IT IS 2005!!! Hope everyone had a great Christmas as well as New Year. Speaking of New Year…the Chinese New Year is also coming up. I gotta start preparing to be called into doing something for that, hahaha. Yeah….no comment, lol.

My Christmas wasn’t too bad. Sat at home with my two brothers, Steve and Alan…not Teddy and Ivo, and played games all night long, lol. My parents were out of town in California visiting my “nai nai”. That was pretty fun. Didn’t really get much for Christmas this year….oh wait. I haven’t really gotten anything at all for many Christmas’s now, haha. Thank you ALL for those those of you that have gotten me things. They are truly blessings. Thanks and may your gifts come back to you as great blessings from God. My parents told me to get something and then have them reimburse me. I don’t think I’m going to get anything. It just wouldn’t be the same, it’s ok though, hehe. I have my parent’s love and support, I don’t need any material thing.

Onto talking about New Years. I spent my New Years in a car…again, hehe. This time it wasn’t with my immediate family. It was with Teddy. We took some people from church home so we were in the car when the clock hit midnight, hehe. That’s ok…we were on our way to meet up with other brothers, hehe. Ivo was alone in his car after dropping people off at their homes. And Morgan and Xiao were in a car after dropping off people at their homes as well. Yeah….that’s how our New Years was. Fun time at dinner though, as usual. Love you bro’s. Don’t know where I’d be without you guys.

New Years Day we spent at Kathy’s house though. That was a lot of fun. It’s so interesting to see what happens during each year. Last year, there were almost 3 times as many people at a party. This time…there was a small handful of us. That’s ok though. The people I spent it with are my closest friends anyway. Minus my best friend Bobby of course, hehe. No one can ever replace him.  It was a lot of fun. Great times, good laughs, new jokes. Praise God for that.

Alright everyone. I have to get back to work. Take care and God bless. Hope you all got the presents you wanted for Christmas and hope you all made your New Year’s resolutions for this year as well as complete the ones from last year, hehe. Love you all. Laters.

Wayne Hsu

I just realized tonight…that I suck at Warcraft 3, hahaha. I was playing that tonight with Xiao and John. On one particular map, Xiao lost ALL his buildings, but had builders left. He rebuilt everything and still kicked my butt in points, haha. I guess I’ll get better at the game soon, lol. Keep playing I guess, hehe. It’s a fun game though, hehe. I enjoy it. =)

What else to talk about? Work is going good, hehe. We just moved around A LOT and now our area is a huge bullpen. Don’t worry…no one gets hurt in the bullpen, hehe. Ok…bad joke. I personally lean towards the don’t like it side, but it really doesn’t bother me too much. I’m just myself and I do my work and get it done. That’s all that matters, hehe. I really do have to start going to bed earlier in order to get up for work though. I’m so lazy, haha. So baaad.

I just bought Jackie Chan’s new movie called “The NEW Police Story”. It’s such an awesome movie, lol. We watched it twice in 2 days, lol. Well…at least Teddy, Ivo and Morgan did, lol. I went to bed cause I had work. See…so responsible. *chuckle*

Man…out of things to talk about. Not really. There is just so much going through my mind, it’s not even funny. Dang you Teddy and Ivo for having me think so much. You guys suck, lol. Nah, I’m glad I do think this much. I’m more thankful that I could just not think if I didn’t want to, hehe. Yay!! hehe.

Welp….it’s Christmas time. Also Jesus’ birthday. Happy Birthday my King. God bless you all. Have a GREAT Christmas. I hope you all get tons of great presents. Be safe and have fun this season. Bye all.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

In response to Teddy’s site. Free dumplings are awesome. They taste even better when you know you get them for just being Chinese. Oh oh…and they taste even better when you are with people who know that you are going to get them for free. Oh oh…and they taste even better when the restaurant makes them sooo good that they taste homemade. mmmmMMMmmMMMm……*drool* Yes…I was with Teddy and Ivo and we went to eat dinner. mMm….soo good. Our new favorite restaurant.

It’s funny….girls always complain about finding a good guy. What about us guys? No one ever really thinks about us do they? Of course not…it’s always about finding the right guy. What about finding the right girl? Huh huh? No one ever thinks of that. My standards are so stinking high for a girl that to be 100% honest….there’s not one girl I know that compares to it. Sorry ladies, I love you all, but my standards aren’t coming down. Call me selfish, call me a jerk, whatever. That’s what normally happens anyway. Why don’t people stop worrying about finding the right person and making themselves right for who they are supposed to be with. Wow….what a concept. Can’t do that cause that would require yourself to change. Woah woah, slow down there….asking me to change for someone else? I can’t do that….

People are way too dang selfish. Period…humanity…there’s none of that left to put trust/faith in. Life is beautiful, people are beautiful, but humanity sucks. It’s so amazing seeing people through God’s eyes and seeing what is going on in the world and where the world is going….*sigh*

If I offend anyone with this post, I’m not sorry to them. If anyone feels like it’s directed towards them….maybe it is.  For those of you that know I’m not talking to you….good for you. =) Whatever though. I’m tired. (take that however you want)

Ocean’s Twelve is out in theatres….I wanna see it so bad!!

Alright, that’s enough for now. I’m tired and it’s late. I just had to put up the dumpling thing and I just got rambling because of other things I read and talked to friends about. Ugh…I’m not who I used to be….I hate this new me. G’night everyone.

Wayne Hsu

Well, I haven’t posted in a long time. I have people on my back about it. *cough* Mike *cough*.

So life hasn’t been too bad. Spiritual life is still lacking a bit, but it’s not too horrible, hehe. I’m still doing my best to do the right things, hehe. That should count for something….but then again, it’s not about works, but about grace, hehe. I basically have to get my butt out of bed and get to church on Sundays, hehe. That’s what’s killing me too…not going to church. It’s hard though when your passion is just about dead. The only thing really keeping me going is the fact that I can’t do anything without God. I don’t have the strength nor the power. On top of that…there’s no wisdom to know what to do. Doesn’t mean I’m not smart or anything, but God’s wisdom will allow me to do anything in Christ. =) Praise God. Thank You Lord for your forgiveness. Thank you for your grace and mercy that renews every morning because I need it every morning.

And now for a special announcement. Xiao has begun moving in. HAHAHA. It’s about time man, hehe. It’s going to be awesome when you move in. We’ll have an apartment full of gamers, lol. Add that on to Teddy and Ivo’s apartment that’s also full of gamers. We could have our own server, hahaha. Kick hackers and own nubs. My definition of nubs = beginners, people who complain about the legit good players, people who think they are all that when they reallysuck, people who just make me mad (not really), and people not as good as me. I love that last one….hahaha.

Speaking of games, I just bought two new ones. *sigh* King Arthur and Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater. I beat King Arthur in a day, but it’s still a really fun game. The gameplay is very similiar to the first 3 Lord of the Rings games. King Arthur has a co-op mode too which is really cool. My brothers are going to love that. I love co-op games. It’s so fun to woop up on the AI with your friend or brother, hehe. I started playing MGS3 too. Gosh…that game is pretty hard. There is so much detail in the game too. The graphics are amazing. So far, everything about the game is just plain awesome. I just hope the story turns out to be awesome too. So far the story is great, but we’ll see what happens. MGS2 started out with a good story too but then turned out to be a horrible story later on. This story is great thus far, hehe. Tomorrow World of Warcraft comes out. I’m so excited. I hope my computer can run it. *sigh* I really have to get a new video card if I’m going to play more games on my computer. Don’t have that kind of money right now though, hehe. Bills are coming back around and I have to pay those off first, nooooo!!! My money!! lol. Stupid taxes too. I could use that money to pay off my bills. They take so much money in taxes. It’s not fair. They should pay my bills too. My gosh. I’ve only been working for about 3 months and they’ve taken over a grand just in taxes. I’m like…AAAH!!! I could have paid off my laptop with that money. Not to mention put a dent in my car payment. Jeez….dang government and taking our money, lol. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy the US. I just want to keep the money IIII worked for.

Didn’t really do much this weekend. Went to bed too late on Friday to wake up in time for Compa. Got my haircut on Saturday with Teddy and Ivo. We got our hair cuts and now…we’re SEXY. (quote taken from Shrek 2) “Shrek and I took a magical potion, and now…WE’RE SEXY!!” Acutally, we already looked good, hehe. It’s just nice to have your hair cut, hehe. Feel so good afterwards, hehe. Speaking of movies, I went and saw “The Incredibles” a while back. Such an awesome awesome movie. I wouldn’t mind seeing it again. They did such a good job with the movie. It was really funny, but at the same time, it was really cute. It had action, drama, comedy, and it was CLEAN!! Awesome awesome movie. I highly recommend the movie to anyone and everyone. There are some new movies out that I want to see too. Hopefully I’ll get to go and see them soon, hehe. It’ll be fun. =)

Anyway…I’m done with work for today. YAY!! Yeah…it took me all afternoon to type this up. That’s cause I was working at the same time, hehe. Take care everyone. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

People are so hard to deal with. Makes me wonder if I still want to go into ministry. But honestly…it’s not my will, but His will be done. I may not want to go into ministry, but that’s probably where He wants me to be. In fact, I’m pretty sure that’s where He wants me to be. I just have a long way to go before I get there, hehe.

So yeah…this week hasn’t been too bad so far. It hasn’t been great, but it’s not bad. So I’ve gotten chewed out twice in two days at work. My manager just isn’t a happy camper right now and it’s showing in how she talks to us. On one hand, we both know that she’s just not happy right now, on the other hand, it hurts us. Well…at least me. I hate making mistakes and doing things wrong and it sucks to have to hear that you did something wrong or that your work isn’t good enough. As a person, that really hurts. On the other hand, I look at it as correction and a chance to do my job better. Which I want to do a better job, I just don’t always get reassurance that I’m doing my work right, hehe. There are still some things that I’m not sure I’m doing right, but no one has said anything is wrong with it so I’m assuming that it’s correct. Probably wrong to assume, but I just don’t have the time to ask everytime I do something I’m not sure of. Maybe that’s an excuse, maybe not. I just really don’t have time, hehe.

I’m talking to my best friend Bobby. Wow…what a man of God and what an awesome brother. He was praying with me over the internet. Afterwards I felt so much better and I started crying a bit throughout the prayer. It was awesome. If you read this Bobby, thank you so much for everything man. God couldn’t have blessed me with a better brother. Such a loving and caring brother that understands me so well. I couldn’t ask for a better brother. I couldn’t have asked for a better friend. I couldn’t have asked for a better soldier. Thank God for you man. I love you so much and wish we still hung out everyday like in Ft. Collins. However, if those days were so awesome, it’s hard to imagine what God has in store for us in the future. Praise God!! Praise Him!! II Corinthians 2:9. I know you love that scripture and I’ve come to love it too. =)

I was going to post more, but I’m not going to anymore. I’m going to get offline now and go read my Bible. I’m just going to do it. No hesitation, nothing. God Bless you all. Take care. Love you all. G’night.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Something really interesting was brought to my attention yesterday. So I love to have K-love playing at my office. I really enjoy listening to it at work, hehe. Helps my day go back faster and it’s postivie and good stuff to listen to.

So a Praise and Worship song comes on. I can’t remember which song it was since I love them all. So naturally, I start singing along. Great song, just enjoying myself, singing along, Praising God. Just then…the Lord drops into my mind a thought. He said, “are you really worshipping me just by singing?” I thought about it for a moment. I’m thinking, yes, I am Praising and Worshipping God.

HA HA!! Little did I know, God had something new in store for me, hehe. He told me that my life wasn’t even one that worships Him. Which is very true. At this point, my life isn’t really a life that displays God. It’s not like I’ve been sinning constantly or anything, I just haven’t really been doing what I’m supposed to be doing, that’s all. So He was telling then that even though I’m singing praise and worship songs, it’s not really praise and worship if your life isn’t one that worships Him. The more I dwelled on that revelation, I realized that it is so true. How can you really Praise God with sing and dance if your life isn’t even a representation of worship? You really can’t. You can fake it easily, but you really can’t praise and worship Him. That’s just what I learned. Maybe you can, but I don’t think it’s possible, otherwise it’s not really worship.

I got my new PS2!! The small one. It’s soo tiny. It’s awesome. I love it. It’s like a baby PS2. Currently playing games so I’m going to end this post here. I just had to put in that new revelation I received. So awesome, hehe. Praise God. Take care everyone. God Bless you all abundantly. Love you all.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

There’s something that’s been on my mind lately and the Lord has prompted me to post it. I think it’s really cool, yet kind of a touchy subject. A lot of controversy over it I guess, but Praise God I know the truth that comes from Him.

So the topic I’m posting about is being critical about things. When I first became Christian, I was very critical about my walk with God. Although I still am, it’s not where it used to be. The first things that changed for me was I stopped swearing, my music tastes changed like overnight, and so did my movie tastes. Basically, speak no evil, hear no evil, see no evil. Not the right order, but I did it in the order I had my things, hehe.

I know that lately, I haven’t been as ciritical of myself as I ought to be. And one may say that it’s ok. The thing is…it’s not ok. We all have to be really critical with ourselves. WWJD isn’t just some catchy phrase or slogan or something. It really is something we should always ask ourselves when we are about to do something. If Jesus were physically with me right now…would He be cheering me on or would He want me to be doing something different? Jesus loved to have fun just like the rest of us so it’s not like Jesus doesn’t know how to have fun. In fact…Jesus was probably partied quite a bit considering the culture, hehe, but He always knew when to quit and He always knew when He needed to set aside time to pray or minister, when to do His duty. There are a lot of things that I do now that I wouldn’t have done before? Good thing? Some probably are and some probably aren’t. I’m not even going to list those things cause it doesn’t really matter what other people think about the list, hehe. It matters how I see it through God’s eyes and I know there are some things that I shouldn’t have done, but I did anyway. It’s no one’s fault except mine.

Eh…I can’t even think right now. I don’t remember what I was going to post about. I’ll post it all out when I think of it. See you all later. Take care and God Bless. Love you all.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Man…I’ve been reading through people’s sites. It seems like everyone is down and/or out. “Life sucks, this sucks, that sucks.” Man..I thought I was the only one being negative. However, after reading everyone’s comments on other people’s site, I feel sooo good, haha. Praise God. Not that they are worse off than me, I just don’t know why, but I was just so grateful for where I was and what I had. It was just interesting, hehe.

I’m finally living in my own apartment, haha. I kept putting it off and putting it off. But last night I slept here for the first time. Exciting, hehe. It was a good night’s rest although the cat kept waking me up. She’s so cute though so it’s ok, hehe. She actually scared me once, lol. Didn’t expect to see or hear anything move, but I did, haha. I just finished getting my table built and computer set up. Yay!! It’s all working. Now I just have to get a chair for my desk. I stole my roommates chair for now, hehe. I’ll get one soon though, lol. I have my chair at Teddy and Ivo’s apartment, but I think it’s way too low for my desk, haha. I have to get a computer chair. My room is a room now. Still needs some more cleaning, but I got all the important stuff set up. Desk, computer, laptop, stereo, lighting. LOL. Yeah…priorities are messed up. haha. Just kidding. I’ll be getting a tv and a new ps2 soon too, haha. But I will have to wait for the next paycheck probably. This paycheck is going ALL to bills, ewww.

Well..I just forgot everything I was going to post about, haha. Life is actually really good. I had so much energy today at work. I was dancing around the office. Jamming to my music, Praising God with a dance, it was awesome. Resisted temptation and I’m going to do some reading before I go to bed. Oh yeah….go God. Welp…take care everyone. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Well…seems I’ve been ripping on other people lately. Now it’s time to rip on myself. Cause I suck.

I haven’t been to church in almost 2 months. Well….I did go to Teddy and Ivo’s church once, but that doesn’t count cause it’s not my home church. I feel really bad cause I leave the usher team out in the dark. Not taking care of my responsibilities to that place. Ugh…all I can really do is go back and ask for forgiveness cause boy do I need it. Something’s been on my mind about that though. I’m part of a CARE group where they make sure you are ok. My CARE group leaders are Asian and good friends of mine. They should know they haven’t seen me in church for so long, yet they haven’t even given me a phone call in the longest time. I don’t understand. But everytime I call them, they are like…oh Wayne, we were just thinking about you or we were just about to call you. Are they fake? I would HOPE not. That would just ruin me if they were fake because I trust them A LOT. Please don’t hurt me!! =*( I’m sure they aren’t fake. It’s hard to go to that church and be fake. At least I would imagine so. The power of God is so evident there and if that doesn’t work (which would be impossible), the preaching would kick your butt. The preacher is so awesome, why don’t I want to go on Sundays to listen to him bust it out behind the pulpit? Ugh….the flesh really sucks and lil ole me here that talks about discipline, doesn’t go to church like a disciplined and faithful person ought to. I have plenty of discipline on some things, but not others. Gosh…I really do suck. *sigh*

Life has been good in Golden. I love it here. No parents nagging at me every night. That’s the main thing, hehe. I get to do what I want and when I want. Requires more responsibility. It’s fun though. So far I really don’t have many responsibilities. That is starting to change though. There is so much I want to do while I’m out here. The reason for me to get out was so I live my own life and really seek God while I’m out here. Tsk…like THAT has happened yet. It will though. It HAS to….I can’t keep living the way I am. As Switchfoot would say, “we were meant for so much more”. And as Stacy Orrico would say, “there’s gotta be more to life”. In case you don’t understand that…Switchfoot is a band and Stacy Orrico is also a singer and those are songs that they sing…respectfully.

Well, that’s all I’m going to post for now. I really have to get going to finish some things. Like laundry, finish putting my desk together, and EAT!! I’m so hungry, haha. For more than just physical food. My spirit man is starving. I should read some tonight….yeah, I’m going to…yay…Go God. I love you. Take care everyone. Love you all. God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit

Few things on my mind lately. Nothing happy either…*sigh* But I’m so glad that my thoughts don’t dictate how well I live my life. Although when I do think of those things, just makes me mad and disappointed. The things that are good are the new people I’ve met. Such great people. I thank God for all of you. ^.^

First things first though, I still stick with what I said before, be quiet about the election. It’s not that I’m mad, it’s not so much talking about the election, it’s more dissing the president, George Bush. He won….and because we live here, we ought to support him now that he’s our president. There’s controversy on how he won, but regardless none the less, he won. Accept it. That’s not what’s been on my mind. I woke up this morning thinking about people’s words and Bush. People are dissing Bush saying horrible things about him. And even though those things might be true, I don’t think we should be saying it. I felt such a heavy burden when I thought about the things people have been saying. They are attacking our president with those words and it felt like I was being personally attacked and offended by those words. I almost started crying this morning. People are joking about moving to Canada and saying how it’s going to be a long 4 years. Personally, if you really hate him that much, move to Canada…bye! And 4 years is 4 years, you can’t extend it nor shorten it. For those of you that are Christian, pray for the president and our country. If you are afraid that he’s going to ruin it, ask for wisdom for him. He’s going to need it if he’s really as stupid as people say. And this is so cool, I’m listening to K-love right now while typing this and guess what. Pastor’s from around the world agree with me….wow, how encouraging. They agree that we need to be praying for our country and our government. That there is a rift between people because of this election. Bush has made mistakes, Kerry would have made mistakes too. God doesn’t count our sins against us, why should we count theirs against them? How are they any different from us? How are we any better than them? Stop making fun of the president because you are just making fun of this country everyone claims to be so great. Ha ha ha…so great indeed, we aren’t even really United….so much for the great UNITED States. Don’t get me wrong, I love living in this country, if I was anywhere else, I’d be so screwed. Like I said before no matter which candidate won….I would still Praise God for him.

That’s just one thing. Another thing on my mind is alcohol. No, I haven’t been drinking, but the talk and topic of alcohol has been a reoccuring theme in my life lately. There’s a friend of mine who just lost her mom due to a drunk driver. The night of the funeral, another family member’s car got hit by yet ANOTHER drunk driver. Thank God no one was hurt in the second accident. Another friend is going through a tough time and she had to make a really tough decision that really wasn’t tough to make, but rather it’s really hard on her now. Before she met us…she was always the designated driver for all the freaking drunk FOOLS. She never drank, but was forced in a sense to be the designated driver to these people. I don’t think I’d let her go with those other people again, hehe. As much as I can do about it, not that she really wants to. What the heck is the point of drinking? Honestly, it’s just plain FREAKING stupid. What are the “rewards”? Destroying your body, waking up like crap the next day and impairs your judgement. It endangers everyone around you as well as yourself. People say that you shouldn’t drink and drive. Well….the Bible says that you shouldn’t drink till your drunk. The Bible was never against drinking….heck, Jesus drank wine at dinner. That’s all he drank and He never got drunk. I personally say, if you never drink, you won’t have to worry about drinking and driving. The only time I will ever drink is on a special occassion like my friend’s birthday or New Years or something like that. Even then, I have like 1 glass of wine. I won’t drink beer. And I NEVER finish that 1 glass of wine. All my friend’s tease me about that, lol. I’m just like…quiet all of you, hehe. That’s just my point of view.

I was talking to my co-worker just now about my friend who lost her mom. I had mentioned that to my co-worker to ask her to pray as well. She just asked me about it again just now. So I told her what happened. I had tears swelling up as I told her what had happened. I could just feel how saddened God was by the whole situation. Have you ever felt the heart of God? Have you ever experienced His love for all of us? But just as a great woman of faith once said, “we ask God to leave us alone and then wonder why He doesn’t help us.” Try telling that to a friend. Kick them out of your life and then expect them to help you out in a moments notice. Unlike us though, God is always ready to help. We just never ask for it. He’s always waiting their patiently and we are always too stupid to ask Him for help. Myself included. We just sit there and when things don’t go our way…He’s the first one we blame. Although He’s blessed me, that’s totally different than when I ask for help. We tell God to get out of our schools and we wonder why kids nowadays grow up faster and are more messed up. And these kids are going to be the ones running our country one day. The experiences they have now are going to stick with them. I really believe in the vision of my church regarding children. To instill Godly values, principles, and morals into them when they are young. That way we don’t have to rescue and save them later. I’ve never seen a better Sunday school or children’s wing or that much emphasis put into our children before. If I didn’t go to my church for the messages, I’d at least go because my kids would be in the best church in the world for children.

My heart is so heavy right now. For my friends, for my family, for my own life and for our country and the world. There really is no good in this world. There are good people and good intentions, but that doesn’t mean the world is good. Don’t get me wrong, there are some VERY nice people in the world. But that’s still the person. Confusing maybe, but it’s not confusing at all. I’m sitting here and doing my work, typing this post up, eating my breakfast and listening to K-love. Also praying too subconsciously. How do I know that…I just know because my heart is in so much pain right now. Just getting in touch with the creator, my Daddy and I’m feeling His heart. I’m about to start crying, but Praise God cause He’s in control. His love is everlasting. I’d be so dead if it wasn’t for his love, grace and mercy.

Much better now….things aren’t so bad anymore. I told you I was posting this during work, hahaha. Praise God! Take care everyone. Have a great Friday and a great weekend. I love you all. Take care and God Bless.

Wayne Hsu and Holy Spirit