Friday, we went to church for youth group. It was a good time of just fellowshipping and talking. More and more the kids are starting to grasp what the leaders try to live each day. A life for the Lord. Most of the youth are really mature for their age which is interesting to see, hehe. It really helps them understand why we do what we do as Christians and older brothers/sisters. At youth group and other church events is where I personally have found out more and more what God has called me to do. Does that mean He wants me to lead youth? Not necessarily, but it’s through service to His body that I’ve found where I belong. I’m not 100% sure what He wants me to do yet, but it will come with time. As He prepares me to go into what it is He wants. After youth group though…we went out to play counterstrike. We played until like 2 am. Such a long time. Don’t think we’ve ever been there that long. It was fun though.

Saturday, the Boulder church had a bbq. It was a lot of fun. We went kind of late because we had some other things to take care of. What were those other things? Teddy and I both got new computers!! YAY!! hehe. I had to wait for the twins to get back before we left together for the Boulder bbq. It took longer than I expected for them to get back though so we ended up getting there late. The food was just about gone so we had some Chipotle on the way up, hehe. Good thing too. We weren’t going for the food…we were going for the fellowship and to see everyone from that church. Like I’ve said before, it’s not what we do, but who you’re with. It works both ways though, good or bad. You can be doing something you really enjoy to do, but sometimes the company you are with really make it unappealing and the thing you loved to do once has now been made boring or uninteresting. Why? Mainly because of the people you do it with. You try to share something special and something you enjoy doing with others and because of various things…you just don’t want to do it anymore. It’s quite sad when that happens. That’s why God always has us pick friends carefully because of things like that. Yep..preaching again, lol. So anyway…back the bbq, the guys and 2 of the girls played some football. Good, fun, clean game. It was a lot of fun. Good times, good laughs, amazing plays, hehe. Props to everyone who participated, you all did a great job and it was a lot of fun. =)

So Saturday night, we played around with our new computers…oh so fun. We played a game of Command and Conquer. Fun game. Well…we ended up not getting to bed till like 2:30. That’s about when we finished playing. I didn’t get to sleep till about 3 am. Had to get up at 6 am to go golfing with my family, hehe. I woke up and the Lord gave me the strength to play the back 9. Those that don’t understand golf terms…that means the holes 10 – 18. Played pretty well considering I haven’t touched a club in the longest time, hehe. It was fun. Tiring for me though, hehe. I ended up missing church because of it. It ran later than we expected it to. After Teddy and Ivo got out of church..we went to Pho Duy…aka “our pho” with Dave and Allen. It was fun, they really loved it and could really tell the difference between the 2 pho restaurants. Everything about this one is much much better. There really is no comparison, hehe. Sorry Chen Chen we didn’t take you. I know you want to try it sometime. We’ll have to make time, hehe. Specifically go down there to bring you up. =) Oh..and if anyone else wants to get some pho sometime. Let us know, we go there often enough to where they know us, hehe. It’s awesome. We can make it a fellowship time. It’ll be fun. But after that…more playing around with our computers, haha. They are so fun, lol. That night Teddy, Ivo and I went out to dinner with mom and dad. It was so funny, lol. Time with mom and dad is always a great laugh. Even when debating. I don’t remember the restaurant name, but it wasn’t too bad. It was a Chinese buffet. It had other foods like Italian, Mongolian bbq, and some Japanese food as well. Pretty good, not too bad.

Now I’m back at work for another week of making money, hehe. Mostly to pay off the computer I just bought, haha. That and rent’s coming up…no!!! Anyway…I hope everyone has a great week at work if you work and school if you’re in school. And if you haven’t started school yet…we all hate you.  I’m just kidding, enjoy your last few days/weeks of freedom. Then it’s back to the books, hehe. God Bless you all. Take care and I love you all very much.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

WOW…eventful weekend. Very busy, hehe. So where do I start? hehe. Saturday morning, wake up and go to the volleyball tournament. It was so bad this year. We just weren’t playing well at all. And what made it worse…the ref’s weren’t that good just like every year. I wish they had a referee screening process. Teams should get to pick their refs and both teams need to agree on a ref. It was just a frustrating time. Our team was one of the best ones out there…we just didn’t play well at all. As a team or individually. I think I did pretty well…but even I wasn’t doing great. It’s alright…we’ll just have to be more prepared next year, even though we say that every year. So bad. I don’t think I’ve ever been so pissed off either. It took every ounce of my strength not to start swearing. I almost did a few times. Later on…after the tournament, we all went home to shower and in the shower…I repented to the Lord about it. It was a petty thing to get mad about and it just made my performance on the court worse. Of course…the other teams didn’t help either. Speaking Chinese thinking that just cause we speak english and are born in the states (some of us) that we don’t understand any Chinese. Our whole team understands Chinese so we were talked down about in Chinese. God gave me a heart for Chinese people and I love Chinese people. I love being Chinese, but sometimes I just really hate Chinese people. Who do we think we are anyway? What makes us so much better than everyone else? Too dang prideful. It only hurts us…that’s all I gotta say. I just thought it was interesting because the teams that were talking down about us, I later on had to ref their games. But I was fair…I rose above everything and just called the game as fair as possible. They started complaining on a few things so I let more slide. It only hurt each team whatever it was they complained about. I just think that’s funny and ironic, hehe. Oh…and what more…the things that I, as the captain of our team, argued about with the ref’s….the team I was arguing about…would later on argue about the same thing with other teams. I’m like…what the hell? Because someone younger than you argued about fairness first…and since it went against you…you didn’t do anything..but now…NOW that it’s against your “precious” little team…you argue it? That was pretty frustrating to hear. There were a few times where I spoke out loud and said…now you know how we felt in our game…and tacked on some choice words after that. I repented.

However…God blessed the rest of the day. Went home, showered, played a few games to relax. Then left for a potluck at our friend’s Tony and Nai’s home. They lived out in Erie. That’s about a 40 minute drive even from Golden. The drive was well worth it though. We had a great time of food and fellowship. Homemade boba…mmMMmm…thanks for bringing that Tom and Lin. Dave and Alice brough vegetable pizzas or something like that…wow…those were sooo good. *drool*. Tony had some Korean bbq…then there was Tivo and I….KFC!!! hahahaha. We didn’t have time to cook and even though we can cook….we aren’t good enough cooks to make something to bring to a potluck, hehe. We ended up just letting Tony and Nai keep the leftover food we got. Really bless them. That’s like…a week’s worth of lunch for the both of them. =) During dinner, we watched some football on TV. It was the Broncos vs. the 49ers. Not a bad game. We started just having great conversation about football, then cartoons and some other things. Fun times, fun times. After dinner…we played a long game of Guesstures. It was so awesome. Everyone was really into it and just had a good time. We all made “fools” of ourselves, but overall it was a great and fun experience. We started out with the easy cards and by the end of the night…we were all drawing from the really hard cards and just having a great time. Lots of fun. There’s was competition, but it was all in good fun. It was just a great time in the Lord and I thank God for the awesome experience with my brothers and sisters. =) Thanks everyone for making it a night to remember even if it was kinda short. It’s not about the time, it’s about who you spend it with and what you do. ^_^ Wouldn’t have traded that night for anything else.

I just want to take little bit of time to thank the One responsible for everything in my life. That’s Jesus Christ, my Lord and Saviour. Lord over all. If it weren’t for His magnificent love, I wouldn’t be blessed with the friends I have. I wouldn’t be blessed with the knowledge and wisdom I’ve attained. I wouldn’t be blessed with the awesome pastor and church I attend. I wouldn’t be blessed with a great family, even if they aren’t Christian yet. But most of all….things that are happening now…I’ve been waiting for quite a while to come to pass. Things that are happening recently…God promised to me a while back and seeing it happen just brings more faith, hope, trust and love towards my God. How convenient that the song “Always Have, Always Will” by Avalon just came on. Thank you Jesus…I love you so much and I’m sorry for all I’ve done that didn’t please you. I thank you for Your forgiving love. I pray Lord that you continue to make me more like yourself. Draw me closer to you and I pray that I continue to keep that fire buring inside. I pray that I continue to seek you just like I used to, but with more passion and love now. There’s so much for us to be thankful for….and it’s so encouraging when your brothers and sisters realize that. Thank You Lord.

Continuing with that…church on Sunday was awesome-o. Wow…such an awesome message by my pastor yet again. There were a few things that really jumped out at me. I’m not going to post on here what they were because they are things that I hold close to my heart. Experiences with God that I’ve had that are between Him and I. I’m not saying I won’t share if I’m asked, but I’m not going to post out of respect of my relationship with God. There was one thing the pastor said that I will post about. He was talking about the voice of God and saying how as men, we need to be hearing the voice so we know how to raise our kids. So we know what their talents are and how God wants us to develop that. As well as how to lead our family in living a Christ centered lifestyle even at home. Then he started talking about women and hearing the voice of God. “Coincidentally” he talked about women finding the right man. Talking about how when women find that “perfect” guy that’s a non-Christian.

Woman: oh God…Your speaking through him. I know he’s not Christian, but I know you’re going to make everything just great.
God: *whispers* run away

Woman: Oh, but God. He’s so great. He does all the right things. Tells me what I want and need to hear.
God: *whispers* run away

Woman: Oh, but God. I’ve waited so patiently and he has many of the traits that I want in a man
God: *whispers* run away

Woman: Oh, but God. I’ve been single my whole life, and we have expressed an interest in each other. I really want to go out with him.
God: *whispers* run away

Women aren’t the only ones that do that of course. It just happens more with women because they are more emotional than men. The interesting thing is…God gives us the same answer on certain things. I know I’ve been the same way with some things and I know my friends have also. I just think it was a coincidence that pastor talked about women finding the right man because that’s what’s been on my mind for a while now. It just makes me mad how girls will pick the guys who treat them like crap and kick aside the guys that treat them very well. The guys that may not even have an interest in the girl, but is there to be her brother and her friend. Those guys too get kicked aside. It’s frustrating too as a Christian when you are trying to do the right thing…the way God would do things and people who claim to be Christian’s don’t listen when you are trying to help them out. People who are too prideful to listen to correction. God warns us all to not be that way because we aren’t perfect and there are things that others have gone through in which they are able to help you out when you are going through them. When I’m going through a tough time…of course I turn to God for help and guidance…but you also have to seek a mature Christian that has been through it successfully and ask them how they got through it. That way you understand more what God has in store for you. I’m not saying that the reason you’re going through it is the same as someone else’s, but at least you gain some insight on how to overcome and what not.

After church, I went shopping for new shoes. Bought a pair of nice casual dress shoes as well as a new pair of tennis shoes. Although it was pretty expensive for only 2 pairs, I thank God that I was able to make the purchase. I really like my new shoes. Thank you Lord. After shopping, I met up with some friends from church and played some CS. I did alright…I kept getting stuck on the nub team and had play against my friends who are better than me. I’m not as good as they are, hehe. Although when I was able to play with them instead of against them, it was a lot of fun cause we just ended up owning anyone that came in. And yes, we as in I’m included. I’m not that bad, hehe. Later on that night…I went to Best Buy and bought a new ethernet cable and power supply for the computer I’m building. It’s frustrating cause it still doesn’t work. I really hope all that’s wrong is the power supply isn’t strong enough. Here’s hoping, hehe. If not..I’m going to bring it in to get it looked at professionally. I really hope it gets fixed soon. I love my laptop, but I want a PC. Mostly for gaming, but for other things as well. It’ll be fixed soon.

At night we finished up the Korean drama series we were watching. Aww…such an awesome ending…I wanna watch the ending again and again. It’s so great. I just pray no one ruins the series. Done with series for a while now, hehe. Don’t really have the time start another one now, hehe. Anyway. Take care you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

*Edit*

We had to make up for the bad pho on Wednesday. So Teddy, Ivo, Xiao and I went out to Pho Duy on Federal…mmMMmm. Although one good thing came out of it all. Because of how bad it was on wednesday, it helped us to apprecciate the better one even more. Not that we didn’t before, it’s just apprecciated even more now. =)

And we didn’t watch disc 8 tonight. I wanted to get some things done and we were all pretty tired from this week of work and events. *sigh* That’s ok though, we can watch it on sunday…unless we have volleyball again, haha.

I’m going to get better about posting. I’m not going to promise because I might get too busy on some days and not post. =) Anyway…TGIF. Thank GOD it’s Friday. I think it’s because I’m so excited for tomorrow that I just wanted this week to be over. Not so much that I was busy or anything like that. It’s just I have a volleyball tournament tomorrow and I’ve been pumped up for it for about 2 weeks now, lol. Wish us luck. I play in this tournament almost every year. I think last year was the only year I didn’t play. Then again, I think I did, but I don’t remember if I did, hehe. So far, have never brought home a trophy. It’s cause the other teams will always bring in some superstar player. I remember one year, one of the teams brought in a professional player that used to play with the China Olympic team or something like that. There was another year that a team brought in a really good player, that was totally cool cause he was just a friend of theirs. But this guy was amazing. I’ve never seen someone spike so well. It didn’t matter where he was on the court, he would spike it. And he wouldn’t be breaking any rules cause you can spike from the back as long as you don’t jump while in the front 1/3 of your own side. So this guy would be spiking from server positions and what not. He had some wicked hang time and he was tall so he could block really well too. But he jumped and it was like he never came back down. He was really good. My team didn’t get to play against him though…what a shame, hehe.

So it’s been a week now at my new job. I really enjoy it so far. Haven’t had too much work to do yet cause I’m still in the training mode. I’m learning more and more each day about the system we are using. It’s a pretty good system. I like it so far anyway, hehe. We’ll see what happens later on. I thank God for this job. Better pay and I got hired pretty much on the spot. They were really impressed with my resume and everything else.

Wow…this busy week is coming to an end. Wednesday’s event was a success. Pho and Karaoke were a lot of fun. Although the pho was only decent pho and not the really good pho that we normally have, hehe. Not to mention the service there was HORRIBLE. We’ve had some pretty bad service before, but this is probably the worst ever. So first off…the guy wouldn’t let me move the table cause he didn’t believe me that we had 14 people coming…which ended up to be 15 cause Morgan joined us later. So I’m like, alright, whatever. So what happens? Oh..the table we were going to move was taken by another party. So then more of our party gets there like right afterwards and we move a table from the other side onto the end. We want to sit together. The guy was like…no…and moved us to another huge row of tables so he could pull a table over. I just looked at Teddy and was like…o…k…a…y. Then theybring us water to begin with and that was nice. They put the glasses down for just enough people, that’s fine. However….he placed water at empty seats to accomodate the rest of the party…but didn’t put a glass in front of someone that was already there. It’s like…did you not see him? After that…the rest of our party shows up. So a few people are ordering…and they finish quickly cause they knew what they wanted already. So the guy is waiting for the next group of people to answer and it was a group of girls. The guy was all rude about it saying things like, hurry up. It’s like…umm….we’re the guests in case you forgot. Then…to get our attention, the guy would like slap us on the arm and be like…hey, and ask his question. Ivo and I were getting a bit frustrated with that. Not that we aren’t comfortable with being touched, but it was like….excuse me, where did you learn to waiter? Just bad service and the food wasn’t even all that great. So this was at the Pho 79 on Havana and Mississippi. We only went there because of time restraints. Otherwise we would have gone to our usual place. Anyway…I would just say use caution if you ever decide to go to that one. I’m not judging, but man…it was not a pleasant dining experience. Good thing everyone was having fun. Karaoke was just a blast. Everyone sang and everyone sounded good. =) Thank You Lord for giving us a fun time.

So Teddy, Ivo and I have finished disc 7 of 8 of the Korean drama series “Full House”. Very emotional disc. Not in the sense that we were crying, it’s just A LOT happened all at once in that disc. Good stuff though. Really good series. There is one character that I started to dislike for the way she was, but in this disc I started to like her again and started to dislike another character that I used to like for who he was. Just a good series, makes you want to continue and watch it. Doesn’t ever get boring. I think we are going to eat pho….at the AWESOME-O pho place and then go back to finish disc 8 tonight. So exciting, lol. I can’t wait. I’m almost off work too, haha.

Wish us luck tomorrow at the volleyball tournament. It’s going to be a lot of fun. I hope we do better this year than every other year. We have a great team so I think we’ll do really well. After that…it’s off to a potluck with some other friends. Praise God…You are so awesome Lord. Thank you for this week and for today. It’s been fun. Alright all, I will talk to you later. Take care and God Bless you all.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Wow…I haven’t posted in over a month. So sad. There’s a lot to post about I suppose. As Teddy would put it…it’s a long post. Although my definition of a long post is different than Teddy’s. I love you Teddy, hehe.

So where to start? I’m going to start with Camp Crossroads. It was such an awesome year this year. I got to witness first hand all the awesome things that God was doing in the lives of the campers. A lot of the campers said this year was not a very emotional year. Which is awesome because they said that we can’t always rely on our emotions and just get a camp high only to return to our old ways. It’s amazing to see these kids mature in Christ and start to know and realize what it truly means to be Christian. Not that they didn’t know before, it’s just when you grow older and closer to God…you come to realize that there’s so much you don’t know. Because God just continually teaches us new things everyday. Of course…you have to be ready and willing to learn from Him. =)

Another cool thing about camp was that there was finally someone my age there, lol. That may sound stupid or whatever…but it’s hard when you don’t have another person the same age as you, hehe. Not that it was weird or that I didn’t fit in or anything silly like that. I was just very encouraged to see, meet and hang out with someone my age, hehe. Alright…you all can laugh if you want. It was just really awesome to have been blessed by God in that way to meet someone as on fire for Him as Naomi is. She is such an amazing woman of God. =) Praise God for brother’s and sister’s that love God more than they love themselves. Tony, her husband is also an amazing man of God. They both know how to worship and seeing them both up on stage leading us all in worship, was just awesome. The presence of the Lord was thick in all services because they understand how to usher in the presence of the Lord. Keep on you two, Praise God for a brother/sister like you guys. And I’m glad I was able to pour into you during the other camp. That was a real blessing too.

Camp was just really fun this year. The organized games were really fun. It’s just nice when everyone can come together and just have a good time. Play hard and enjoy yourselves. It’s difficult to have a good time when people are just there to “hang out” instead of going to do what was planned. And when everyone just plays hard and does their best….regardless of what event it is…it’s just very fun and enjoyable then. Sorry to everyone that got hurt during those times of fun. Accidents do happen and that’s unfortunate. Hope everyone is healing just fine and that they don’t let small injuries bring them down. Speaking of injuries…I was scratching my arm earlier today and hit a spot that really hurt. I look on my arm and there’s a cut there…I’m like…HOW?! WHEN?! Hurting myself without even knowing it, lol. Teddy said it might be from volleyball. He’s probably right, hehe. Both my arms are so beat up right now…it’s crazy, lol.

This past weekend was “dad’s” birthday. Dad is in quotes because it isn’t my blood dad. He’s the father of 2 of my best friends/brothers. I call him dad because I do look up to him just like I look up to my blood father. Not as much of course. =P But last night, we went to his house for steak…wow….sooo good. mmMMMmmmm….I can still taste the steak…*drool* After dinner though, we all got into a debate. It was really fun. I can really see how dad raised my friends. It was just an awesome and fun time debating and talking. Quite funny too, hehe. I didn’t really talk much, but I put in a point or two. I was just having a good time listening. Happy Birthday Dad.

This coming Saturday, the 20th, there’s a volleyball tournament that I’m going to be participating in. We play just about every year and it’s just a fun time to come together as friends and play some volleyball and have some good competition going. I think we’ll do great this year, as we do every year. We have never won any trophies…the other teams are just way too strong for us. Although we do lose a lot of points on our own. Bad spikes…bad passes…miss hits. Just random things sometimes. Other times, we just can’t stop our opponents spikers. Skill level wise…we are about the same as them. However, they do spike a little better than we do. However…this year’s team is unlike any team we’ve had in the past. I think we’ll do very well come this Saturday. I’m just praying that we have a good time and that we play well. I don’t really care about winning or losing. I just want to play hard…have fun, be competitive and share these precious times with my friends.

So today, I started a new job. I now work for a company called CDI. They are partnered with my dad’s company called Washington Group. Engineering companies. I’m working in the document control department of the company. I’m definitely no engineer, hehe. I did leave FedEx Kinkos in Golden. It’s a good job, but this company gave me a better offer and so I took it. I just pray I’ll enjoy my new job. I have prayed about keeping Kinkos as a secondary job and the Lord told me that I only need this job. So I’m just trusting Him in that decision. So if anyone lives in Golden and needs a job…FedEx Kinkos is now hiring, lol. I’m not sure if they are or not, but I do know that they will definitely be hiring soon. For other reasons that I’m not going to talk about. Not my place to say what happened. So far the people here are really nice and hard working. It’ll be a great environment for me to grow and learn more. Although the drive is kinda killer and the starting hour is early in the morning, I’m going to say it’s all worth it for the experience as well as the pay. =)

So Teddy, Ivo and I have been watching a Korean drama called “Full House”. It’s a great series so far. There’s definitely drama in it, but it’s just a really cute series too. Like all Korean dramas…there are parts that just make you frustrated and/or angry. Gets you riled up, lol. The soundtrack is awesome. Very cathy tunes and music that fits so well with the characters and story line. It’s funny cause we always have that song playing in our heads after watching and I know for me at least…I start to daydream a bit about my future wife and how I’m going to treat her and really bless her. I don’t know if Teddy and Ivo start doing that, but I know I do, lol. Yes yes…hopeFUL romantic. Just like Teddy and Ivo, we all wanted to not watch Korean dramas or any dramas for that matter. They normally just make you mad and frustrated. But we all got a great review on this particular one. I say great review…meaning it was a very reliable source. Good stuff, hehe. Really excited to see how it continues and ends. “Aza aza FIGHTING!!”

This week is going to be so busy. I have things going on Tuesday and Wednesday night. Then there’s Friday night and Saturday all day. Church and volleyball again on Sunday and back to work again on Monday. Wow….soo busy, today and Thursday are like my only “days off” this week. So hard, lol. Anyway, I’m typing this while at work right now. Mostly because I really have nothing else to do right now. They haven’t really started training me yet because the system has been pretty retarded today. Not to mention they are pretty busy on Mondays and my manager really hasn’t had time to train me. So hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. I’m am going to go and get some things done though. They need some things done before I go home today, hehe. More paperwork type stuff. Anyway. I hope everyone is having a great Monday and I pray that everyone has a great week as well. Take care and God Bless you all.

In Christ,

Wayne Hsu