I’m definitely going to post more. Mostly because it’s fun, haha. Especially now that I have a lot more to talk about, haha. There’s always something I want to post on here, but I get too lazy or something and end up not posting at all. *sigh* I suck, haha. I’m currently at work right now so I’m going to post this throughout the day, haha. Yeah…I’m not a bad employee, hehe. I’m just using all my resources to the fullest.  I’m a good employee, hahaha…..yeah.

So yeah….first off….I think people need to just be quiet about the election. It’s passed…it’s over. I still hear people complain about it. People need to just accept the fact that Bush won. He may not be smarter than Kerry. His plans may not be as good as Kerry’s. However, there’s a reason Bush still won. He’s needed for such a time as this. What kind of time it is, I don’t know, but he is who we need in office. I say Praise God for Bush. And if Kerry won, I would be saying Praise God for Kerry. If you don’t like the outcome, you are MORE than welcome to leave the country. If you like living in the country, than hey, support the president we have. We are always going to disagree on views. People are always saying accept this person for their differences. Why don’t you all quit being hipocrits and accept our President? People are all way too selfish..this president doesn’t help me so I’m going to vote for the other president. Well hey…look at the bigger picture.

I heard some talk about the whole stem cell research. I personally need to read more about it and learn more about it. But from what it sounds like…it could really help with a lot of current diseases and it could really help the people if we did go through with it. That sounds good and all….but why rely on science when you have all the power you need at your fingertips? We rely on science too much. I have nothing against science. I just don’t see why we turn to science when all we have to do is tap in to the ultimate source of life and power. Why waste time on research when you can pray for someone to get healed? Why waste time on science when all wisdom comes from God anyway? Why waste time on something we are never going to understand? I’m not saying don’t question any of it….question it, by all means seek the truth. But you have to find the truth. Why do we humans always turn to something natural when we have the supernatural working for us? I’m guilty of it too. I will go ask a friend a question instead of asking the ALL knowing creator of the universe. Ugh…Father, may you forgive my ignorance. Personally, I’m not in favor of any particular party. I’m going to vote for the better candidate. On a light note, that way I’m not a traitor in anyone’s eyes, lol. I was never affiliated with one group or the other, hehe.

Bush isn’t stupid and Kerry isn’t stupid. People need to stop saying that about each candidate. If they are stupid….and they are the ones leading our country, that really doesn’t say much about the rest of us. If they are stupid….and we are the ones voting for them….than who is stupider? If they are stupid and we rely on them to lead the country, regardless of how much we complain, that’s just saying we are a stupid freaking country cause we have idiots leading more idiots who aren’t even smart enough to lead other idiots. How stupid is that? Come on, stop and think people. Stop and think. They are human just like the rest of us. If you have NEVER made a bad decision or a mistake…then you have room to talk about how “messed” up our government is. The only reason it’s messed up is because of the people. We have that freedom that other countries don’t get to enjoy. Our government is what we are going to make of it. We have that choice.

Anyway…now that I’m done ripping people a new one, I can talk about something else. Not that I can really think of anything to talk about now, lol. I finally got my bed moved into my apartment. YAY!! I can actually sleep there now. I have to rearrange my room tonight though, hehe. Oh man…I went out to buy groceries yesterday with Teddy. Holy cow, I’ve never spent so much money on food at once before.  I’m not going to say how much I spent because that’s personal. You all don’t need to know. It was a lot of money though. Thank you Teddy though for having a King Soopers card otherwise I’d be paying A LOT more. Yikes…I’m so glad I get paid tomorrow, haha. YAY for money, lol.

Well…I think I’ve posted enough for today. There’s more to talk about, but eh…if I wrote it all down today, there would be no future posts, hahaha. Just kidding, I’ll post more tomorrow, lol. Take care everyone. Love you all. Take care and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Well…looks like George Bush won the election again. I really didn’t care too much who won. I thought both candidates were good ones. I still leaned more towards Bush mostly because he’s been president before for one, but just tossing Kerry into everything that’s going on…wow, that’s going to be really hard on the guy and he isn’t going to be able to perform everything he says he will. He still might, but I don’t see how, hehe. But whatever. Here’s something to really challenge you guys. I know not everyone wanted Bush and that quite a good number of you wanted Kerry to win. Here’s a test for you. Are you going to be that Christian that God’s called us to be and pray for the president we do have now? This is directed towards the Christian’s. I never cared for politics, but I’ve still prayed for the president. I don’t care if you like the guy, if he’s made good decisions, or if he’s even helped you in any way. We are called to pray and if you are like me…who’s struggling with praying, this is a great place to start. That’s really where I’m going to start, not counting my friends cause I’m praying for them, hehe.

It’s definitely been a really interesting election though. Both candidates were just really awesome. They aren’t perfect and neither are we. Sometimes we think we know it all, but ha ha ha….we suck, lol. Just listening to parts of speeches from both candidates, they are still both here for our country. Praise God for them both. They are both needed for such a time as this. Just because Bush won doesn’t mean Kerry won’t do all he can to accomplish what he wanted to through the presidency.At least one can hope, hehe.

So I finally moved out, hehe. Got my bed into my apartment last night, and payed rent again for the first time in a long time. All I can say is…OUCH!! I coulda used that money for a lot of other things. *sigh* You gotta pay bills. No such thing as a free lunch. Not even for those that we pay for all the time. The food might be free, but you pay us with your time. You just hang out with us and that’s payment, hehe. Call me stupid, whatever, haha.

Well..life has been interesting lately. Very eventful to say the least. It’s a good way of putting it…eventful, hehe. Peronsally and for my friends, but my friend’s business is their business, I’m not putting any of that up on my site. That’s just not cool. But I wouldn’t mind talking about myself. I do that quite a bit anyway, hehe. All people have to do is ask me and I’ll talk. Depending on the subject. There are a few things that I’m not allowed to talk about. Not allowed meaning that God wants me to keep it to myself. It’s a special thing between Him and I. =)

Take care everyone. I’m off work now…YAY!! hehe. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Dang….NEED MORE SLEEP!!! Teddy and julia. You suck for not letting me get enough sleep last night. I’m dying here at work. Which is why I’m posting. Try to keep myself awake. Falling asleep ugh. It’s all good though, I still love you both hehe. Julia, your bed is comfortable…mmm…and your “chicken nugget” is so nice to hug when sleeping. Yeah…she left me with no choice but to sleep on her bed last night, haha. Sorry Eve for keeping you awake…although I passed out a few minutes after Ivo got off the phone, lol. It was a fun night though. More laughs, more jokes, more good and CLEAN fun. Thank you for offering to let us stay over…but I really had to get back to Golden. If it was the weekend…I definitely woulda stayed there, hehe. So here I am falling asleep at work. Desperately trying to keep my eyes open. I suppose I could actually do work…but I’m so exhausted right now. Definitely taking a nap when I get back to the apartment. Teddy and Ivo, you had better be there to let me in cause I ain’t napping in the car, hehe.

Last night was great at Lil Sparks. The speaker was really good. VERY informative. I think he would be a great teacher. Kinda lacking in the preacher department, but that’s totally ok. I think he would make a great teacher. Or at least a very interesting guy to talk to. So knowledgeable about history and science and many other things. Really cool how he brought it all together in his sermon, hehe. On top of that…last night was a real repentance night for me. Just listing off the things I’ve done wrong lately to God and asking as well as thanking Him for His grace and mercy. “where sin abounded, grace did much more abound” (Romans 5:20) How true that was for me last night. Awesome awesome stuff, hehe. God has been so faithful to me. He always has been and always will be. My prayer now is that I remain fathful to Himl

Christian’s are just simply amazing. The only people that know the truth and yet they live in the same darkness that they were living in before. Now what the heck is up with that? I’m guilty of it too so I’m not like picking on anyone. However…everytime I’ve fallen…God always brings me back. My question is how come so many Christian’s reject that? I mean, I can totally relate…this last time I didn’t think I’d ever get away from my sin. But God is in control…of course He’s going to turn up the heat to get back His child. Why do people continue to run from such a beautiful God. Makes me wanna just cry for those Christian’s that just don’t understand what they are leaving. I had the opportunity to live “without” God after learning of the truth. I can’t tell you how many times I went to bed feeling so worthless. So many times that I went to bed sensing there’s no point to my life. Going to work and going home everyday feeling more and more empty. I’ve missed church for about a month and a half. CHURCH!! I go to an awesome church where the preacher preaches a message designed just for me every single Sunday. There hasn’t been a Sunday where I haven’t learned some brand new revelation. Yeah…I’ve already missed a month and a half of brand new revelation. I’ve missed Usher duty twice now. And it doesn’t matter whether I’m on fire for God or not. I made a committment and I broke that commitment when I didn’t show up. Yeah…baaad. I take full responsibility though. I’m still willing to go and serve. It’s up to them whether they still want me there or not.

Hehe…as I’ve been typing this, God gave me a really awesome story to tell of what happened last night. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. So last night I was playing Counter-Strike after getting back to Golden at about 4:15 in the morning. I had woken up a bit more from talking to Teddy and Ivo in the car. So I decided to play some CS to help me relax a bit. So I sign on to a server that I’ve been playing in for a while. When you log into their computer to play CS, the default name is “empty”. (Keep in mind what I wrote in the previous paragraph.) So I go to change the name….close out of the screen to change my name and wait for the next round to start. It starts…and my name doesn’t change. So at the end of the round, I try again. Still didn’t change. And I try again at the end of every round. It doesn’t change at all throughout all the rounds. So finally a hacker joins the server…BIG time hacker, it was crazy. So I leave the server and join a different server to play at the other server. First round….my name changes correctly to the handle that I normally use. How amazing!!

For those of you that don’t understand the story…here’s what it means. The first server represents my life away from God. No matter how much I try myself to change who I am, I can’t do it. I just can’t do anything on my own. No matter how well I do or how much good I perform, I can’t change who I am. I can’t come back to God by myself. The hacker that comes in….pretty much represents the devil. Just robbing all of us from having a good time playing the game. Robbing my life away from me. The second server represents my life with God. So when I leave the first server, aka leave that lifestyle away from God, and join the second server, aka a life with God, my name or my identity will be correct. It will be who I’m supposed to be. Who God has created me to be. My name was just “magically” changed when I went to that second server. ”old things are passed away; behold, all  things are become new” (II Corinthians 5:17) How awesome is that? I’ve been instantly transmitted into the kingdom of God when I repent and ask for forgiveness. Isn’t that the coolest thing? God is so good. I hate it when I drift away…yet when i do, I continue to go further and further. It’s crazy how humans are.

Anyway….I’m done with work for today…YAY!!! Take care everyone. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

YAY!!! Finally got my sexy laptop, haha. I love it so much, haha. It was supposed to come on thursday, the 28th. But it came 2 days before that, just like I had originally said. Dell emailed me and said that it was estimated to arrive between the 28th and the 1st, hehe. That’s so awesome it came before then. I’m enjoying it as I type this, haha. I totally customized the laptop and I love it, hehe. Can’t let me my parents know yet though. They would probably freak if they found out I bought a laptop after just moving out. haha.

That’s another thing, I have FINALLY moved out. I now live in Golden, like 2 apartments down from Teddy and Ivo for those of you that know where they live, lol. I really love the place, they gave me a room to myself so that was really nice of them. I live with John and Kyle. Xiao is moving in later. I still have to get my paperwork taken care of as well as get a key and finish moving everything in, hehe. I’m so excited and I love the place. The other roommates are really nice. I love it, such a blessing.

In other news, I bought 2 new games, lol. Dawn of War for my computer and Ace Combat 5 for the PS2. Both are really awesome and really fun games. Speaking of games, I’m running Sims 2 on my laptop right now and surprisingly, it runs smoother on my laptop than it does on my desktop. How awesome is that for my laptop!?! Gosh, so awesome, hehe. Dawn of War is really cool. It’s similiar to Command and Conquer games. It’s just the Warhammer4000 series made into a game. I really enoy it and it’s fun. Ace Combat 5 is just sweet. There really aren’t any words that can describe the awesomeness of the game, haha. Alright, I’m overexaggerating just a bit, but it’s so awesome. The graphics are soo smooth. The flying is more realistic, the enemies are smarter. Sound effects are better and the soundtrack is just amazing. It’s nice to know that there are still games that are great and decent out there.

Teddy, Ivo, Allen and I watched Fight Club tonight. Really interesting movie. I really don’t see why so many people like the movie. I thought it was pretty good, but there are A LOT better movies out there. But whatever, to each their own. I respect their decisions, hehe.

Hmm….any other new news? Not really. Work is going good, tedious and long. But the paycheck is always a nice reward, hehe. Anyway, I’m going to get going now. Take care everyone. Love you all and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu

I’M UPDATING!!! It’s a MIRACLE!! Yes yes, they do happen. I surprise even myself sometimes, hehe.

FIrst off, I just want to say a big I’m sorry to Kim and her family. If you don’t know what’s going on and want to know, please come talk to me. It’s already pretty hard on the family and I don’t want them to have to retell what happened. I hope that’s ok with you Kim. For those of you that do know what’s going on, everyone’s support has been great for the family. They really know now that we all love them so dearly. Not that they didn’t know before, I’m just saying it’s been proven now, that’s all.

To the Truong Family:  My condolences to the entire family. My prayers are with you and I pray that God will ease all the pain. I pray that He brings peace to your household. He sees and has saved all your tears. I pray that you aren’t angry with God because I for one know that what happened what not His will to happen. I pray that you will all continue to find strength in your family and find strength amongst your friends. Even if you don’t believe in God, I pray you even find strength in Him.

Father, in the Name of Jesus, I just lift up their family to you. You’ve seen what has happened and you know our hearts. You know the pain that’s inside, you know the grief. I pray Father for their family and everything I have listed above. I ask you give every single family member for the peace that passes all understanding. I ask Father in the Name of Jesus that you help us all find out the truth to what happened. Jesus, you are the Truth and I ask that you reveal the truth to us all. Father, despite of what has happened, I ask that you bless the Truong family and their relatives. I ask that you bless them with a blessing that they cannot contain. Father, your word says that all things will work together for good. I pray Father that you bring that scripture to pass, that although this event was very very tragic and heartbreaking, that you will turn it around for good. Father, I thank you that you watch over me and take care of me, but at the same time have given me free will to choose to do things myself. I thank you for that love you constantly show regardless of how I act or how I am towards you.  I ask now Father in the Name of Jesus to pour out that same love upon the Truong family and relatives. I ask for this in Jesus’ Mighty Name. Amen and Amen. Thank you Lord for hearing me when I call and answering my prayers because you love me. I’m doing my best to walk alongside you once more. It’s really all I want and I’m glad you wait for me while continuing on.

Going to lunch now. I’m going to add more later. For those of you Christians….pray hard for the family. Yes, EVEN now.

Oooh…I really liked that light blue in my last post. I think I’m going to use it again, haha. Yeah, I’m easily impressed….not really, haha. So yeah, before I really start TODAY’S post, I’ll finish what I was going to say yesterday. Since my brother had my computer all night so I wasn’t able to use it. Actually…I was playing Sims 2 all night, lol. Couldn’t stop playing. I finally did though cause I was way too tired to keep playing, haha.

But yeah, what I was going to say for a while now is about my dad. About a week or so ago…he had to go do jury duty. Or rather go to the courthouse to see if he gets picked for jury duty. People that don’t understand what that means…you’ll find out when you get that letter in the mail. muahaha. So he got to miss work and all that. Well, it was so amazing to me how concerned the people were for him. I had many people walk up and ask, “where’s your dad? Is he out sick? Is he ok?” I’m like he’s fine, he has jury duty today. THEN everyone remembered, haha. I just thought that it was so interesting. My dad is a popular guy, just like me…..wait…I’m not popular, lol. Contrary to what everyone thinks. That was just really cool to see.

Man, there were other really cool things I wanted to post about. *sigh* Got thinking about one thing and totally spaced the rest of it. So yeah…last Friday, I had a co-worker come talk to me about another job, hehe. He said I’d be a really good candidate for the job and since he knows me, he would love to be working with me. He would actually be my new boss if I do get the job. The pay increase would be almost $3. That’s actually REALLY awesome, hehe. I’m not going to say much more on it now except…I hope I get the job even though it’ll be REALLY tedious work. I’m ready and willing to work hard though. =) I just have to say Praise God for His favor on me even though I’m not doing my part. Yeah…anyway.

Yeah…so I’m really into Sims 2. I installed it onto another computer and it runs so nice, haha. I like it. =) So I was up playing that all night, lol. I just bought X-Men Legends too. That should be a lot of fun. Heard good reviews on it, hehe. I love comics and I love X-men. So naturally….yeah, lol.

Alright…back to work. I don’t have much more to post. I’ll post after work, haha. =)

Wayne Hsu

*edit*

Yay!! off of work now, lol. I remembered what I was going to type in before too, lol. I hate it when you remember things right after the event passes….*sigh* The human mind ladies and gentlemen, lol.

So a while back at work, someone comes looking for some documents that were supposed to be issued out. So they asked me cause it was supposed to be my responsibility. So I check into it cause I can’t remember and it turns out…I didn’t do ANY of them. And they were all due either a few days ago or that day. So I’m like…oh crap. I talk to my manager…..freaked out of course that I’m going to get in big trouble. She’s like…that’s ok, we’ll just say it fell through the cracks. Get them done now. I’m like…WOW!! Go GOD!!! haha. She’s a really nice lady too, but still, hehe. That was a really cool little testimony. =)

Well…I was going to post more, but was chatting the whole time, lol. No time to chat and post. Too much and although I type fast…I’m not THAT fast. Time doesn’t wait….*sigh* Talk to you all laters!! Take care and God Bless. Love you all.

Wayne Hsu

NHL2005 is awesome!! I’m finally winning, haha. I finally have a way to beat the cheating….I mean “skilled” AI. Wow…really light blue color, haha. FUN!!

So I’m actually winning in NHL 2005. It’s actually letting me score and my defense is getting better. I hate it, in sports games especially, when you are doing really well, going for the shutout and the computer just so happens to get better all of a sudden to the point where you can’t do anything regardless of how good you are, and scores the crappiest goal in the world just so you don’t get as good as stats as you could have gotten. That sucks so bad. It’s so funny too cause you can tell when the computer turns on that hack, haha. The people that normally aren’t doing well or getting worked over all of a sudden turn into superstars, hehe. It’s like…he never played that well in the first 2 periods, how did he score? lol. Just funny things like that that the programmers stick in there to piss you off, lol. It’s a fun game though, I’m really enjoying it now that I’m actually WINNING!! my gosh, haha.

Got back into playing Star Ocean. Mostly cause Teddy started a new game to try out the game…(he’s addicted now too). I saw him playing and I’m like…man…I wanna play my game now, lol. I’ve almost beaten the game. I’m getting sooo close, lol. It’s getting interesting. The story is nice. =) Definitely reccomend it for anyone who likes to play RPG’s.

OK. So I found this new game online that my friend introduced to me. Although I haven’t played it yet…it looks SO fun. She’s totally addicted and warned me not to get into it, hahaha. The only thing is, you have to pay a monthly price on it. So that stinks cause I’d rather just buy the game and play it online whenever. That way, if I don’t do anything for a month cause of whatever, I won’t get charged for it, hehe. Yeah, I’m cheap…not really, just need to save money, hehe.

Alright…that’s it for now. I have a lot more to post about, but I can’t cause I’m out of time, lol. Can’t type THAT fast, hahaha. OK…Take care everyone!! I love you all!!! God Bless!!

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Man…not really sure what to post, lol. This font isn’t bad at all, haha. That was random yes I know. =P I think I’m going to use Orange color again, hehe. It is almost Halloween…eww….scary, lol.

A lot has been happening since my last post. Hearing more and more drama going on. And you thought there was no drama at work, haha. Yeah…there’s plenty here, lol. I work with ALL women sooo…..yeah. I’m not trying to IMPLY anything, but yeah, haha. All I really have to say though is that I don’t have any drama going on and I LOVE that, haha.

It’s been really interesting though at work. There are times at work when my heart is just really heavy and burdened for people. Not just my co-workers, but people I know. And it’s not for everyone, but some people specifically. Just a need to pray for those people and what not. That was just always neat when it “hits” me.

Ooh!! I went to Best Buy yesterday to get a mouse pad for work…which I’m going to take home with me when my job term is over. =P But I went and got a Spider-Man 2 Mousepad. I love it, it’s so awesome, hehe. On top of that…I bought two new games..*sigh* Lots of money, lol. Wasn’t going to spend more than $20, bill turned out to be like $115, haha. Yeah…..baaaad me. But I bought NHL 2005 for PS2 and The Sims 2 for the computer. Yeah…I was actually going to get another game, but each game was $50 so I’m like…I’ll just get 2 of them. So not fair…why they gotta be so expensive? And why do all good games have to come out at the same time? That’s just gay. =P

NHL 2005 is SOOO hard. Man, I’m only playing on Medium difficulty level…yeah, getting worked over. I’m scared to put it on easy cause I don’t want it to be too easy either. The AI is so much smarter and it’s more realistic. They don’t let you just skate all carefree into their zone. They wait for it and smash you into the boards if you try to skate past them. They are smart. The goalie’s are smarter, faster, and more aggressive. It’s really cool. =) It’s harder to score too. The highest game I’ve played so far was only 5-3, and yes…I had 3, I lost, haha. The first time I’m actually really challenged by a hockey game, haha. I love it, although it’s frustrating not being able to win. =P There are SOO many more things in this game too. If you have control of the puck, you can actually change players and have your player be controlled by the computer while you skate around with another guy to get open. Then you can call for the puck or have your computer guy shoot the puck. So hard to pull off, but it’s really cool. =) Also along the same lines, you can call for “backup”. If you have the puck, you can ask another player to come help set a pick or check one of the defensemen to open the ice up a little more for you. On the faceoffs, they have 3 – 4 ways to win the draw. You can win it to yourself the center, win it back to your defense, tie up the other center to win, tie up the other center and kick the puck backwards, or you can even shoot directly on net off the faceoff. On top of all that, you can choose how to line up your players. Aggressive will help set them up for a better chance to score, then there’s normal line up and conservative is really good to help defend your own goal. It’s amazing what they’ve done with this game. I really enjoy it even though I suck at it right now. =P They also added in the wrist shot. In previous games, it was just a shot if you tap the button and a slap shot if you hold the button down. Now they have an actual wrist shot, a stronger wrist shot, a snap shot, and a slap shot. They have all the kind of shots, it’s awesome. They added a new way to score too. You can now do wrap arounds to try and score. It’s easy to pull off, but hard to score with…yeah….I’ve tried, hehe. That’s like all the new features. That and it’s just a lot smarter AI which makes the game more challenging. It’s fun though.

Sims 2 is awesome. At first I wasn’t that impressed with it. Then I started playing more and more….omgosh!! so addicting. I ended up going to bed at 1 am because I was up playing Sims 2. There’s SOO many more interactions between the sims. There is actually objectives for you to complete with your Sim. The coolest thing I think in the game is that you actually GROW!! In the previous sims, you only grew from a baby to a child. Now they have family trees you can access. So if your sim gets married and you have babies, the baby will grow into a child, a child into a teen, a teen into an adult, and then finally an elder. I haven’t had anyone die yet so I don’t know what happens. =P Besides death of course, haha. It’s so awesome. They added more items into the game and bonuses into the game and story lines and really neat things like that. The relationships in the game are much cooler in how the sims react with each other and what happens with your sim and each of the other sims, it’s so amazing.

I really think both games are great buys, hehe. Worth my $100 for both games? So far I would say so. =)

I have a new favorite web site. It has Jay Chou’s lyrics on there. For his new CD and all his old ones. Really awesome, haha. Found it during lunch today, it was fun. =) Learning 2 of his new songs right now. =)

Alright…I really have to get going now, hehe. Going home from work…YAY!! Get to play some more Sims, hahaha. Yeah, I’m definitely addicted…yet again….to a new game, lol. Take care and God Bless you all. Love you all very much. =)

Wayne Hsu

Eh…I made a mistake in my last entry, hehe. I said that I would come back to God because I love Him and not because of something He does for me. I couldn’t have been more wrong. First John tells us that we love because He first loved us. So I can’t go back to Him just because I love Him. I couldn’t love Him had He not loved me first. Wow….was I ever dumb for saying something like that, lol. Oh well…I’m human and I’m always going to be human, but Praise God and thank God that’s just how He wants me. To be humna, but be just like Him. How awesome. What love!! and what selflessness!! Well duh Wayne, He’s God, He’s perfect. I know, but still!! haha.

Man….I was blown away yesterday as well as today. Right now, I have a big boss lady and another lady I work with that could be considered my manager. That’s how I see her anyway. I look at her as my manager even though I’m not sure what her position is in relation to mine, hehe. But anyway, I was talking to my manager and since I started working with her, I found it would such an opportunity to witness to her. Just by what I knew about her and her behaviour, how she spoke, and how she dressed. Did I judge her? Most defniitely NOT!! I have nothing but love for all the people I work with. But anyway, the coolest thing happened, we were talking about music and what not. I was telling her how I have to borrow some of her CD’s because she has a lot of oldie songs that are great. And she’s like…oh, you have to hear this one lady, I forget what the lady’s name is. She’s my favorite gospel singer. I was stunned by that comment. How can someone be like they are and listen to gospel? I was a bit confused. So she goes on and was like…OH!! you know which gospel singer I love the most? Jackie Velasquez. I’m like WOAH!! It blew me away. Then I find out she goes to church every Wednesday night and every Sunday night. She doesn’t have a car so she goes with one of her girlfriends. I’m like that is so awesome. Well, the fact that she goes to church so often was really awesome and actually really encouraging for me to hear. Yeah…that’s more than I’ve been going lately, hehe. *sigh* haha.

So today, we started talking some more about relationships. And although I’m not at the level that Teddy and Ivo are at relationship wise, I do know quite a bit that I’m actually quite amazed at myself that I know so much for never being in a relationship, lol. So we started talking and I was able to shed some light on relationships for her. She’s older than I am so it’s kinda weird that someone younger is “lecturing” and “teaching” someone older about relationships, haha. BUT!! age is NEVER an indication of how much wisdom one has. Praise God for that, hehe. So we start talking about relationships and love and Christianity and stuff like that. Right in the middle of work. It was so awesome. I really encouraged her and it was neat to see her gain some new revelation. It was awesome, her eyes were like wide open. It was so awesome to see. Praise God.

I have to admit, even though God used me today…I’m still not 100% back to Him. That just goes to show that your life can be totally not where it ought to be and God is STILL there and STILL wanting to use you because He loves you so much. But slowly God is pulling me back and I’m really enjoying work. I have A LOT of work to do, haha. It’s crazy, it keeps piling up too, lol. But anyway. I have to leave work now. I’ll post more later…probably, haha. Praise God. Take care everyone. Love you all lots!!

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

YAY!! I beat Star Ocean….disc 1 of 2, lol. Fun game. Story is getting really interesting. I hope it doesn’t turn out for the worst. Otherwise it’d suck if it did, lol. Yeah, just posting my thoughts on the game, it probably makes no sense to everyone else, lol. That’s ok. It’s just a game. =)

Soooo….yeah…..My life has been alright. Not satisfied with anything and I’m not so sure I’m content either. I’m not doing what I should be doing and I’m doing what I shouldn’t be doing. *sigh* Haven’t been to church in 2 weeks, haven’t been tithing and giving God His money back. I’ll go to church this week only cause I have to usher. Eh….where has all my passion gone? Where is that fire that used to burn so brightly within me? Where has my first love gone? My love hasn’t gone anywhere….why am I running from my love? Does that make any sense to run away from the One you love? Or hurt the One you love? They say that love involves hurts and pains. I don’t believe that. We hurt the One we love because we don’t know how to properly love Him. At least I’m not so sure I personally know how to properly love Him which is why I hurt Him. GAH!!

Even though I haven’t been faithful to God in about a month or so now….yeah…it’s been a while folks, He’s still been soo faithful to me. The favor I have at work is still awesome even though there are days where it seems like I have done absolutely nothing to help the company. Almost everyday at work, I’ll get a blessing from someone that I know is totally from the Lord. Here’s some examples. Last Friday I come into work, someone has left a huge lunch on my desk. I think that someone just put it down to come get later. Nope, it was for me from my co-worker. I ate it yesterday for lunch and man, it was delicious. Monday morning, I come into work. Another co-worker stops by my cubicle and is like, “Egg McMuffin from McDonald’s, it’s for you”. I’m like….woah…thanks. I didn’t have a big breakfast that morning. Just little things like that where God just blesses me. Although I’m so thankful for that….it doesn’t seem to be enough to draw me back. I know I NEED to seek God, it’s what I preach. I feel so worthless and I feel like a hipocrit. It’s a struggle for me right now. Maybe there are way too many distractions in my life. Namely video games and work.

Although I haven’t been living the Godly/holy life I should be living, I’ve still been learning a lot. That a life without God is a totally worthless life. If I didn’t have God, I’d be so depressed right now. My life would have no meaning. My life feels like God’s left me, but I know He hasn’t which I’m so thankful for. This time, it’ll be me that really comes back because I love Him and I need Him. Not because He has drawn me back by something He’s done for me. I’ll be “back in His arms again”, that’s a song by Mark Schultz haha, but I’ll be back because of Love and not because of something He’s done. He’s already done all He needs by sending Jesus for me. A life without God is so unfulfilling, so pointless, no direction, no passion for things that matter. No new flowing revelations and no new wisdom to pass on. Nothing but troubles instead of blessing after blessing. The Bible says we are to live from glory to glory. Most people life from problem to problem, drama to drama, troubles to troubles. Glory to glory…wow…what a phrase. I used to live from glory to glory. Christian’s ought to ALWAYS live from glory to glory. *sigh* Don’t feel real Christian right now, lol. My parents are better Buddhists than I am Christian. Now that’s sad because Jehovah is real and alive. At least when I worship, I worship a real God. (yeah, that line’ll piss people off, haha) But it doesn’t really matter anymore.

I’m just sick and tired of all that the devil has done. All the tricks and schemes and lies he’s placed on this corrupting earth. Gotta learn more about authority and start walking in it. hehe, that’s AFTER I start walking with the Lord again. *sigh* I’M COMING LORD!! Be patient with me, you always have and you always will. Thank You Lord for all You’re still doing in my life. Thank you for all the scriptures you drop into my mind daily even though I’ve been ignoring you. I hear them all Father and I love you. As you know Daddy, it’s going to take some time for me because I want to do things because I love you and not only because you love me. I could not love you had you not loved me first. I could not love period had you not loved me first. Please continue to lead and guide as you have been. This stage will pass Father and I’m yours for “far longer than forever”. Father, this life I’m living is already kicking my butt and killing me. I know that you are the answer to all my questions and that you are the answer to all my problems. I will turn to you when I finally come around. Father, a life without you is such a pointless life. Not one worth living. Help me Daddy as I continue through this life. It’s coming around and in the end, I will “come home running”.

Well…I don’t know what else to post right now, hehe. For all the people praying for me. Thank you so much. I covet every one of those prayers. I need them as you probably have read, hehe. Anyway, take care everyone. I’m doing alright and I’ll continue to be alright until I get back in sync with the Lord in which case I’ll be awesome again, hehe. Bye for now. Wow…I haven’t posted in a long time and suddenly I post something like this, haha. Sorry peoples, lol. It’s just like you said Teddy, we are all motards, lol. We don’t have to be though and I don’t plan on being one for the rest of my life here on earth. =) By the way, for all the words inside quotes, they are song titles, lol. Yeah…I’m listening to music right now too while at work, haha. Speaking of which, lunch time is over and it’s time to get back to work. =) Take care and I love you all. God Bless you all.

Wayne Hsu